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Vdate- a short one before Xmas

IMG_20131213_1Hi birdies`

Hmm… i am feeling a little lethargic here. Maybe it is because i am really tired, maybe i am just looking forward (TOO MUCH) to Friday, maybe i am just a little emo, or maybe is just all of the above.

Well, to make things better, Christmas (my fav day of the year) is just next week. How time flies. It seems like it was just yesterday that i celebrated Christmas.

It is days away from Christmas but it is 2 more LONG days to Friday. This Friday is further away from me because John is away in KL for some tournament and i am supposingly joining him on Friday.

See, this is what i mean by the con of having a r/s. You fall for the person, you are ‘used’ to seeing that person regularly then u start to miss him like crazy and then because of some situations, somehow or rather, you will have to feel love-sick.


But like what he always tell me, the happy days exceed the bad times by aplenty and it makes all the bad times worthy. Oh well.

IMG_20131214_8#lotd last Saturdate 

IMG_20131214_10This is funny, we went to Old Airport Road for super late lunch
(5pm??? actually i wudnt bother to eat lunch since tts dinner time and i didnt wana have dinner at 5pm because it is too early but as usual, someone just has to insist tt i have something in my stomach. Sigh, i duno hw to be skinny lidat…)
Anw the funny thing is, we bumped into my Aunt and Granny. I was shocked and i was guessing John was shocked too but he tried to hide it well. HAHA.
Mum was saying: wah i havent even see him, aunt saw already. 



IMG_20131214_13ok. i hafta admit, i am officially missing you now. FML 😦

Anyway, work has picked up abit and i feel slightly better as i have clearer picture of where i can head to. As for my personal plan, it is still ongoing but i just wish i am more disciplined.

I havent have enough sleep everyday and frankly, Saturdays r for me to pay up my sleep debts. I have been slacking quite a bit towards my workout too. ARGH. Seriously. I really hope this is just the holiday mood  i am having.

Anyway, it has been sometime since i last brought my family out for a good meal, it will be soon but i have no idea where to bring them this time, any recommendation(s)?

Oh, i am also looking forward to next Friday (already! HAHA) because i am gathering with my seconday sch peeps and i miss them so! The last time i saw them was on my Birthday 7mths ago. The bf also knows them and thus it is quite easy for me, so i do not have to re-intro everyone to him and vice versa. But honestly, i am also running out of idea of what to do and where to go. They say SG is boring but really, i feel it is the same for everywhere and anywhere. What can we expect after staying in the same place for a quater decade?

Clubbing is out. Definitely. Nobody likes clubbing in the group, those who fancy partying are also tired of it already. Yes, it is the age. FOL.
Singing is boring.
Dinner should be it but how long can we take to eat?
Seriously running out of ideas and to think i am the ‘organizer’ this time. 😦

IMG_20131213_4 He is not the only 1 afraid, i was so stressed out because he is so soft and i am afraid i couldnt handle him. HAHA!

IMG_20131214_7Went for my spiritual group’s Thanksgiving Dinner. Yes, i am still with Eng Han simply because he is a man of integrity whom i trust and who has helped me in alot of ways. I am tired to elaborate but i hope that the people from church can understand that i am not lacking of HIS (God) presence in BBG. We are growing spiritually and there is definitely spiritual covering here. Thus i really do not appreciate hearing negative views on my choice. I know where God wants me to be at. But anyway, may the Lord build us up in BBG in HIS way.

Ok, I feel like sleeping, my eyes are heavy and i really do not know how to survive till 6pm. I am blogging using my lunch time, so please dont judge me. The office is freezing me and i really just cant keep those eyes open anymore.

Till my next post, which i supposed might be after Christmas, Happy Holidays everyone!

