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Vdate- a short one before Xmas

IMG_20131213_1Hi birdies`

Hmm… i am feeling a little lethargic here. Maybe it is because i am really tired, maybe i am just looking forward (TOO MUCH) to Friday, maybe i am just a little emo, or maybe is just all of the above.

Well, to make things better, Christmas (my fav day of the year) is just next week. How time flies. It seems like it was just yesterday that i celebrated Christmas.

It is days away from Christmas but it is 2 more LONG days to Friday. This Friday is further away from me because John is away in KL for some tournament and i am supposingly joining him on Friday.

See, this is what i mean by the con of having a r/s. You fall for the person, you are ‘used’ to seeing that person regularly then u start to miss him like crazy and then because of some situations, somehow or rather, you will have to feel love-sick.

Tsk.

But like what he always tell me, the happy days exceed the bad times by aplenty and it makes all the bad times worthy. Oh well.

IMG_20131214_8#lotd last Saturdate 

IMG_20131214_10This is funny, we went to Old Airport Road for super late lunch
(5pm??? actually i wudnt bother to eat lunch since tts dinner time and i didnt wana have dinner at 5pm because it is too early but as usual, someone just has to insist tt i have something in my stomach. Sigh, i duno hw to be skinny lidat…)
Anw the funny thing is, we bumped into my Aunt and Granny. I was shocked and i was guessing John was shocked too but he tried to hide it well. HAHA.
Mum was saying: wah i havent even see him, aunt saw already. 
Tsk.

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IMG_20131214_13ok. i hafta admit, i am officially missing you now. FML 😦

Anyway, work has picked up abit and i feel slightly better as i have clearer picture of where i can head to. As for my personal plan, it is still ongoing but i just wish i am more disciplined.

I havent have enough sleep everyday and frankly, Saturdays r for me to pay up my sleep debts. I have been slacking quite a bit towards my workout too. ARGH. Seriously. I really hope this is just the holiday mood  i am having.

Anyway, it has been sometime since i last brought my family out for a good meal, it will be soon but i have no idea where to bring them this time, any recommendation(s)?

Oh, i am also looking forward to next Friday (already! HAHA) because i am gathering with my seconday sch peeps and i miss them so! The last time i saw them was on my Birthday 7mths ago. The bf also knows them and thus it is quite easy for me, so i do not have to re-intro everyone to him and vice versa. But honestly, i am also running out of idea of what to do and where to go. They say SG is boring but really, i feel it is the same for everywhere and anywhere. What can we expect after staying in the same place for a quater decade?

Clubbing is out. Definitely. Nobody likes clubbing in the group, those who fancy partying are also tired of it already. Yes, it is the age. FOL.
Singing is boring.
Dinner should be it but how long can we take to eat?
Seriously running out of ideas and to think i am the ‘organizer’ this time. 😦

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IMG_20131213_4 He is not the only 1 afraid, i was so stressed out because he is so soft and i am afraid i couldnt handle him. HAHA!
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IMG_20131214_7Went for my spiritual group’s Thanksgiving Dinner. Yes, i am still with Eng Han simply because he is a man of integrity whom i trust and who has helped me in alot of ways. I am tired to elaborate but i hope that the people from church can understand that i am not lacking of HIS (God) presence in BBG. We are growing spiritually and there is definitely spiritual covering here. Thus i really do not appreciate hearing negative views on my choice. I know where God wants me to be at. But anyway, may the Lord build us up in BBG in HIS way.

Ok, I feel like sleeping, my eyes are heavy and i really do not know how to survive till 6pm. I am blogging using my lunch time, so please dont judge me. The office is freezing me and i really just cant keep those eyes open anymore.

Till my next post, which i supposed might be after Christmas, Happy Holidays everyone!

Oh, have a Merry Xmas and take this time to appreciate the day that commemorate the birth of Christ our Lord Jesus! ❤

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Vdates – crossroad (last mth of 2013)

Hi birdies`

IMG_20131206_2Happy eve of Friday! You know how much i cant wait for this…

For as far as i remember, the only time i sleep more than 5 hrs was last weekend but it was very disturbed sleep. I hate it whenever i cant sleep like a baby throughout, kept waking up and drifting back to sleep… 😦

Basically, i feel extremely lost recently. I guess i really have to move on but i am very stuck at the moment because if i were to move on, i wouldnt know what are the new (and prolly alot more) things that will be added to me, i might not be getting what i am getting now too…

Sigh.

