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Vdates – Changes

Before i start on my updates, i have a question for you guys.

What do the term “Changes” mean to you and how do you feel about having Changes in your life?
And i mean, major changes, not tiny little ones.
But of course, different individual view the size of changes differently.

Right now, there are quite a few changes in my life, i would say they are definitely good changes but i am really really afraid despite the excitement. Maybe i can list them down, you decide if they are big or small changes. For me, they are all big changes because i believe that these changes change my destiny, and perhaps, bring me nearer to where i deserve.

I shall just compare the Me now and Me 5years ago.

1) I am a Christian

This is a major change because i remember i was a very rebellious kid. I felt that God (Jesus) is not real and even if HE is, we will never cross paths. I cursed, i swore and i said every nasty thing about Jesus but yah, i guess He loves me anyway.
Thank God for God, if not for Him, i wouldnt be able to be experience an intimate relationship with someone that High up. People always think that God is way up there, but ever since i came to know Jesus, i know that God is just right beside. Alot of times, i thought i was about to die, my life has reached the best it can ever go, God shows me otherwise. Too much to explain but i am glad i know You Jesus. So thankful.

2) I no longer yearn for a relationship with a person
Perhaps back in those teenage days, i was lacking of family love and ever since, it has become a habit to find love elsewhere. The habit did lasted for quite sometime but i am glad that something really bad and major happened 2 years back (with my last ex bf) and made me realize that BGR isnt the most important thing in life. I realize that despite the argument that not all men are the same (crappy and shitty), i have more or less gave up on pursuing that fairytale for myself. I came to know that everything on earth can be forced except love. Marriage is important and was deemed to be the most important event in life for me 2 years ago but nope, it no longer hold much place in my heart anymore. Too many sad cases, too much betrayals, too much examples.
If the best happen, it happens (i am not saying you dont have to work for it, you do have to) but if it doesnt, it just doesnt.
so yah, BGR is desired but no longer essential.

3) I no longer commit myself to cigarettes
I quit smoking on the 1st of Jan 2013. I didnt touch a stick till somewhere in May. I rem i was trying to light up a cig since i havent been touching it but it didnt feel very well. I shall not lie about it, i still smoke now and then. But i am not addicted nor committed anymore. It is very very occasional that i will touch cigs again, They always say that “since you have stopped, why get back into it again?” I agree to a certain extent and thus i have never wanted to start the cycle of buying a pack every 2 days ever again.
But i believe, despite the fact that smoking harms, the addiction itself harms more. And thus i quit addiction, i quit the bad habit. It is more important to me, to be able to cut myself from that redudant commitment to smoking. However, i still have to emphasize, while it is not healthy being a social/ casual smoker, at the very least, i no longer behave like a slave to cigarettes and i have no yearnings for it no more. In short, i have control over my desires. Thank God

4) I spend more time with my Family and Mum
I remember spending time with them when i was in primary school. That was quite sometime ago and ever since i enter secondary school, i have stopped. I stopped wanting to know about them, i stopped showing that i care, in fact, i do not care at all. I do not want to have anything to do with the family and family members were just there cos they have to be there. I kinda hated myself for being so insensible then. And now, i have been doing all that i can to make up for lost times, however, sometimes i do fail them. But i am really very thankful that i get back that kinda lovey dovey feelings from my family. I remember having those feeling when i was 7yr old. I have never forgotten about it, i just lost it and am i glad i got it back now. I hope it is not too late.

Please look at the mood swing Mum in these 2 pics.

5) I started exercising to keep fit and not only to lose weight
I always think that exercising is a chore and i still think that way sometimes when i am lazy. But i have come to accept that exercises not only build up the metabolism rate, but also self confidence of a person. At least for myself, it does. It is the best form of motivation and besides being able to look better, being able to be healthy mentally and physically is very important too. Age is a figure but what emits from within is more crucial. Especially when i am more than a quarter of a decade old. Ahem.

i wouldnt say i am in perfect shape but trust me, i love the progress i see in the mirror. I mentioned previously that i am on a programme for slimming and it really does work! Of course, it is best to combine proper dietary plans and exercises. I never believe in taking only diet pills or supplements.
I have another 2 months to go before i see the full result, stay tuned, i am more than willing to share about it!

6) I started to save
Not much but yah, still trying my best to. It is a little late as my peers are all having 5 figure digits in their banks while i…. but better than nothing!

7) I stop forcing myself to be out on Fridays and Saturdays
I used to think that it is a MUST to party or at least be out on weekends so as to ‘not waste’ the weekend away. But nope, i stopped forcing myself to feel tired and i stay home after work most of the time. I will only head out when i feel fresh or ‘awake’.

Love my gf lots. #throwback #ktv

Random Food i eat.

Babies make me happy.

8) I started to leave friends that do not want to cherish friendship
In the past, i get way too upset whenever a friendship has to end. I thought friends are forever. Guess i wasnt so mature.
Friends, in fact, do come and go. I believe God gives us different friends at different phases of life. And although i still feel a little upset initially when i chose to give up certain dishonest and negative friends months ago, i have learnt to let go and now, i feel nonchalant about these 2 persons. They might have helped me alot in the past, but thats the past, what matters now is the present. People do change and so do friends. I have accepted that fact.

9) I have taken a huge step for my health
I shant reveal what it is over here but let’s just say, i have taken a huge step in following up with my doctors (yah, more than 1 doc) regularly and am on medication to improve things.

