Love this song, and i thought of a friend from a decade ago. I need more ktv remedy.
Archive for July, 2012
Lets not deprive the Secular world of Christ. The Crossover.
The Crossover that doesnt only revolves around “Chinawine”.
Look at the Fruits Crossover bear!
My Girlfriend bring up the topic of the conversation she had with her ex.
I cant help but say this: look, girl after girl, you fall in love with them the same way, you gotten sick of them the same way, you break up with them the same way.
Problem is your sick mindset and
I am writing about Relationship next…i dont even dare to say i am writing about LOVE because i really am not in the position to.
There are lots more to LOVE than just hugs,kisses,sex and pressies…..
I am facing them during this period of my life, more than ever.
Keep my Pastors/leaders and my church in your arms Lord.
Keep me in your arms Lord.
You be the Vindicator Lord. Amen.
Today, i learn something. Never reason with a blind person.
Look, this ah lian might have forgotten the encouraging words i said to her when she posted some emo status on fb.
It is not big deal anyway. Just that, i didnt read her ‘post’ on purpose, it is on my newsfeed.
That time, when she was broken, i felt the pain for her. I shared with her my own pain of being abused physically by my ex bf. I can feel her because she was abused too.
Today, she said something that didnt make sense, like…finding out truth from 50 Youtube clips and i reason out with solid reasons, with logical analysis, she flare up with words lik “F*ck*, together with her childish Boyfriend.
What can i say?
Never reason with a blind person, they might have eyes but they cant see.
People talk nicely and reason/discuss with u, u say people get offended easily, then u block people on fb and b4 that, posted tons of vulgarities.
haix. why so petty and narrow-minded, y lidat ar?
Fyi, The Sentosa House that you are saying, doesnt belong to Pastor Kong. 90million, i am SO sure you see his name on the house deed to determine that the house belongs to him then? *coughs
oh yes, work harder and you can also stay in a 90million house too.
If not, you might have to try opening a church, and see if tt works for you since you think is so easy to earn money that way?
(kidding, in case you really think that i am actually encouraging you to do that. dont ok? : )
May i also add, babe, watching 50 to 100 Youtube Video clips wont get you any truth. If watching those Youtube video, neglecting what was shown and done in church, what was done outside City Harvest Singapore, what was done in China, what school was built (in Sun Ho’s name), what hostels were built in China, what mission works were done in various parts of the world…..blahblahblah.
Then why do we need to go to court? You-tube FTW?
Even though ‘ you dont see her doing anything to do with Crossover” (like u claimed), it doesnt mean she didnt do, is just that…you didnt see?
What you dont know is what you dont know, it doesnt mean she did not crossover, what you see and what you know is what you see and what you know, they are just small parts of what she did. Make sense?
I cant assume that you did not eat just because i dont see you eating right?
A Pop Secular Singer, also a Pastor’s wife, there is indeed a contradiction of status here. Being a pop secular singer means you need to sing songs that are not Gospel songs, means that you might sing songs that people hate.
You might have to wear certain sexy dresses for your pop image and most if not all, are sponsored even.
Being a pastor’s wife, all of the above seem to be so ‘sinful’ to people. 😦
Yet, besides being a pastor’s wife, Sun is also a woman of faith. She needs to spread the Gospel using her Pop Secular’s Status. Because this isnt what she wants? This is revealed to her through God, through Rhema words, through great men of God.
Which also seem to be logical because as i mentioned, is not easy to preach in TW back then, given the fact that the country is not very open to Christianity, but on the other hand, very heavily invovled in Pop culture.
The only way to ‘penetrate in’ is using Pop…
Anw, i have nothing against the little gal in this post, i dont dislike her, i just dont see how it make sense there, watching Youtube, seeing skimpy clothes doesnt really prove anything.
I said enough, but i still wana defend, and i will never stop defending not because i love quarrels, and is def not arguing.
Just that…when you see senseless logics thats so twisted… sometimes, you cant let it go like that.
Yesyes, i have been telling people to ignore such ignorant comments, people have been asking me to ignore as well.
But at times, you just cant because u see something so warped happening…so twisted?
People ought to analyse situations with brains insteadof using mouths…or ‘fingers’.
