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Acceptance.

Approximately 15 minutes ago, i was very depressed.

I was asking for a favour from my sister and although it is not unexpected that she turned me down, i still feel pricked because probably i still have hope in me (that perhaps she will show some care by saying Yes)

However,  she turned me down flatly and even say things like “you said you can do it alone”

Sure, of course i can do it alone.

I am doing it alone, arent i doing it alone from day 1?

I know that nobody is obliged to help me out. It is a dream that both of us wanted and since the day she backed out, i am still in this dream.
It is fine, i wanted it.

But despite the fact that she isnt in this with me, i still think alot of how to share this dream with her, should this dream harvest into something fruitful.

But i guess, that is just one sided.

I guess what i do not understand is not about why she reject my plead for help.

I do not understand why as blood tied kins, how can someone so close (that came out from the same tummy) is able to feel indifferent when it comes to rejecting a favour asked. She feels nothing, AT ALL.

She just threw me a sentence “i dont feel like”

Now, that is very hurting.

I would offer my help with all i can even if she says that she is able to do it alone. Is that very stupid or Kay-Poh of me? Should i mind my own business in future?
If i do, i will feel uneasy and selfish, perhaps that is my character. I cannot bring myself to say things like “well u wanted to do it alone, so you do it alone, why are u complaining?”

Because i will feel for the other party, i will know how stressful she is, i will try my best to help even if she does not ask anything from me. I cant bear to see her feeling stressed all alone….

So why cant she do the same for me???

20minutes later, which is now…

I feel much better.

I guess i have only Jesus to thank.

I thought of Him. 

If you have to know, i can share with you.

Look, my belief and faith towards Jesus is strong but my love for Him isnt strong enough……Why would i say that?

Well, I am sure HE is there for me every second and is waiting for me to turn to him and give HIM some attention. But honestly, i didnt.
Most of the time, if i am not busy working and planning out my dream, i am watching some TV drama series.
I only talk briefly to HIM for 5minutes before i sleep and less than a minute when i wake up.
I am sure HE feels as sad as how i feel now….

But if HE were to feel hurt and expect me to be as patient as HIM, HE would have given up on me long ago because i can never be as faithful, i can never give HIM my constant attention.

But HE loves me still. That is unconditional love.  That is Acceptance.

Thus, as i am typing this, i can feel my heart lighten up, feeling much better. This is the 1st time i try thinking of Jesus when i m very depressed and helpless, i am ashamed to even say that this is the 1st time but indeed it is.
In the past, i just allow myself to be sad and wallow in self pity and sadness but this time round, i have too much on my plate to handle, i cant afford to waste time in sadness and insecurity.

I cant be anymore thankful, thank you Jesus, thank you for making me understand that every1 has her flaws, and i have my flaws too.
Most importantly, i cannot and should not expect anyone to be as “helpful” as me, there are things that i cant do too and if anyone expects that i do the same thing and behave the same way as them, i would be unhappy too.

Maybe this lesson is for me to learn – everyone has different character and personality, she might be less helpful but perhaps she is more calm when it comes to arguments. I shouldnt expect of her to be the same as me like how she wouldnt expect me to be the same of her. Maybe i should let go and stop expecting. Somethings can’t be forced but some relationships are destined, we cant change that. Thus we should really learn to Accept.

Thank you God.

Now, you might find that this is silly, but i really did manage to feel better and now i am off to do more constructive things, to plan for my project.

I am not trying to help anyone here but i just need an avenue to pen down my thoughts. I haven been opening up ever since i was told  that i am ill and that i need a shrink…

I might find strength in my Faith, but if you are not a believer and you think that Jesus is like Santa Claus, perhaps you can also see things in another perspective…
There will always be someone that is nicer to you than you know, he or she will accept you unconditionally, it might be your Mum/Dad, your Spouse or Partner? I wouldnt know, but you know, because he/she is the 1st person that came to your mind when i mention this.