10) This is a crazy plan
Yes, it is. I cant reveal it now but very soon, you will know what i am saying. I always feel small about myself since i dont know when. I always think that i can never accomplish big things, the good endings are not for me and etc. Thank God for sending me nice angels to be with me, to talk to me, to encourage me. I am taking a huge step to achieve this goal. It is very important to me now and i am really praying for the best. It is not easy as i am not born with a silver spoon to start with. I cant afford to not work, not even for a month. As i have to tc of my family. Thus, i am really giving my best and all. I know there are already people doing what i want to do, and perhaps plenty of them do not have to struggle so much as i do because they came from a better background. But i believe God will show me what He wants for me along the way. By Faith, i believe. God, be with me.

Alright, so i didnt expect to write so much but i did. Unknowingly, i gathered 10 points. I wanted to list only 3 initially. Haha.
What about you? Are you making changes to your life as well? Are you afraid of changes?

I, am very afraid. Thus i always pray for my courage to be more than my fear because fear is there to stay, as long as there are challenges. Instead of asking for it to be gone, i ask for Courage to cover Fear.

But i guess, “changes” are good, because if there isnt any change in my life, it would simply mean i will be as useless as i was 5 years ago.

Haha.

Alright, gtg, till the next post, God Bless!

Oh! i forgot to include, from tomorrow onwards, i will be able to sing for my Christian meetings. I have always wanted to serve as a vocalist in the choir but i didnt dare to in the past. Also, there was no slots available back then. It has been years and i thought that the vision of me singing to God was just a dream that will never happen. Little do i know that, God really does make it happen! In His timing. 🙂
I am very very nervous and anxious. It is not another KTV session, i have to actually be moved by faith so that the worship will be good.
Thus, i am really really very very excited and nervous. Gotta go and listen to the songs on Youtube now, laters!

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A True Love Story of Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny

Morning peeps.

I usually know the title i should name for each post very quickly the moment i started typing. But it is really not easy this time, i will just see what comes to my mind later on.

I had a rough night and i woke up this morning feeling extremely tired and my eyes are swollen. I guess i have not cried so much for a long time and i cried my heart out last night at my neighbor’s wake.

Frankly, i am not a very friendly person (but i can be), i am never close to the neighbors but we do greet each other because that is simply manners.
In short, i do not usually interact much with the neighbors.

Nevertheless, i would like to tell a story today.

The story is not about me. It is a simple, yet magnificent love story.
Sounds cliche much, i know. Especially when it comes from someone (yours truly) that has lost all faith in Love between a Man and Woman, that is. Haha.

Before anything, let me warn you, this is gona be a REALLY LENGTHY POST but it is definitely worth a read.

Ok, let’s start.

Characters
Let’s give names to the characters of my story. There are Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny, their grandson Ah Boy and Ah Boy’s dad…let’s call him Mr Hum.

Don’t ask me why these names, they are fictional names but the they are real characters.

Uncle Potato was 20 when he married Auntie Tiny. They knew they were made for each other then and during their time, getting married at 20 years old is a norm.
Life was not easy and back in those days, there was limited education about birth control and they had a whole truck of kids (i exaggerated, only 7….yah.)
But none of them complain, they knew this is what they wanted, they love their family, they love each other. Despite all odds and hardships.

Note: People nowadays are also capable in saying such stuff, but how many of them can actually do it and endure each other till the end? #foodforthought

Characters and their Family
Time flies and the 7 children grew up, all of them gotten married and the children left the family one by one to start their own family.

Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny were back to where they began, they were left with each other.
The children do come back to the house to visit them quite often though.
Something in the family happened and their eldest son Mr Hum stays with them with their grandson Ah Boy (Mr Hum’s son).

Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny were the ones that gave Ah Boy family love and Ah boy is no doubt, very close to the both grandparents.
Perhaps even closer to them than his own Dad because his Dad has to spend time outside to make a living.

The 4 of them are my neighbors and to be honest, they are really nice people.
I do not have many nice neighbors considering that one likes to gossip and spread rumors, one likes to throw dog poo out of the window and etc.
Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny can easily win the BEST NEIGHBOR AWARD.
They are friendly, helpful and very well mannered, despite the fact that they might not be highly educated, they are humble people.

My First Real Interaction with them
I remember that there was once which Mum and i were locked out of our house, we needed help to make a phonecall and we had no phones with us, we went to Uncle Potato’s house. He and his wife welcomed us with the warmest hospitality. We made our phonecalls and yes, they were so warm and it really touched my heart. I will never forget that small favour they rendered and since then, i grew to like them even more.

About Ah Boy
Please do not ask me where is Ah Boy’s Mother, i am clueless. But despite staying with 2 uneducated old folks, Ah Boy is extremely polite and very sensible. There was a period of time which he stopped greeting my Mum when he sees her and we wondered y.
We then realized that he is actually just a very shy boy and as he was growing up, he probably felt uneasy to interact with people.
We have all been through that phase, didnt we?

However, he grew out of it, he is 11 yr old now and he started greeting my Mum whenever he sees her. There was one incident in which he didnt hold the lift for my Mum despite seeing her approaching. My Mum did not blame him, thinking that he is just a child. But he actually explained to her that he did not wait for her because he was rushing for his tuition and he apologized.
My heart melted when i heard this from my Mum and all i can say is, Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny really taught him well.

The Bad News
The happy days lasted while it lasted. Approximately 6 months ago, Auntie Tiny was diagnosed with 2 tumors in her brain. That news came when she was complaining of headaches. Uncle Potato was heartbroken but he had never give up hope.

Uncle Potato chatted with my Mum then and according to Mum, his eyes turn teary whenever he talk about Auntie Tiny. But he was still full of hope and Mum encouraged him too.

