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Archive for July, 2012


Love this song, and i thought of a friend from a decade ago. I need more ktv remedy.

Jesus Fashion

Lets not deprive the Secular world of Christ. The Crossover.
The Crossover that doesnt only revolves around “Chinawine”.
Look at the Fruits Crossover bear!

Love is a 4 letter word?

My Girlfriend bring up the topic of the conversation she had with her ex.

I cant help but say this: look, girl after girl, you fall in love with them the same way, you gotten sick of them the same way, you break up with them the same way.

Problem is your sick mindset and not them.

I am writing about Relationship next…i dont even dare to say i am writing about LOVE because i really am not in the position to.

There are lots more to LOVE than just hugs,kisses,sex and pressies…..

“If you aren’t part of the problem or the solution, its gossip”.

Leviticus 19:16You shall not go around as a slanderer among your people, and you shall not stand up against the life of your neighbor: I am the LORD. Read more:

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I am facing them during this period of my life, more than ever.
Keep my Pastors/leaders and my church in your arms Lord.
Keep me in your arms Lord.
You be the Vindicator Lord. Amen.

Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear? And don’t you remember? Mark 8:18

Today, i learn something. Never reason with a blind person.

Look, this ah lian might have forgotten the encouraging words i said to her when she posted some emo status on fb.

It is not big deal anyway. Just that, i didnt read her ‘post’ on purpose, it is on my newsfeed.

That time, when she was broken, i felt the pain for her. I shared with her my own pain of being abused physically by my ex bf. I can feel her because she was abused too.

Today, she said something that didnt make sense, like…finding out truth from 50 Youtube clips and i reason out with solid reasons, with logical analysis, she flare up with words lik “F*ck*, together with her childish Boyfriend.

What can i say?

Never reason with a blind person, they might have eyes but they cant see.

People talk nicely and reason/discuss with u, u say people get offended easily, then u block people on fb and b4 that, posted tons of vulgarities.

haix. why so petty and narrow-minded, y lidat ar?

Fyi, The Sentosa House that you are saying, doesnt belong to Pastor Kong. 90million, i am SO sure you see his name on the house deed to determine that the house belongs to him then? *coughs
oh yes, work harder and you can also stay in a 90million house too.
If not, you might have to try opening a church, and see if tt works for you since you think is so easy to earn money that way?
(kidding, in case you really think that i am actually encouraging you to do that. dont ok? : )

Enuff said

May i also add, babe, watching 50 to 100 Youtube Video clips wont get you any truth. If watching those Youtube video, neglecting what was shown and done in church, what was done outside City Harvest Singapore, what was done in China, what school was built (in Sun Ho’s name), what hostels were built in China, what mission works were done in various parts of the world…..blahblahblah.
Then why do we need to go to court? You-tube FTW?
Even though ‘ you dont see her doing anything to do with Crossover” (like u claimed), it doesnt mean she didnt do, is just that…you didnt see?
What you dont know is what you dont know, it doesnt mean she did not crossover, what you see and what you know is what you see and what you know, they are just small parts of what she did. Make sense?

I cant assume that you did not eat just because i dont see you eating right?

A Pop Secular Singer, also a Pastor’s wife, there is indeed a contradiction of status here. Being a pop secular singer means you need to sing songs that are not Gospel songs, means that you might sing songs that people hate.
You might have to wear certain sexy dresses for your pop image and most if not all, are sponsored even.

Being a pastor’s wife, all of the above seem to be so ‘sinful’ to people. 😦
Yet, besides being a pastor’s wife, Sun is also a woman of faith. She needs to spread the Gospel using her Pop Secular’s Status. Because this isnt what she wants? This is revealed to her through God, through Rhema words, through great men of God.
Which also seem to be logical because as i mentioned, is not easy to preach in TW back then, given the fact that the country is not very open to Christianity, but on the other hand, very heavily invovled in Pop culture.
The only way to ‘penetrate in’ is using Pop…

Anw, i have nothing against the little gal in this post, i dont dislike her, i just dont see how it make sense there, watching Youtube, seeing skimpy clothes doesnt really prove anything.

