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The departure of Eng Han


I believe the people who keeps coming into my blog for my ex Cell Group Leader Mr Chew Eng Han have been waiting for some juicy inside news and thus the crazy amount of browsing and etc.


I am sorry but i have no juicy news for anyone here. I am disgusted by the amount of Kaypos googling on Eng Han at this time. I cant help feeling very very disgsuted.

Last week, Eng Han announced his departure from City Harvest Church and has caused commotion and  gotten many reactions from different people.

Needless to say, many people blamed him for his decision and called him a traitor.

Of course, there are people applauding his courage and encourage him to stand up and speak the truth.

While the CHC or Pastor Kong haters were rooting for him as if he is some WP against the PAP.
It seems political and while it isnt his intention to,  media and immature people made situation seems bad.

From Day 1, he has never for once asked me to leave Church, he has never ask anyone to leave CHC.
There was no intention of sowing discord and all he told me was that he is still my friend and i can still contact him should i need any pastoral help.

I am just a small fry in church, i am less than 5 yr old in Church, yet i have seen and went through the biggest drama of Singapore – in my very own Church.

Is it tiring? yes it is, no doubt abt that.

Afterall, isnt a Church a peaceful and drama-free place?

Well, i feel it depends on how you see it. A person’s perspective and attitude towards every little thing matters more than his or her surroundings.
I feel that my family and i really benefited from Church and its leaders, ministries and people.

For Eng Han to make such a major decision, i cant be anymore sure that he has used sufficient time to consider all the consequences, pros and cons. For a spiritual man like him, prayers is a definite thing, at all time, during or even before the decision was announced.

For those  that judged him and called him traitor, i really really feel extremely offended and saddened.
I understand the wrath one might have because of this decision, it doesnt help when it come at such a weird timing, just weeks before the 2nd half of the trial.

I felt shocked and intimidated too ( initially).

But lets calm down and respect his decision. We have been very judgmental for the longest time. One very very bad point about human race is that we judge all the time and we decide for people what kinda decision they should make.
We like to manipulate and control others’ minds and make them make the decision we ourselves desire.

It is his decision, why cant we be gracious about it and respect his decision and leave it as that?

Are judgments really necessary? Frankly, it doesnt matter. Your views and judgments DOES NOT MATTER.
We are believers arent we?
The very basic of God’s teachings, have we forgotten all about it?

Our views and judgments DOES NOT MATTER, what matters is God’s view. So you shouldnt be pointing fingers at Eng Han and calling him names because that is purely YOUR VIEW, God doesnt view him as a traitor. God doesnt label people that way.

It definitely angered me that people are calling him names because Eng Han is my friend, i respect whatever he did, and whatever decision he makes because till date, he has not done any shameful thing in my opinion.

Likewise, those that do not know what is going on really shouldnt start insulting the Church and the Pastors just because of Eng Han’s announcement. Again, leave it to GOD will ya?

As the story unfolds, God is also unfolding TRUTH. We have waited for years, y not just be patient and wait on for the whole story?

There are ALOT of things happening, ALOT of information, ALOT of unexpected details at this moment.

I do not want to judge or take sides, i will not say anything because ntg is official and i am not a spokesperson for anyone. My knowledge is limited.
If you are really concern, wait patiently, it is only weeks to the next trial, more will be revealed along the way.

Anyway, a person who is really concerned will not slander anyone before anything is official.

At this moment, i hope that the people who knows Eng Han personally can stand with him and his family, it is really really tough for them.
He is prepared to be judged before announcing this decision but he doesnt deserve all the criticisms. Nobody deserves that.

As for me, i still stand by the

1) Crossover mission, nobody says that Crossover is fake, it is genuine and we saved lives.
Nothing is gona  change that fact.

2) The Church is still doing good deeds and Pastors are still giving their best in their preachings.

3) Many were saved and City Harvest Church really helped alot of people and i am one of them.

As for Eng Han, he has done his part for the Church the last 17 years and especially now. I truly feel for him and i pray nothing but Fairness and Justice for him. He is no longer my Cell Group leader but he is my Friend and Mentor forever.

To all who read  this space, lets all be patient and walk through this with prayers and discernment.

Through this incident, i guess i realize once again  that i took things for granted for the longest time. Nothing is forever, and when things like this happen, i realize that i have  never needed more discernment than now…
However, i strongly believe that this is not an issue of taking sides nor staying/leaving CHC. If you are concern for the parties involved, pray for them. Wish them well.

As for yourself and even myself, guess we have to discern which direction is spiritually beneficial for us, which direction is God’s path for us and will build our growth.

Instead of being a kaypo, instead of asking what happen constantly and finger pointing, all we can do is to be still and Let God.
Oh, i have alot of you texting me asking what happened, what church EH is going next, this and that. May i say, these are all redundant to know at this moment. So please dont ask me such qns anymore.

Lets keep the Church and  the 6 in prayers. Especially for the bbg group of friends, may God bless us with utmost favour this period.

Happy 2013!!!


Happy New Year!!!

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My very very first post to welcome the New Year 2013! Just mins after the new year leaped in :p

Wishing everyone Good health, and much blessings from the One above!

2013, you better be better to me than 2012.
If not, you will get it. huhur, i will make you real GOOD!

Thank God for a good good year ahead.


Bye 2012, Hi 2013!



I am still around, havent disappear abit. Just that, i dont feel like writing/speaking/interacting much recently.

I do not know exactly how to explain here, call me being isolated, but i feel free without much interactions with the world (at least, for this period of time).

No Social Media, No Whatsapp and Smses (not much, unless necessary. sorry if  i didnt reply much to the msges) – the feeling is awesome.