Sadly, there was no good news. The tumors multiplied into 4 and by then, Auntie Tiny had almost lost all conscious of what was happening and she could not recognize Uncle Potato anymore. She could not sleep and she started sleep walking every single night.
Ah boy was really sad, so was his dad Mr Hum.
Uncle Potato felt helpless but all he knew was that he will be there for his wife till the end.
He never sleep a wink everynight and because Auntie Tiny sleepwalk alot, he would walk around the house with her, fearing that she might knock into objects.

This situation went on for 5 months.
One morning, Uncle Potato slept for abit as Auntie Tiny seemed to be resting too. He woke up and found no one at home, feeling panicky, he wanted to rush out to look for Auntie Tiny.
But the moment he opened his gate, there she was, standing at the gate with Kopi, Beehoon and Rice.

Uncle Potato: Where did you go early in the morning???
Auntie Tiny: I went to buy food for you and the family (Ah Boy and Mr Hum)
Uncle Potato: Don’t need la! So dangerous, dont go out again anymore ok?

As Uncle Potato was narrating this part to me last night, my heart melted and i was already tearing non stop but what he said later was worse, it totally broke me up into pieces. I know lah, my threshold for such touching stuff is really low. I cannot tahan one leh!

So, Uncle Potato continued: When we were both healthy, Auntie told me before that she wants to leave first you know?
I: huh, when you both were younger and she wasnt ill that time ar?
Uncle Potato: yah lor. she wanted to leave first. haha.
I: then what did you say?
Uncle Potato: I say to her, Cannot la!
I: haha then what she say?
Uncle Potato: she say she wants and now her wish came true. ahha

FML, my heart shattered again.

The Last Days
Many times after work, i walked pass their unit seeing Uncle Potato hugging a skinny and scrawny Auntie Tiny. They were watching TV prog together and honestly, i was really comforted by the scene after a long day of work everyday.

Because i no longer believe in such love and what was shown to me, in my face was so real and unpretentious. I felt abit ashamed.

As you have already guessed, the time for Auntie Tiny to leave was near…On Tuesday morning, Aunty Tiny passed on.
I did not have a clue because nothing was amiss or different on that morning and i went to work as usual, their unit was not crowded with people or anything.
However, i received a text in the noon from my Mum, asking me to call her. I called her and she told me that Auntie Tiny has passed on.
My heart sank and i was reminded of my dream of her a month ago.
I dreamt that i was chatting with Auntie Tiny and in my dream, she was very healthy, not scrawny, very smiley. She looked relieved.
Wishing that the news is not true, Mum said over the phone that Uncle Potato has confirmed that Aunty Tiny has passed on and the wake will be held opp our block.

Honestly, i cant say i am grief stricken because we were not that close but i really wish that she can stay on longer. I felt sad.
Mum and i went to the wake of Auntie Tiny and Uncle Potato sat with us and shared about their story.
He told me something which i really want to hold dear in my heart, and i really want to share this with my readers, whether you are attached or not (it applies to your family members as well)

Uncle Potato said this: I am married to my wife for 56 years, we are both 76 now. She has been my Only One. No One else.
We bickered but we have never quarreled .
You know why? I believe when a person is gone (dead), he/she will just lie down there motionless, he/she will never be able to quarrel no matter what. So, i really cherish the times i had with her, i have never liked the idea of quarreling.
I will just take whatever she say.
Now, those words are in me, and it is never too late to start to cherish, dont quarrel. Dont even give yourself the chance to quarrel because there comes a day which someone will pass and then you have to get used to the silence.

I totally broke down at this as i was reminded of how quarrelsome i am sometimes, with my family.

Uncle Potato: She bought a lot of rice to wrap dumplings, i threw them away already as that is not gona happen.
We used to go to the market daily, buy groceries, watch sunset together and we go everywhere together.
We would buy 4 ducks, 2 chickens to give to our relatives during CNY.
This coming CNY, i am gonna be alone doing these.
No, i wont cook anymore, because it is tasteless without her.
If she is still around, i am sure we will not only be married for 56years, maybe more.

Mum grabbed Uncle Potato’s hands and said: dont worry Uncle, she has gone to a better place, dont be sad.
Uncle Potato’s eyes was teary and he was fighting back his tears all the way.
It pains me so much.

I finally mastered my courage to say i wanted to see Auntie Tiny for the last time. Uncle Potato brought me to the coffin and there she was, lying in the coffin with a pearl in her mouth (Chinese Tradition) and she was really tiny.
My tears were flowing non stop and i kept telling her to rest in peace and have a good journey to the better place.
Uncle Potato whispered to her “look who is here, your neighbor and her daughter. can you hear what they told you? walk carefully to wherever you are, dont worry ok, bless them ar!”

Mum was crying too, she told Auntie Tiny to not worry, and we left the coffin. Ah Boy was burning paper money beside the coffin. (Chinese Tradition)

Because Mum and i are Christians, we did not offer any joss sticks. We did bow ourselves and frankly, i never felt any closer than the time i was speaking to Auntie Tiny at the coffin. It meant alot to me than offering joss sticks (sorry, no offences, just my personal opinion, i do respect the tradition but yah, i have my own belief)

We stayed for around an hours plus chatting with Uncle Potato and i was really glad that Mum overcame her fear and went to the coffin to ‘speak’ to Auntie Tiny. We bid our last goodbye.

I know that Uncle Potato is thankful that we dropped by but nothing we say will make him feel better. But i believe this loving couple will meet someday. They are just separated for the time being. Maybe the One up there wana give them a tiny test.
Since they have never been separated ever since they were married, this is a tiny test and also for them to miss each other’s presence.