*names and pictures removed to protect the gal in this post.
(This is also the first time i am actually “talking” about this break up so openly, with slightly more words.)
Honestly, i am so busy nowadays that i seldom have extra time to.
Yes, he does come to my mind sometimes, but i forgot since when, he seem to be out of my mind for quite a long period of time.
I did not realise till i was asked about him.
Other times, it would be some familiar (yet unfamiliar kinda feeling) places we went before or songs we listened to.
I know he is attached now, i am not happy for him but neither am i upset over it.
Guess thats what the world says ….”You have moved on”
Well, i did questioned, how can a guy say he wana marry you for 1 year and then,2 mths after the break up, hook up with another girl so soon?
Then i realised, i was silly to even believe in an unstable man. However, i will save the details of what happened during the 1 year r/s.
My life is not at its best now, but i am really enjoying every activity i am doing now, i totally thank God for where i am at now, for pulling the wrong
out of my life.
(Saying that, it doesnt mean he is wrong for anyone or everyone.
perhaps just not the right one for me.
perhaps there are certain things i can never tolerate but other women are willing to.
To be fair to him, i wasnt the best gf either.
I gave him alot of stress.
I couldnt execute forgiveness
i couldnt handle lies
and I lost myself and was forced to insanity.
When insanity sets in, it is too late and too sad.
Yes, i was in tremendous stress and fear and before i know it, i am in depression.)
I didnt take a very long time to ‘recover‘, but trust me, it wasnt that fast to me either.
Finally, i see myself crystal clear again and started to do things, go to places i enjoyed, before losing myself, started to attempt things which i might not dare to try in the past.
Mostly, i thank God for getting me out of the shit holes of lies, betrayals and physical abuse.
With the constant reports of men having sex with online sex workers, i really couldnt imagine (yet not surprising) if i spot my ex being in the list (if we are still tog). @ the very least, i do not need to fear now.
Having said that, he taught me alot and he gave me a chance to set my priorities, he made me understand that i should never compromise my expectations again, he let me seen the worst in a man, he let me understand that words are cheap. In short, i paid a huge price for a lesson that will benefit me for life, i believe.
Of cos, i have my fair share of bad r/s (s) before, but it has never been so real and painful like this one.
Nevertheless, we shared some good memories, even though is kinda little.
We did smiled and hugged before.
They are not really precious memories, (as in really precious) but i m glad it happened.
I also spend more time with my family, especially my Mum now, we are closer together and i really really treasure it.
Different people move on using different ways, some may see that, turning to religion is a form of weakness.
I dont deny that, because i dont think i am strong after what i have been through.
However, turning to God is actually a different thing totally because in the past, i move on bitterly. Now, i can only say, even though it is the fact that i am so broken due to the way i am treated, i move on with all my heart.
Which also means…i do not wish him dead, anymore. hahaha!
Perhaps thats Forgiveness.
I believe God will turn my ashes into beauty, but i am sure the best has yet to come, and it will come, by Faith and not sight.
(of course, i thank my lovely Mum for being there during the bad times, my little sis for encouraging me and making logical sense to me even though she is about the age my ex is dating now, haha. I wana thank 7 for not giving up on me, and of course, my Pastor Kong for promising that 1 year is more than enough for my recovery, Mr Chew Eng Han, my cell leader and his wife Janet)
Thank you for building me up and preparing me for bigger things, better person, n awesome times.
I say Lord, You are my God, my times are in Your hands 🙂
p/s IS TGIF! Weeeeeee
Friday Friday Friday
Recently, i see a huge amount of OBSCENE advertisements and shout outs from different Night spots (in my FB)
The insenstive artwork i saw of 1 of the clubs. We can disregard the distasteful art, but the tagline is just cheap.
*i adjusted the colors though, and is slightly different from original artwork,
My Facebook is filled with shout-outs from different Nightclubs (NOT the sleazy dirty ktv nightclubs. Nightclubs in this sense, are the discotheques in Sg). and these shout outs have alot to do with One Night Stands, have alot to do with casual SEX and full dodgy hidden meanings.
Firstly, i am not gonna preach about how holy sex should be, it is my belief that when 2 become 1, not only 2 flesh r joined together, but also, their souls and spirits. It should be shared between husband and wife and…. yea, and it should be special in this way and so it is.