I said enough, but i still wana defend, and i will never stop defending not because i love quarrels, and is def not arguing. 
Just that…when you see senseless logics thats so twisted… sometimes, you cant let it go like that.
Yesyes, i have been telling people to ignore such ignorant comments, people have been asking me to ignore as well.
But at times, you just cant because u see something so warped happening…so twisted?

People ought to analyse situations with brains insteadof using mouths…or ‘fingers’.

*names and pictures removed to protect the gal in this post.

Beauty for Ashes

A friend asked today, if i still miss him, my ex.   
My philandering ex boyfriend.
Yes, by the name of Adrian, my last boyfriend before i turned single this year.   

(This is also the first time i am actually “talking” about this break up so openly, with slightly more words.)  

Honestly, i am so busy nowadays that i seldom have extra time to.    
Yes, he does come to my mind sometimes, but i forgot since when, he seem to be out of my mind for quite a long period of time.    
I did not realise till i was asked about him.                                     

Other times, it would be some familiar (yet unfamiliar kinda feeling) places we went before or songs we listened to.

I know he is attached now, i am not happy for him but neither am i upset over it.
Guess thats what the world says ….”You have moved on”

Well, i did questioned, how can a guy say he wana marry you for 1 year and then,2 mths after the break up, hook up with another girl so soon?

Then i realised, i was silly to even believe in an unstable man. However, i will save the details of what happened during the 1 year r/s.

My life is not at its best now, but i am really enjoying every activity i am doing now, i totally thank God for where i am at now, for pulling the wrong
out of my life.
(Saying that, it doesnt mean he is  wrong for anyone or everyone.
perhaps just not the right one for me.
perhaps there are certain things i can never tolerate but other women are willing to.

To be fair to him, i wasnt the best gf either.
I gave him alot of stress.
I couldnt execute forgiveness
i couldnt handle lies
and I lost myself and was forced to insanity.

When insanity sets in, it is too late and too sad.
Yes, i was in tremendous stress and fear and before i know it, i am in depression.)

I didnt take a very long time to ‘recover‘, but trust me, it wasnt that fast to me either.
Finally, i see myself crystal clear again and started to do things, go to places i enjoyed, before losing myself, started to attempt things which i might not dare to try in the past.

Mostly, i thank God for getting me out of the shit holes of lies, betrayals and physical abuse.
With the constant reports of  men having sex with online sex workers, i really couldnt imagine (yet not surprising) if i spot my ex being in the list (if we are still tog). @ the very least, i do not need to fear now.

Having said that, he taught me alot and he gave me a chance to set my priorities, he made me understand that i should never compromise my expectations again, he let me seen the worst in a man, he let me understand that words are cheap. In short, i paid a huge price for a lesson that will benefit me for life, i believe. 
Of cos, i have my fair share of bad r/s (s)  before, but it has never been so real and painful like this one.
Nevertheless, we shared some good memories, even though is kinda little.
We did smiled and hugged before.
They are not really precious memories, (as in really precious) but i m glad it happened.
I also spend more time with my family, especially my Mum now, we are closer together and i really really treasure it.

Different people move on using different ways, some may see that, turning to religion is a form of weakness.
I dont deny that, because i dont think i am strong after what i have been through.
However, turning to God is actually a different thing totally because in the past, i move on bitterly. Now, i can only say, even though it is the fact that i am so broken due to the way i am treated, i move on with all my heart.

Which also means…i do not wish him dead, anymore. hahaha!
Perhaps thats Forgiveness.

I believe God will turn my ashes into beauty, but i am sure the best has yet to come, and it will come, by Faith and not sight.
(of course, i thank my lovely Mum for being there during the bad times, my little sis for encouraging me and making logical sense to me even though she is about the age my ex is dating now, haha. I wana thank 7 for not giving up on me, and of course, my Pastor Kong for promising that 1 year is more than enough for my recovery, Mr Chew Eng Han, my cell leader and his wife Janet)

Thank you for building me up and preparing me for bigger things, better person, n awesome times.
I say Lord, You are my God, my times are in Your hands  🙂

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