I pray for nothing but God to take good care of Uncle Potato and Ah Boy. I heard that Ah Boy was devastated…But may the Lord be with them. Uncle Potato, i know you will always love Auntie Tiny, she lives in you forever, and i am sure you guys will meet someday.

I cant be more happy to dedicate this very simple, down to earth story to all my readers.This story has no extravagance, no luxurious marriage proposals, no wonderful ending, but it is the most real, most touching and most significant story i ever encountered.
I even thought to myself, perhaps i will never meet such a loyal and loving partner in this lifetime, but i am glad i am once so close to a fairytale.

It is a shame that i got to know this story at a wake, but i am very honored to be able to share this story to many of you.

Remember what Uncle Potato says?

Dont even give yourself the chance to quarrel with your partner because
there comes a day when someone will pass and then you have to get used to the silence.

Cherish your partner and Family. They might not come again even if there is next life.

Meanwhile, Goodbye Auntie Tiny, i am glad we crossed paths. 🙂 RIP in your paradise! This Post is dedicated to both you and Uncle Potato.

Thank God for showing me that True Love really does exists. It might not be on me, it might not be people of this era, but it does exists.
And a True Love Story will never have an ending because this story will go on and on…

Here is a song that my Sister suggested because i was asking her what song suits this story the best.
I have never cry so much listening to this song, although nice, but i am quite numb to loving radio friendly songs.
But, after this, i will always get reminded of Uncle Potato and Auntie Tiny whenever i hear this song.

Indeed, it is the best song ever….

And between now and then, till i see you again, i’ll be loving you….Love me~

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Vshares – Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream ( Milk Tea)

Today i am gona share about Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream (Milk Tea flavour).

Yums, sounds yummy and i am reminded of 珍珠奶茶 (Pearl Milk Tea) every time i mention this product.
I raised my eyebrow when i first saw this product,
I know there are many skincare masks and etc that use food as their primary ingredient (like Red wine, Aloe Vera, Honey and etc)

But Cleansing Cream? Very rare to me.
Perhaps i wasnt a beauty junkie to start with, pardon my suaku-ness (ignorance).

Anyway, i use a normal face cleanser and this is my first time using a cleansing cream. I didnt want to try cream but…

1) it looks too interesting (you know how attractive is Etude House packaging)
2) it sounds kinda yummy for the skin (since bubble tea/ Pearl Milk Tea is so yummy for the tummy…ok no linkage but wadever)

Anw, the real reason why i decided to buy this product was because i am running out of make up remover.
Yes! You heard me right, this cleansing cream actually works as a make up remover, and according to the promoter, it moisturize your skin at the same time. Because it is never a bad thing to hydrate and moisturize my skin more since i have dry skin, i bought a tub to try.

Just for your information, there are other flavors for this series and they are Lemon Tea and Aloe Tea
(as below, packaging as appealing as the Milk Tea flavor)
If i never remember wrongly on the price, it should be 180ml at $7.40

Available at Etude House.

So, you must be thinking what are the 3 different flavors for. Well…. I Dont Know.
LOL

Chill. That was what the promoter at Etude House told me. But for the benefit of my readers, i did a mini research on the differences.

So What are the 3 Flavors About?
Basically, i read up and gathered that Milk Tea is more for sensitive skin and it is hypoallergenic.
This Etude House Happy Teatime Milk Tea Cleansing Cream is formulated with Milk Protein to remove dirt and makeup while keeping skin moisturized with the pleasant fragrance of tea.
Lemon Tea is for oily skin and Aloe Tea is for dry skin.
Most of the time, all 3 of them work equally as well for combination skin.

Well, i did not know these when i bought the Milk Tea flavor, if not i would have chosen Aloe Tea. But i guess it is fine, it works well till date,

All pictures showing my face below are non edited, non filtered (to show true results)

Make up still on.

For Comparison, i removed the make up on my right eye (your left) with Brand XX make up remover. (oil based)

How do you remove make up using Etude House Happy Teatime Milk Tea Cleansing Cream?
Apply cream to all areas of the face. Massage thoroughly and wipe clean with cleansing tissues or rinse with warm water to remove excess.

Here is the rich white cream. it glides on easily and feels very soft against the skin.
I would say it is easy to spread on the face. There is also a mild milky smell.

This is the comparison between the both make up remover.
I cleaned my right eye (your left) with brand XX and my left eye (your right) with Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream ( Milk Tea)
Verdict: The eye that was cleaned by Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream ( Milk Tea) appears to be cleaner.

My whole face is cleaned using Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream ( Milk Tea).

Does it sting or prick the eyes?
It is almost impossible not to get the makeup remover into the eyes. I especially hate it when my eyes are pricked while i remove the stubborn stains. Imagine my relief when Etude House Happy Teatime Cleansing Cream doesn’t sting or irritate the eyes.
However, it does make my eye sight a bit blurry for a few minutes but that’s about it, not painful, no major fuss.

VERDICT:
Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream ( Milk Tea) melts away most of my makeup. It removes almost everything except heavy duty mascara and heavy eye make up.
Etude House Happy Teatime Cleansing Cream does a pretty good job for light to medium coverage foundations and water-proof eyeliners.

Usually, it is easier to remove make up like this using Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream.
(pic is filtered)

Recently i ‘played’ make up with my gf as we wanted to create some different looks. Please dont judge us. LOL
Etude House Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream does not really work its magic that well if you are expecting to remove heavy make up like the above.
(pic is filtered)

OPPS!
One thing that i dislike will be the oily feeling i get after cleansing,. I know that it is not necessary to cleanse another time with my cleanser but i did, because i hated that oily feeling.