Moreover, i need alot of time to do what i am doing currently…

Ok, i bet you guys do not know what the heck i am talking about, please just let me rant and bottom line is, my job sucks. It is not the weekdays that are pissing me off, but yah, i am depressed almost everyday.

However, i am thankful i have John with me, he manage to make me feel better whenever we meet up. I would also love to thank him for tolerating my nonsense, taking my weirdness  (i am very eccentric and i cant be anymore thankful for his patience).
Met up with him yesterday and saw a very pale face, he was sick. So terribly sick and still came all the way to meet me in town. Before that, he didnt even show signs of tiredness or sickness during our earlier convos.

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I: why didnt u tell me u r sick? why cant u just say u r sick and not meet up?
He: because i dun wan to upset you, you dont like changes to your plans.

FML, he is very sick leh, and he still can think of what i think and how i feel? Best BF or what? Hahaha.
Ok, on a serious note, i am really thankful for him.

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at #49seats, we were q-ing forever. that place is truly 1 of the most raved abouts.

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IMG_20131207_6It is actually not bad, i like their friendly staff (not for that old uncle though. damn, he look like a loanshark or somthing)
I love their Al Scampi Sauce (it is beyond description, too nice!) and i guess John’s smoke duck pasta tasted ok too.
Prices can be considered as reasonable, approx $50 for 2 pax (1 main each and 1 side)

I would definitely recommend this place for chillaxing and dates. But John thinks  that the food is just mediocre.
He has high expectations for Western food. :/

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IMG_20131208_1I don’t know what the future brings but we are definitely working on it. As i said, we cant be sure as everything is still too new. We knew each other for over a decade and we dated our friends, we never even speak till 14yrs later? 
But for now, i am very  thankful for you, John. 🙂
Thank you for treating me like a queen, saying things i like to hear, doing things i wana do, giving in to me (thou not al the time)
#grateful

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IMG_20131208_3Chilling with Alan after John’s mini tournament with Thorsten Hohmann. (2013 WPC World 9-Ball Champion)
Oh, and he won Thorsten. How amazing right! HAHA!

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IMG_20131209_2Separately, on the next day, he won another tournament and that trohpy above is my first gift from him! Haha, my 1st time receiving trophy from another person, quite meaningful. 

But honestly, i really feel uneasy day by day because i have nothing to look forward to currently but if not for the money and the ambiguous fog ahead  that i might face, i wouldnt make myself so miserable daily. 😦 

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I am so lost recently that i am thinking of so many weird things to do, like learning how to play an instrument and i even have the instrument in mind already (but it is not cheap thou), i am thinking of getting inked again (not big ugly pics, just fonts), i am thinking of learning new sports like golf (yah damn, i hated golf and i actually tot of it now??) i am thinking of doing alot of things to keep myself going because i start to realise that i cant stand being in the same stagnant place for long. I prolly need some excitement to my own growth.

IMG_20131209_1Went Jamming with the cell group peeps. Pretty gal besides me is Ashley. 

Ayte, i know this is abrupt but this is a really short post and randomly, i would like to say that i cant wait for Xmas to come. I really am looking forward to Xmas very very much, my fav day of the year. Till the next update, be blessed people!

P/S i hope to come back with better news and hopefully there will be improvement to my current situation. 🙂
P/S P/S Thank God my family is safe and doing good though.

To lighten up the mood, this song is for all you guys! I have what and who i wanted this Xmas, (and hopefully every xmas). I hope the same happen to you too!
p/s it will be better if i know where should i  go from here. But i do know that God gives the freedom to me to walk my path.
I just pray that i have mre discernment in my judgments.
God bless~

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let me be empty oh and weightless and maybe

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life
and everywhere you turn
there’s vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don’t make no difference
escaping one last time
it’s easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

At its Best

Sometimes, the most beautiful people and the most beautiful stories are the ones that ended at its best.

A beautiful soul is just a beautiful soul, but e loss of it makes it extremely irresistible and desirable.

And so it applies to many things in life isnt it?

Romeo and Juliet are legends in the  romance world only because someone died, lazy to name the many other examples but you get the drift.

Sometimes, ending the story at its best, can be beautiful…too.

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