Oh, have a Merry Xmas and take this time to appreciate the day that commemorate the birth of Christ our Lord Jesus! ❤

Vdates – crossroad (last mth of 2013)

Hi birdies`

IMG_20131206_2Happy eve of Friday! You know how much i cant wait for this…

For as far as i remember, the only time i sleep more than 5 hrs was last weekend but it was very disturbed sleep. I hate it whenever i cant sleep like a baby throughout, kept waking up and drifting back to sleep… 😦

Basically, i feel extremely lost recently. I guess i really have to move on but i am very stuck at the moment because if i were to move on, i wouldnt know what are the new (and prolly alot more) things that will be added to me, i might not be getting what i am getting now too…


Moreover, i need alot of time to do what i am doing currently…

Ok, i bet you guys do not know what the heck i am talking about, please just let me rant and bottom line is, my job sucks. It is not the weekdays that are pissing me off, but yah, i am depressed almost everyday.

However, i am thankful i have John with me, he manage to make me feel better whenever we meet up. I would also love to thank him for tolerating my nonsense, taking my weirdness  (i am very eccentric and i cant be anymore thankful for his patience).
Met up with him yesterday and saw a very pale face, he was sick. So terribly sick and still came all the way to meet me in town. Before that, he didnt even show signs of tiredness or sickness during our earlier convos.


I: why didnt u tell me u r sick? why cant u just say u r sick and not meet up?
He: because i dun wan to upset you, you dont like changes to your plans.

FML, he is very sick leh, and he still can think of what i think and how i feel? Best BF or what? Hahaha.
Ok, on a serious note, i am really thankful for him.


at #49seats, we were q-ing forever. that place is truly 1 of the most raved abouts.

IMG_20131207_6It is actually not bad, i like their friendly staff (not for that old uncle though. damn, he look like a loanshark or somthing)
I love their Al Scampi Sauce (it is beyond description, too nice!) and i guess John’s smoke duck pasta tasted ok too.
Prices can be considered as reasonable, approx $50 for 2 pax (1 main each and 1 side)

I would definitely recommend this place for chillaxing and dates. But John thinks  that the food is just mediocre.
He has high expectations for Western food. :/


IMG_20131208_1I don’t know what the future brings but we are definitely working on it. As i said, we cant be sure as everything is still too new. We knew each other for over a decade and we dated our friends, we never even speak till 14yrs later? 
But for now, i am very  thankful for you, John. 🙂
Thank you for treating me like a queen, saying things i like to hear, doing things i wana do, giving in to me (thou not al the time)


IMG_20131208_3Chilling with Alan after John’s mini tournament with Thorsten Hohmann. (2013 WPC World 9-Ball Champion)
Oh, and he won Thorsten. How amazing right! HAHA!

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IMG_20131209_2Separately, on the next day, he won another tournament and that trohpy above is my first gift from him! Haha, my 1st time receiving trophy from another person, quite meaningful. 

But honestly, i really feel uneasy day by day because i have nothing to look forward to currently but if not for the money and the ambiguous fog ahead  that i might face, i wouldnt make myself so miserable daily. 😦 


I am so lost recently that i am thinking of so many weird things to do, like learning how to play an instrument and i even have the instrument in mind already (but it is not cheap thou), i am thinking of getting inked again (not big ugly pics, just fonts), i am thinking of learning new sports like golf (yah damn, i hated golf and i actually tot of it now??) i am thinking of doing alot of things to keep myself going because i start to realise that i cant stand being in the same stagnant place for long. I prolly need some excitement to my own growth.

IMG_20131209_1Went Jamming with the cell group peeps. Pretty gal besides me is Ashley. 

Ayte, i know this is abrupt but this is a really short post and randomly, i would like to say that i cant wait for Xmas to come. I really am looking forward to Xmas very very much, my fav day of the year. Till the next update, be blessed people!

P/S i hope to come back with better news and hopefully there will be improvement to my current situation. 🙂
P/S P/S Thank God my family is safe and doing good though.

To lighten up the mood, this song is for all you guys! I have what and who i wanted this Xmas, (and hopefully every xmas). I hope the same happen to you too!
p/s it will be better if i know where should i  go from here. But i do know that God gives the freedom to me to walk my path.
I just pray that i have mre discernment in my judgments.
God bless~


Merry Christmas 2012

Merry Christmas to everybody!




To me, Christmas is ALL about Jesus.

Happy Bday my dearest Jesus. I Love You!