YAY!
I love the fact that the cream is so soft and gentle, it doesnt prick my eyes like other make up remover.

Overall, I’d say that Etude House Happy Teatime Cleansing Cream is worth trying – it’s affordable and effective most of the time.
It does help in making the dreadful process of removing makeup after a long tiring day more bearable.
However, i am still on a lookout for better make up remover, thus i will definitely share if i manage to find a better product!

Vshares on Etude House Happy Teatime Cleansing Cream

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Likes: VVV

Will i recommend to my friend: Yes

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Vshares – next coming up – Happy Tea Time Cleansing Cream Milk Tea

You guys know i seldom do reviews but if i do, i will call it my own sharing – Vshares.

I do not like to read about sponsored reviews although they do catch my eyes but i am not very easily convinced that all these advertorials are that awesome.

This is known, i mentioned alot of times.

Thus the next product i will write about, is something i came across and i like it. Unpaid review.

But lemme continue using a few more days (actually, lemme be more free to blog, LOL!) before writing.

Do anticipate! 🙂

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Miracle upon Xmas this year!

I have 2 more months to miracle. Just in time for Xmas! I cant wait 🙂

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明人不做暗事

Hi Everyone.

I just want to say

明人不做暗事。

Thank you very much.

In case you do not understand, it simply means A man of moral integrity never resorts to deception

That applies to all women too 🙂

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Vdates – October Fantastic Baby Edition

Hi!

Happy Monday! I am dozing off after the crazy amount of workout ytd and 1/2 of the atarax.
Actually, i have been deprived of sleep since Friday. FML!

YAWNS!!!!
Ok, before anything, i would like to share my very first Korean POP song.

LOL!

I didnt even know they are called the Big Bang until my little sis told me ytd (we were dancing to this song for Zumba).
At first, i was like “WTF? Y KPOP AH?”

My sis screamed with excitement. I stared at her. She was so excited for K-POP. Goodness.
I dont fancy and i wont be keen in KPOP at all.
Sorry KPOP fans, i dont mean to offend, but i really do not know how to appreciate lah, sorry. I old liao, so i am very “evergreen-ish” LOL

But i must admit that i am addicted to this song, prolly due to the dance. HAHA.
Sometime back, i was asking my sister “eh who is G dragon ar? which band is that ar? y got so many de, y gt Big Bang, gt G dragon, gt don’t know what Tarsha or wadever “(sorry, i really do not know how to spell the right name, if i spell any name wrongly, my bad!)

Sister: G Dragon is 1 of the members in Big Bang.

I: FML. U mean it isnt a band?

Sister: Nope, he is in Big Bang.

LOL! Is this generation gap? I was like…shit, i am really sounding OLD now. But why does people actually like these Korean boy bands ar?
I was looking at the MV for the 13832820 time and i still do not find them cute AT ALL leh?
Ok, there is this blue hair dude with green eyebrows, he looks ok.
Sis say his name is TOP, and is her fav guy in the group. Right.
But the rest are like….cute meh?
I even asked her to please point out G dragon to me, as i was asking over Line, (an app on iphones and android) all she can tell me was “he is the most skinny dude”

I: The long hair on one side guy ar?
Sister: yea.

OMG, why would anyone think this is cute ar?!

Ok, i better stop here. I am sorry Kpop fans, i am really old already, cant blame ah, i am just not appreciative but i really think the music is very addictive. Haha, and very nice to dance along too!

I also admire the fact that they are so creative in their appearances and make up, so yah.
Hope that make up the fact that “i do not know how to find them cool/cute.” -_-

Eh, who is G Dragon again??? Which one???? There is no one with long hair in this pic leh!

Ok, so much for Big Bang and Kpop. Haha, as i was saying, i had my first Zumba lesson ytd with Sis and GF. It was mad fun. But Gf didnt like it much. Both sis and i were enjoying so much n i am yearning for more. 1 hr passed by so quickly. It was really fun, we danced to different genres of songs, and of course, 1 of which was the 1 above, that was my first true ‘interaction’ with Kpop HAHAH!
Actually not exactly, just that i danced to it for the 1st time, Sis plays Kpop all the time at home and i just roll my eyes everytime.
We also tried street jazz, hip hop, reggae, disco, and many others. I was sweating like a pig and it was really fun, cant wait for the next lesson! 😛

Because the GF wasnt really enjoying, so we accompanied her for her fav Body Combat lesson, and you know what, i was so damn sure i cant even complete the class because it was already mad tiring after 1 hr of non stop dancing.
But i did! All of us survived the Body combat lesson and i am extremely proud of myself.
Looks like my stamina is catching up and i am getting fitter! HAHA.

Before that, i was telling GF that i will never complete the Body Combat lesson because of 2 reasons:
1) It killed me last week and i sprained every part of my legs
2) After 1 hr of Zumba, i think i will prolly die there if i continue with Body Combat. It was a back to back lesson, immediately after the Zumba, Body Combat continues.

But we did it! Pats on my own shoulder. 🙂 Did it.

You see, i mentioned before that Exercising really makes 1 very motivated and makes 1 understand that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
Alot of times, we give up when we are nearly there, but if we endure that bit more, we will reach there!

Anyway, i have been pushing myself to work out recently as i was getting complacent. But thank God i found new classes like Zumba and etc to keep me going! It is no longer just cycling and stepping machines, they are rather boring to me now.
Also, i have been lifting weights to tone those flabby arms and working on the various machines to tone the fat thighs. They are not skinny but they are not that flabby 😡 But….