However, this person has never once expect the same from you, he/she forgives and loves you even though you are not as nice as them. This world is never fair, quoting my sister “if the world is fair, all fingers will be of the same length”.
While you are upset with others failing your expectations of them, there are people who are equally upset with you but still accepting you… Maybe you would like to do the same, by accepting another person who sin differently as you?

I am just saying. Like i say, i am not even sure if i can help myself because of my illness, i am not so noble to help the world. I just wish to pen down my thoughts and share if i can.

Till the next post, may Love take over all. God Bless`

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Decision collides with Faith and it turns into a Belief

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Today is the most hated day of the week.

Sometimes i wonder why is Monday sucha poor thing.

It takes on all the hatred and blames just because for most of us, it is our job that sucks.

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I am so wanting to change this,  so wanting to  do things i wana do in my own timing and then perhaps, Monday will no longer be blue ever.

But it is not easy. 

I heard alot of msg of Faith and Courage but i still cant help fearing.

I wonder if i can do it and for now, i dont even know how to go about it.

But i believe no matter what, My God is with me.

And HE is gona unfold page by page.

And if my plan is aligned with His, He will bless me and do the impossible while i take care of the possibles.

Please guide me as i take each tiny step.

Amen.

Vdates 3rd week April 2013

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Its another week and i am seriously dreading the coming month. I have no mood to celebrate my Bday and i dont even like the idea of my Bday approaching that fast.

Totally hated it and am still dreading it. I know i shouldnt but i cant help it. My Bday seems to be shitty every year.

Anw, first and foremost, i feel so sorry for the loss of  one of the local actors. He passed away last Sat due to lymphoma cancer.
I am not a big fan of local entertainment/ mediacorp shows or ‘celebs’. Well i just watch wadever is on the tv since the tv is already on most of the time when i return home from work, daily.

But this actor can really act, and he does not possess that arrogant aura that most of the local celebs do. In other words, he is rather humble as he appears.

It is the loss of Singapore’s media scene.

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Rip Mr Huang. You will be missed. 

Anyway, there are too many sad news recently. I guess the world is turning sadder day by day. Nobody want to read or hear about the news nowadays because it is filled with too much sadness and negative stuffs. What makes it worse is the ignorant comments coming from the netizens.

There are bombings, serious rape cases, stupid adultery scandals, natural disasters, wars and whatnot.

It is really depressing to read about the news now.

I have not much to update too.

I am not really happy but i aint that depressed now… it is getting better for me, i guess.

While i am still not very motivated for the plan i had but i know i have to face it someday unless i quit.

I am giving myself a break till May. Will officially get really busy when May comes. Time really flies isnt it. Before we knw it, it is already almost half a year of 2013.

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Anw, just to touch on the sermon of Mary Magdalene (i mentioned in my previous blogpost)..

I rem i was still in a very depressed state and i just suddenly decided to read some biblical material/ books. I do not usually like to read, i rather listen to sermons most of the time.
Thus i dont usually pick up those stack of books on my desk.

That particular night…i picked up 1 booklet sent by RBC Ministries .
Previously, Christina (my CG mate) registered for me and got them to send me materials regularly.
I was really guilty of not reading them because i am lazy… 😦

So anw, that night before i read the booklet, i actually said a short prayer and i mentioned “Jesus, i do not know if you are around. I know you are real, but i do doubt your existence whenever i am so depressed…i am guilty of that but if U are around, will you please give me a sign?”

Then i went to my bed, still tearing, holding a booklet by RBC – it is about Mary Magdalene.

I was reading by myself and my Mum came in.

She on her daily podcast (i seriously think God is very good to my Mum. She was playing with her radio on her hp previously and she just randomly chance upon this FM channel that gives sermons daily in mandarin) and she began to listen.
I do not usually listen to her podcast as it is in Mandarin, i am more used to listen to English ones but i do listen with her sometimes.
She might not understand what she is listening but she enjoys listening and sometimes she would ask me. I am so happy for her.