Have a good celebration and i am counting down to knocking off, 40 more mins! -_-zzz

Joy to the world, Jesus came! (Updates + early Xmas post)



Merry Xmas! I love December, my fav mth of the year. Yah, my fav mth is not May, not my bday mth. I love xmas.

*Would love to thank WordPress for this awesome snow feature! So cute isnt it, seeing snow falling dwn while reading. Weee
(I changed the theme of my blogskin, this isnt exactly my fav skin tbh. I like white skins. But i will kp it till Jan because of the falling snow effects. I tot a darker skin goes nicer with the falling snow)

 Even way before i am a Christian, i love xmas. I thought it is a very romantic festival. Haha. i dont even know why. Maybe it is in the mth of December and even though there will never be snow in Singapore, but we are all yearning for snow in our hearts! 🙂

However, after i became a Christian, Xmas means more than just romance/fun/parties/turkeys/music. It means very very much to me. It is a day to commemorate You-Know-Who. Haha. I LOVE JESUS!

Yes, it is to commemorate His Holy Birth. Words cant describe hw thankful i am to Him. Born to earth to suffer as human and for us. Ever wonder y the whole world celebrates Xmas though not everyone is a Christian? I am not sure too, but i (hope to) believe there is a place for Jesus in everyone 😛

Anyway, many people do make use of Christmas to get themselves intoxicated in clubs. Tsktsk. If thats what you are intending to do, please dont ok? Use this day to spread love to more people (more on that later), show love to your family and loved ones 🙂 Jesus is about Love, Christmas is about Jesus, so…Show Love!

I am listening to Mariah Carey’s Christmas album now. My heart is dancing. hurhur.

I was feeling chirpy when i start writing this post till those nasty colleagues start irritating me again. I kp telling myself i need to really chill.


L stands for 1 of those nasty people i face. Me is me la.

L: eh, y is M so much better than u ah? y isit that she can do it and you cant ar?
Me: I dont do photoshop, i dont know how and i stated that i am a Marketer and i dont touch design works. I conceptualize but i dont do manual design works.
L: dont know why she can and u cant.
Me: y dont u get her back then?

Look, i wasnt trying to b mean, i am extremely pissed off yes, bt i really hope they can be clear abt my jobscope. I tried my best in designing using Microsoft and if my best isnt enough, then i guess is obvious whats best for both of us right? I duno y people here likes to demean people lidat.

Another one added in:

A: Oh, we cant blame u. The previous gals are more intelligent generally.

(yah, call me sensitive but does she mean i m like…stupid? i dont meddle with designs but it doesnt mean i didnt contribute to the company, moreover, i am never a designer to start with)

On my 1st day at work, i was told that i am ugly, I am not pretty, I am merely ok looking because of my thick make up (n i only put on eyeliner and foundation at wrk). I am really ok, (if it was the past, i would b really upset). What i cant accept is, how can they be so rude huh?
I was told by the people here abt hw nasty is the wrking environment and hw nasty is the boss.

Oh, and i realised, they might be talking abt themselves since day 1. Really.

So, thats about my working environment basically. Everyday, there are gossips flying around and there are hurting words and statements floating around. To be honest, i am not very happy but i have told myself to not be affected by such people…though is not that easy.

Anyway, enough, because the more i talk about it, the more i m bitter. I might as well touch on happy stuffs.

Ok, this Xmas, i will probably spend with my mummy. Though she sleeps really early. I will see if there are other plans or anything. Yes, i admit it is kinda boring to spend with the tv and your teddy bears. I do not particularly need a bf to be with me but it will be nice if you can spend with a loved one. My friends are prolly nt really planning for anything. I am still thinking what can i do to make my Xmas more meaningful this year and not just spend it like any other year.

1 year flew pass and i remember i was a total wreck 12 months ago. A total wreck that cries everyday. haha.

Actually, looking back, i dont think i achieve alot but i think i am better off, and is SO MUCH better off, after 12months.
Seven said that i achieved alot in this 12months, well, thank u my dear  but i personally dont think so.

Maybe i can list down what r the changes that took place and hw my life is better? Yea.