Please ah, this picture is definitely edited. If not my skin wudnt be that smooth looking.
It is filtered like crazy. But with phone app, not photoshop. i STILL do not know how to use PS. -_-

Still a long way to go and i really enjoy sweating, and will continue exercising! I am also on a program that helps to build up my metabolism, aids reducing Visceral fats, (please take some time to click on the link of Visceral fats as it is apparently more dangerous than the normal fats that you can see with your naked eyes). I have been on this program for approximately 20days?
I can already see the small difference of my body shape but i shall sum in up at the end of my program and show some before and after pictures.
I do not think i wana show it now as there will definitely be more differences in the next 2 months, i will show my progress along the way though and reveal the program to you at the end of the program. You be the judge and see if it is effective ok?

Will talk more about that program. Those that are keen to know can pm me at valenciafaithz.z@gmail.com.

Of course, i feel better of myself now because a good change (to the body) is always a pleasant sight to the eyes of many, but most importantly, my eyes love what they see in the mirror. 🙂

Random photo #OOTD

Pardon this super random weird pic, i just love it whenever i flex those hard muscles while fixing the hair.
I used to have really flabby arms, so i am darn proud of myself now 😛

Anw, my past week was busy planning for …Project L, and i managed to catch up with Alan and Zen (my fav maid. haha) over the Friday. It was also Felyncia’s Birthday, though we were never close, but i wish her a very good birthday and may she find her own happiness soon! 🙂

We were chilling at some pub and then went over to 1 of the thai joints. Not a fan of the place, but the company was good, my ex colls were there, catch up with them abit, and guess who i met? Shihui! 🙂

It’s been so long, am i glad to see her again and she still look so beautiful. Thank God she still treat me as a friend as there was some misunderstandings in the past between us. Though we can never go back to those days but thank God we are still well. 🙂

I haven been hanging out for so long and i totally let loose that night and went home feeling a tad drunk. Went to bed at 5ish and woke up at 9 the next day. Made breakfast for myself and felt lik crap. Hangover is bad, but Hangover after so many years, is worse. I was like a walking zombie.

But thank goodness i had enough training back in those days when i was marketing for Lifebrandz, i managed to reach home safely. 😛 Ok, i have to include the fact that i was marketing in that ex co because alot of crazy people actually think i was working as some hostess if i say my prev job needs to drink like a fish. Just a tiny clarification, thanks!

So Saturday, Aunt treated us to dinner and yah, the dinner was really good. In fact, if you ask me to choose spending $ at some restaurant or this place, i will not hesitate to recommend this eating place. It is located at Aljunied, in fact, it is very near to Aljunied MRT station, just beside it.
Every item from the menu is good and it only cost us $160+ for 6 pax. We ordered alot of food that day.
1) Marmite chicken
2) Braised Fish Steamboat
3) Kang Kong (Veg)
4) Xiao Bai Cai (Veg)
5) Salted Egg Prawns
6) Yam Ring

The affordable prices of the food does not compromise with the quality and it is definitely worth it. However, the downside of the place would be the waiting time. It takes a longer time as it is always crowded, and the waiting time for food is rather long too. But that is small problem, i rather wait for good food than eating crappy food at some expensive restaurants.

Yeap. Address of the place is : 76 Lorong 25A Geylang

Anw, like i was saying, i was working out like a mad woman yesterday and i slept like a baby last night. Wanted to continue as a baby but of course, i cant, and i am here, dozing off.

Alright, i am really zonking out and i gtg, till the next post people! God Bless

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Who is the Victim?

Like what the title suggests, alot of times, when 2 parties are in a fight, people tend to wonder who is the one that is at fault and who is the real victim.

Also, at alot of times, it is not that simple and easy to tell because somethings can’t be viewed from the surface.

For example, someone that is constantly portraying that image of being spiritual and kind vs someone that has no intention to hide his/her true feelings.
Who will you sympathize? Who will you trust then?

Yes, i am indeed talking about myself and someone that i was once very close with. I have mentioned briefly previously that our friendship has deteriorated to the worst. There is no room for reconciliation as far as i see. I do not think any reconciliation will happen without Transparency.
To me, any r/s requires transparency and that is what it is lacking in this friendship.

I do not know if i am blogging this with anger, with disappointment or disgust. It is a mix feeling and i dont intend to act like i am an angel. But i hafta admit i am damn pissed off by hypocrisy.

Honestly, i no longer care what the ex cell group think anymore. I mean, there used to be a group which we called “cell group” but ever since the group split due to some crap reason, there is basically a division.

I am glad that i am no longer with certain people in the group because as if the world isnt bad enough, the crazy amount of judgments and discrimination is making me suffer. Whenever that happens, i will be told that these people/ problems are here to train me to be a better person.

Yes, i dont deny that. God does send people to our lives to mould us. But frankly, i have enough of these problematic folks at work, i really dont see the need of mixing around with more negative people (wad’s worse is, they claim to be your spiritual family).
In short, it is just stupid to suffer on and am i glad to be out of the group.

FO Dramas.

Ok, having said that, i am not saying the entire group is evil. I really received alot of help before, from different people in the cell group and they are not all bad and mean. The 1 thing i cannot stand is how mighty some they think they are, there is no humility but only rigid ways of manipulating.