Even if sex is not a great deal to most people (like how i used to think in the past), it shouldnt be taken lightly.
Casual sex is fun, but empty (ok, i dont even think is fun because i am a woman, perhaps?)
Casual sex is cheap (even a whore needs to be paid, if you are a free 1, how cheap can you get?)
Casual sex leaves regrets (i guess i do not need to address the issue of Aids here.)
Whatever it is, SEX should never be the main focus of Clubbing. SEX shouldnt be the main marketing focus or direction of an organisation.
I know, i know that Sex sells. I was marketing for a Nightspot located in Clarke Quay 1 year ago, and i practically ‘live’ at the clubs 3/4 of my life back then, seeing tons of different people.
How would i not know that if a Club is filled with sexy hot babes, there will be men, very naturally. Very naturally, sales will be better too.
However, the thing i am saying here is…. shout outs lik – <“I wana Suck and Lick you all night” @ “ReBorn’s Lollipoppy night” >, <“I am yours tonight, play me all over” @ “Monk”>, <“Rub you the right way at “Kaya factory”> are plainly cheesy and downright low-class.
Do you REALLY think that, by saying all that, can attract attention of the right crowd?
The smaller clubs are really desperate for attention as competition is tough here, yes.
However, the so-called “atas” and premium club that’s located in the central of Singapore, in a prestigious Hotel, is shouting about 1 night stands on a weekly basis, Is it necessary?
Whats worse than labelling yourself as a members only club, but on the other hand, promoting your club as a whore den?
I wonder if the marketing person (of those places) is just a sex maniac or he/she just couldn’t propose better taglines, or better stuffs to shout about, besides sex.
To be Fair, not all the clubs in Sg are that cheap. 1 example is Zouk. ( i am not promoting Zouk even though i personally like the place)
They are cool in their way, i dont really see the ‘sex element’ in their marketing collaterals. (yes they have pretty models on the posters sometimes, but nothing too over, no dodgy taglines, no casual sex promos)
I know, Clubbing is indirectly linked to decadence and sex. However, i do not see the need of obscene and somewhat offensive taglines. (unless you’re a strip club).
Many forget that, Music is the main element of a club. Some do not care, some do not know nor understand. Is ok. Is sad, but is ok.
I dont know my music very well, i listen to all kinds, as long as it is pleasing to ears, i do not prefer any specific genre.
Thus, when people laugh at me when i do not understand ‘their music’, i am fine, sometimes, i feel, no1 understands ‘my kinda music’ too.
Clubbing can be fun, with the right amount of booze, Good company, Great Music. They will make a great night for most of us.
I seriously do not think that, by adding tons of Sex promotions and shout outs, will entice the experience of Clubbing much.
Look. those sleazy taglines, sex-filled contents of the marketing collaterals do not really reflect very well on the Club’s Branding and image too.
As Club goers are getting younger and younger nowadays, “thanks for educating them about 1 night stand this way”.
“You really help the society!”
Yes, internet, porno,media are alreadydoing that, but because of your irresponsible “sexual marketing”, you just did your part in encouraging casual sex.
Nope, dont deny that, you help out in that area by portraying that casual sex is ‘cool’.
No matter how we whine, this sad fact might not change much of how the clubs want to do with their image though, however, i sincerely hope that kids can be smarter.
Honestly,it is difficult for the marketing team of a Club nowadays, we know. So difficult to stick to promoting music and other stuffs BUT sex. Thus, if their ideas are limited, we gotta remind ourselves that..Clubbing has very little to do with Casual sex and One Night Stands.
*been there done that, the wild days of partying, the experiences of decadence. not at all innocent and pure. just my 2 cents on how people market their business nowadays. in no position to critisize, but have my right to blog my views, at least-i believe,
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
how lovely is this verse, isnt it?
Was lying on bed when this verse jumps at me. Couldnt help feeling happy that i am constantly reminded about my friend, my dad, my bf, my bro > Jesus (all in one,yes!) is always around me and is with me.
Father gave Him to me, and i am so honoured to be chosen to b with Him.
Thank you Lord, You are so good.