1) No longer in fear, no longer tying myself to the bondage of fear
2) No longer is abused physically and mentally
3) Spending more time with family, get to know and understand Mum’s thinking, feelings and her life more.
4) Earning better than previous jobs
5) Spending more financially on Mum, providing a more comfortable life for her
6) Serving in a ministry in Church
7) Helping out in various voluntary works
8) Manage to control my temper though not fully but am more disciplined
9) Manage to noe how to save $
10) Manage to be less calculative with $
11) Learnt how to pray with boldness
12) Learnt how to not feel lazy (especially when needed to wake up early to do hardcore labour works for some poor families)

Actually the list can go on but i cant think of anymore now, so make do with 12. Oh ya! Haha, there is this song call 12 days of Christmas! And there is an Indian version, it is super cute. I posted in my FB. I shall post here. Haha.

This Christmas, Mummy is going to Church with me to celebrate again. I cant be anymore happier. Last year, she missed the candlelight service, this year, she is going for both candlelight service and main service. I am also praying hard to bring my Aunt along. Pray for me ok!

My friends, Gary and Seven, did their part in spreading love for children at a charity event last week. Though we are not exactly doing the same thing together, but i feel happy knowing that, though we are not in the event together, the 3 of us are actually doing our part for the children/needy this Xmas. I participated in City Harvest Church Bag of Love, it is completely voluntary and i am given the chance to buy gifts for the children in the children church.
We can choose to give to the kids from Children church or the kids from JAMs church (these kids are mentally challenged).

Here is my gift bag to the kid at JAMs Church! (though i do not know which kid will get to receive my gift bag, but i pray that God bless the kid n shower the kid with His Love!)



 So this is Winnie the Pooh Bottle. Cute right?
I bought all the items in blue, because i thought it is nicer than errr Pink? Of cos, i hope the volunteers in church will help to match the right gift to the suitable kid lah. Dont think they will give a girl this bag since the items are all blue and alittle ‘boyish’. However, i thought, a girl wont mind the color and can use the items too but if i buy pink….not many boys would like?

How Cute! Mickey and Minnie Pencil Case.


PhotoFrame, i dont know what else to buy and i just grab whatever i see.


Painting Palatte


I won this Monkey at a Catholic Church CharityFair. I was there with my ex Nicholas several years ago. It has always been wrapped up since day 1. It is still VERY NEW, so i am not giving away items i dont want ok. I just love this monkey and honestly, it is not very difficult to give the items that are purchased like the above. But it is not easy to part with something i cherish, and i thought, since i am giving a gift, i should give with something i find hard  to part with. Thats where the real blessing goes right? haha. ok, perhaps only i think this way. But anyway, the monkey is on its way to the kid! May monkey bring along my best wishes!


I forgot what is the name of this Elephant! Pencil set!


I love drawing whiteboards when i was young but mum didnt like it so she always refuse to buy for me whenever i beg  for one.
Even up till today, she insist that the marker is ‘toxic’ and it will be harmful for kids who come in contact with the marker pen -_-


The Complete set 🙂20121201_153947 There is this distributor near my place. Thus the above are not very expensive.
Not to say i am cheapskate, but what i mean is, you can get nice stuffs at a value for $ price also.
I checked for the quality too, and it is really not ‘cheapskate’ at all!


Mascots around the Church for Family weekend. Lindy (beside the skinny Koala)  is the lady in my Ministry group 🙂IMG_20121130_6IMG_20121130_5


IMG_20121130_4Had Dim Sum Dinner + Desserts with my family on Friday evening last week.

Mum says there is no space for Xmas tree.
But i am going to Daiso anyway, to see if there is anyting i can find (to decorate).
(hopefully my 2 days  leave – this week, will be approved)
Lol. i remember how i used to hang socks on my bed and my sis’s bed when we were young. In order to not disappoint her, i would put some fake pressies, like sweet and lego pieces into the socks and tell her it is from Santa.

So, there you go, my updates. I promised to continue from where i left off (my last blog post).
However, not in the mood to write about disappointments today.
But i will definitely touch on that, later.

This Xmas, i urge you to spread love to people around you, or just do something to share and give!
This is a way advance Xmas post, maybe i will be back with more xmas posts!
Because i will never get enough of Xmas!
Ayte, gtg
Till then.


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