I was judged constantly for every word i say. Anything i say or do can be mis-interpreted and deemed as non-spiritual.
One good example : i am sick and when these group of people ask me if i m ok, i replied that i am sick.
Guess what’s the next reaction from them?
They: You cant say you are sick! You cant proclaim that you are sick! If you do, you will really be sick!

Really??????

Ok, i do believe that the mouth should proclaim the good and not the negative stuff, but i dont intend to lie either. If i am sick, then i am sick lah!
Y should i lie and say that “OH NO I AM SO DAMN WELL”
I will get better isnt it. Must i lie to get better?
Cant i say “look i am sick but i will recover”

So, i guess God thinks it is enough, enough for me. Thus i am out of that silly hypocritical group.

So, yup, i do not care what they think of me anymore. I do not care if they side this hypocritical person that i fall out with and i do not care if they bitch about me behind my back. How would i not know? They bitch about anyone that is in the group, people who left, people who are still around, basically everyone and everyone is at fault EXCEPT they, themselves.

Everyone is at fault but when it is their turn to be wrong, there is always a very good enough reason to back themselves up.

This sounds extremely familiar with the person i argued with and till today, she is still acting angel infront of me and the rest.
Example?

I asked her sometime back: I asked you if you did it the other time, but you said no. Now that you talk about it, it seems like you did, so did u or did u not?
She: Errr. Yes, i did.
I: Then y u say you didnt when i asked you then?
She: oh, because i do not want to affect you, i do not want you to lose faith.

I: ?????

I was in total confusion. Why would hiding something from me be good for me? Why would telling the truth to me make me lose faith? Lose faith in what? In who?

So i continued asking…

I: lose faith in what?
She: I do not want you to think that a spiritual person can do something not right and cause you to lose faith in your walk with God.

HONESTLY SEVEN SHI KAI QI, i didnt say it then because i was totally manipulated, but try telling me that now and i will ask you to SHUT THE F UP.

Stop using God’s name in vain, 7. That is so disgusting. Please.

As for what is that “something she did”, i shall not mention as it is not really nice. I am gonna tell the truth but i m not intending to divulge her personal stuff here.

Like what i told her, i really do not take this shit. She can act like a victim all she wants and go ahead and say it is me that hurt her, that malign her and wadever. Her bf can continue calling everyone that knows the both of us and check if she is indeed so shitty as what i have told him. I am not the one sleeping beside him anyway, so there is no need for him to trust me.

Before i continue saying anything, maybe you can take a look at this and right, this is what i meant by being a Hypocrite:

And just mins, or the most, an hr after i read the above, guess what i see next?

So much for all the LOVE GOSPEL.

She commented on my insta picture, dont ask me what is she trying to say, i have to read it a few times to understand too.
Language aside, see how a person can change from a loving angel that stands by God’s kingdom, to a person who accuses.

I have made myself very clear in my reply to her and if you are still not getting the picture, perhaps i can fill you in. She is saying that i am not talking to her face to face but spreading stuffs abt her behind her back, telling people how displeased i am with her. She assume that whatever nasty picture or post i posted is about her. There was no name mentioned but she just choose to believe it is her i am talking about, without me hinting or anything. She just conveniently match whatever i am saying to herself.

So, the reason why i have gave up meeting up with her to talk it out is because i am extremely tired and it is really not easy listening to lies when you already know they are shit excuses and lies. So why would i wana meet up and waste everybody’s time then?

i have ENOUGH, and i really mean ENOUGH. There are numerous times of me wanting to salvage, i apologized whether it is my fault or not. I just tried to be nice, i prayed and i endured her lies as much as she endured my temper.

Fair enough.

Yes, she was the 1 that kinda help me through my lowest period, she was there for me whenever i needed help a year back and she was really really caring back then.

I am not a person who bite the hand that feeds, i am definitely not a disloyal person that can just disregard someone that helped me so much before. Of course, it is up to me to say what kinda person i am but if you really know me, you would know. You would know that if you help me with 1 hand, i will and i can do anything to help you back, to repay you with both my hands.

But, in this case, does it mean that i am indebted to her forever even if she is lying constantly and disrespecting this friendship/me?

Frankly, there was much struggle inside me and i really felt affected initially when the friendship starts to break down. But as time goes, i became very numb towards her dishonesty and eventually gave up.

I want to spill so much but there are just too many examples and honestly, i dont feel good writing much of her personal stuffs here.
In conclusion, this friend has preached too much, way too much to me, in God’s name but i see ntg of her actions showing what she preaches. Which disgust me.

Secondly, as a friend, she was only there for me when she was single, which is fine too. I mean, everyone does neglect their friends a little once they are in a r/s. But, leaving me alone for the longest time once she is attached. Lying to me and manipulating me with al the bullshit excuses. Wads the point of that? I rather have no concern than fake concern. That is disgusting.

Thirdly, as an insurance agent of mine, there are numerous time of MIA actions from her despite promising my Mum that she wud meet up with her to do the claims and etc. It is fine if she is busy and stuff and couldnt make it. But at least have the decency to text or inform if she cant make it right?

NO NEWS from her at all and only till midnight 12am, she replied that she was tired and busy while what i heard from her bf was that she was already with him having dinner in the evening. Yeap, have time to eat, no time to text to inform. That is very spiritual and responsible.

I would love to add that, none of us (neither me nor Mum) asked for her to come, neither did we fix a date for her to come. She was the one that said that she would be coming over on either Sat or Sun. We let her do the decision making, let her choose the dates and time and we didnt even ask till 9pm on Sunday after hearing NOTHING from her.

How awesome.