I guess at some points of your life, you would wana stay away from all these stuffs, and just spend time by yourself and with people you deem worthy.

I just want to be alone. Now. Like, really alone, no parties, no hangouts, no dinner with frens (i still love the frens).
But just alone at home, watching my fav shows and drama series/movies, talking to Mum, accompanying her and aunt.
It feels the same as a getaway holiday, except that i am still in SG.

Some of my friends commented  that i am leading a 35yr old’s boring life, things i do are very routine and doesnt seem like a 20ish yr old person wud do.

Actually, i kinda think so too (haha!), but i really do enjoy alone time, perhaps i just need a break from everything, the politics from work, the drama from some friends, the disappointments given by friends, physical stress, mental stress, wadever!

But, as much as i am giving signals of being depressed, please rest assure i am NOT suffering from Depression.
Yep, i aint depressed!

I just need time to be alone, i realised that is been very long since i spend time with ‘Myself’ and i really cherish tis ‘Me’ time.

And, and and! thanks people who care, who care to come to this corner to read about me, to know and find out how am i.

But i am really NOT APPRECIATIVE OF THIS following:



People who know me, even if is just acquaintances, know that I HATE PORNOGRAPHY. I was so shocked to see this in my stats. I mean, i see what people type in search engines like Google or yahoo to search for blogs to read, to search for my blog or anything i blog about that is related to their interest for eg. (Christ/ Church/ a-friend’s-name).


Ok, i do not know how it appears there, probably because i blogged about SEX previously. But it was healthy, nothing sexual or porno. It is just a blog post about how i view casual sex and how it shouldnt be condoned.

So, no matter what it is, if you are a porno freak, you are not welcomed here. I mean it, YOU ARE NOT WELCOMED here.


Ok, whatever it is, I hope my pointed is noted, nothing wrong about lustful or sexual people, i am not saying i am so ‘saintly’ that i find sex disgusting, nope, i just find porno ( porno lovers) very sick.
Ntg wrong with watching porno (to some people, not to me), but i just dont fancy being friends with porno lovers nor being associated with them. Call me judgemental but it is a problem to be dealt with, it is not healthy and it is proven scientifically, for a single OR a person in a r/s.

Well well, that is that.

There are million of things to be unhappy about, like seriously.

But i still want to be thankful. I hope i can rant it all out before this year end!

Like, the annoying colleagues who are playing politics everyday, that are questioning you on your jobscopes when they should be minding their own business. Sincerely, i hope they are happy after all these ill and evil mind games.
I still thank God i am employed that is.

Like, the certain group of friends whom you thought you treasure till you feel so upset  that they keep disappointing you.
I still thank God that HE reminded me that i aint perfect too.

Like, the family member that is so distant from you…
I still thank God that HE keep her safe from harm and  that’s all it matters.

Alright, 2012 has been a year of ups and down. And as i mentioned before, 2012 was really a much better (x100) year than 2011. My 2011 was disastrous!

I have been watching this TW drama (ok i am really slow as this show was sucha old show and everyone has watched it except me) call 犀利人妻.
My 2011 is almost like the female lead in that show, except that i aint married and i thank God i aint. Haha.

Not on r/s alone, but as a whole, i was like An Chen (the female lead in the show), inferior and feeling small about myself, getting used to that comfort zone and refused to improve, hiding all the potentials in myslf, full of self-pity, putting my hope on a wrong man (just that the male lead in the show doesnt abuse his wife la, he betray only. ok, thats bad enough-but i got both from my ex. LOL)

Whatever, i feel tired to even type about 2011.

I am just glad that my 2012 is filled with love and salvation, i believe i wrote about my better 2012 previously, so you go read my earlier post if you dont know what has changed in my life. haha.

But Praise Lord, now my dear aunty whom i have nt been speaking with for years, has started to join me and mum more often for gatherings and has opened her heart to Christ. 🙂
I feel God is very good, HE is leading the impossibles (yes, my aunty was rather skeptical and not so friendly nor nice in the past) to HIM. And slowly, one by one, my family members (in this case, my aunt) are closer to HIM and also me! Wee!
Salvation 2012!

Ok, maybe i will touch more on 2012 (or maybe not?) in my next post.

After this long long post, i just want to use this chance to greet everyone a ” HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013″! 2012 has been good, but the best has yet to come and 2013 will be your (and my!) BEST YEAR as yet! 

I dont believe in New Year Resolution because usually, not many people that i know of can do what they have listed. #trustory
To me, if you want to change for the better, you can do it ANYTIME. There is no need for wadever NY resolution.

So to 2013:
– I pray for the safety and good health of the people i love, my mum, sis, aunt Carol, my cousie and her mum, granny and uncles.
– I pray for Salvation for my family members
– I pray for myself, to not only be employed (still) but prospering with knowledge and wisdom!
– the list might go on but seriously, I pray for God’s presence (for with His presence, the list can be shortened & everything else will      be in place. hurhur)

I am counting down to knock off (another 5hrs) and celebrating with Mummy! You have a good and very blessed 2013 ya!






Lotsa Love,

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days o’ lang syne!

For auld lang syne, my dear
For auld lang syne,
We’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet
For auld lang syne!

We twa hae run about the braes,
And pu’d the gowans fine,
But we’ve wander’d mony a weary foot
Sin’ auld lang syne.

We twa hae paidl’t in the burn
Frae morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roar’d
Sin’ auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand, my trusty fiere,
And gie’s a hand o’ thine,
And we’ll tak a right guid willie-waught
For auld lang syne!

And surely ye’ll be your pint’ stoup,
And surely I’ll be mine!
And we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet
For auld lang syne!

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