So please, Gary, Bf of hers, if you are reading this, please STOP speaking up for her because there is simply no excuses for being irresponsible.
You told me your patients play you out sometimes, you said that they do not turn up despite making an appointment with you sometimes.
But you know what, they are YOUR patients, they are your customers.

In this case, i am a customer, a friend.
I can give and take as a friend, and i can do that if your gf is responsible enough to inform us and not keep us waiting. We didnt even text her till the very last minute of Sunday. (Look, she promised to come either Sat or Sun, if we that mean, we would have texted her on Sat to ask WTF is she)
As a customer, i will totally make a complaint towards sucha agent.

This is not the 1st time that she is behaving lidat?

Previous times, wrong information given to us about the claims, we accepted that, fine, since she said that she will compensate but that is really not the point.

And Btw Gary, please dont come speaking to me telling me you want to know the whole damn shit.
You should stop being a fool yourself first because if i were you, i would be damn pissed off if my gal has to smoke in secret and claiming that she didnt, INNOCENTLY after spraying on some perfume.

Another Lie for you.

And the church people who came to me in shock asking me is it true that she is a smoker.
I mean, cmon, i used to smoke and i still smoke very occasionally.
Smoking doesnt mean one is bad but “hiding” shows alot of the person.

I have never denied nor hide like someone does but well.

I heard abt the lies she told to the people in church, i just kept silent. Recently, she even told me that she has received NO help from a mentor who she respect and claimed to love so much just months before something bad happened to that mentor.
Initially, she proclaimed her love and respect for him, she urged me to stand by this mentor no matter what happens.
THEN, She told me to go ahead and join that mentor and that she will not be involved with that mentor.

How DISGUSTING is that? As if that is not enough, she got the cheek to tell the mentor that she is just busy and that she cant afford the time and etc.

LIES again.

So much for being grateful. When something happens, she chose to go the easy way out. That, of course is none of my business and i cant judge but that enough is the ultimatum for me. I seen enough of her and that’s it.

Lastly, i really would love to say that, i have not gone around telling people how displease i am towards her. I did revealed to a few person, that includes her BF (purely because i thought he would be fair to judge since we were once all friends, i admit that i was habouring the hope that he could help to mediate matters but i was wrong), the new insurance agent ( because she needed to know why i want to change my agent to her), and 2 of our ex cell group friends.
That is a total of 4 person and that is not EVERY1 i met.

But since she want to say that, fine, once and for all, i will write it here. Not to shame her but to clarify myself.

At least i admit telling those 4 person.

She went to tell the same people about how mean i am, crying out to them that i bully her and want to pick fights with her and etc.

I haven even mention that and she wants to turn around and say it is me. ME ME ME ME ME. It is all me.

Look, i cannot conceal my anger so perfectly as you 7, i cant act like an angel and proclaim i talk to Jesus 24/7 like you did. I cant pretend that i still care for you like how you pretend that you still care for me, according to what i heard from the people you spoke to.
I cant pretend to the ministry that “opps, i forgot i have to serve and i wore slippers, thus i cant serve!”
In actual fact, who would forget about serving and wear slippers on purpose just to avoid serving?
Ok, in short, you want to pretend this and that, fine fine fine.
You cant serve the ministry because your forgot that you have to, and thus wearing slippers do not allow you to serve, but in fact, you are so kind and spiritual and you want to serve.
You do not have to account to anyone or explain to anyone because you only account to God and you are of clear conscience.

WHATEVER 7.

I just cant be so pretentious like you are, and i cant pretend to be spiritual and kind.
So, you are the best, i am the crap, i hope you are happy.

There are lots more examples which i really am tempted to tell but i think i shall just leave it as it is, and move on after this post.

I have decided that my life doesnt need such hypocrite to be around, my Mum need not be disappointed again because i have changed an agent and the new agent is extremely nice and helpful.

From today onwards, i want ntg to do with this woman.

At the end of this, i just want to say Thank you for all the help, but no thanks for all the lies, and lastly, i would love to ask you “is that mask of yours so thick that you can actually wear it constantly acting like an angel without being discovered?

And lastly,

is playing victim the latest trend or practice of yours?”

IT IS AMAZING HOW ONE CAN TALK SO MUCH BUT SAYS NOTHING.
AND HONOUR NTG THAT WAS BEING SAID.

SEVEN SHI , The preachings done with God’s name and scriptures really made me shiver and tremble with fear.

How can someone that quote JESUS and preaches like a pastor day and night, on social media platforms and in real life, be so gross n goes on lying and lying behind everyone that does not know the truth.

Putting on an angelic and innocent face, pretending to care, infront of all the people.

GROSS.

Ido not wish to cover up for this person. Not a bit. ANYMORE
You can say i am ungrateful and not being graceful.
But there is simply no reason why we should cover up this deceitful person just because of grace.
Winning an argument and losing a friend might be silly.
But there is Zero cost for losing such a ‘friend‘, because with a ‘friend’ like that, who needs foes?

If she cant respect the friendship and me by lying non stop and taking me for a ride, then why should i hold back anything.

Exposing the person is not Tarnishing a person.
Dont even think of shutting me up just because of your guilty conscience.

And STOP using God’s name. FOR GOD’s SAKE.

To clear the air of being maligned as being ungrateful recently. I just simply mean the above and anyone that is not of integrity, i have all my rights to say what i know. I can confidently say, trust what you read.
It is not that i cant let it go, it is also not that i m so free to harp on it but i really cant bear to see more people falling for sucha trap.
Some loving tender care fake-ness and then being led to lies and more lies.

always remember, the guilty person keep quiet not because she is innocent and magnanimous, but more what can a guilty person says towards the truth?

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