So that night, she came in with her podcast and i read my material…I never talk to anyone in the family after the fight with my sis, thus i just do my own stuff while she does hers.

As i was reading this in my mind in English “Jesus chased 7 demons out of Mary Magdalene and the name of this lady was mentioned in the bible for more than 12 times…”
Mum’s podcast was speaking the EXACT WORDS IN MANDARIN!!! OMG.

I was so shocked, i mean..what are the chances!??!

I dont usually listen to her podcast and i dont usually read the books sent by RBC…
But on that particular depressing night, after i made that tiny prayer… I actually experienced this very rare and weird, yet peaceful encounter!

 I do not know how to describe but it is very amazing. Some might tell me it is just coincidence but i really do not think it is so coincidental…Somehow, something in me tells me that Jesus gave me this sign that HE is there.

I feel peaceful and i fell asleep with Peace in me, for the 1st time after the fight broke out between Sis and me in the family.

As i type this now, i can still feel the goosebumps… Just imagine! Reading and listening the same thing altogether, in 2 different languages and coming from 2 different sources, in the same room.

It is very creepy haha but it is really very miraculous.

Praise my Lord for the little surprise 🙂

Anw, just fyi, after reading, i actually realise that alot of people including myself, mistaken Mary Magdalene as the prostitute, or the woman that committed adultery in the bible. She is actually NOT and there is no concrete evidence that she worked as a prostitute. 

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But i have to say, the devil isnt some1 that gives up easily too. I was disturbed in the morning, when i was praying, there is this constant voice (not literally in my ear but more like it is speaking in my head. I cant tell if it is psychological on my part but i noe the uneasy feeling in me) that ask me why am i praying and speaking to me telling me  that it is of no use even if i pray.

The feeling was very uneasy and i rem feeling very tired and angry…

I never stop praying though and i even play the worship Songs sang by Sun and i tried to keep myself calm while listening and praying at the same time.

The uneasy feeling only went away after a while…

For non believers, you might be skeptical because i would be too. Even the believers might find it hard to believe but all that i share here is true.
I just thought of sharing and hopefully this encourages you that God is always with you, no matter what you are going through.

It is hard for me because i realise that everytime i minister to people in need, or even when i am just assuring friends and readers in my blog that God is around us, something not so nice wud happen to me, and i know perfectly well that it is from the evil and NOT from God.

I know that my assurance will bite back at me each time but i believe my God is larger than the world’s problem, He will not leave me nor shortchange me.

As i am typing now, situation at home still did not change and it is as bad as it can be and thus i m not looking forward to my Bday. I always thought it will be nice to celebrate with my family, with fun and joy… but looking at it now, it most probably wont happen already.

But by Faith, i am still hoping for the best, even if it doesnt happen on my Bday this year, hopefully things will turn out better soon.

I still believe that God will turn every situation around that is meant to break me.
I still believe that HE will use every situation to bring out the best of me, for me.
I still believe whatever HE allows is for the Best final end result and the process is not important.

Besides, they say that before a great blessing come pass, there will be trials..isnt it?

Frankly, my Christian journey is full of ups and downs. There are also a huge number of skeptics in my life, be it close friends or just friends…
I have people questioning my Faith, i have myself questioning my own Faith, i have people questioning my character and my thinking…

Sometimes it is tiring for me. I am a Christian and that doesnt mean i am perfect, it just means that i am so well aware that i am imperfect and thats why i humble myself and i allow God to work in me. I might fail now and then but i shouldnt be judged as if i am Jesus Christ Himself… Instead, i hope you can see what makes me better and who actually help me along the way. I am trying my best to be good but sometimes i fail, and i fail really hard. Do you know that my best is nothing compared to God’s? Thus i am trying to let God take over, it is easier said than done actually.

I always say i should stay happy no matter who say or does what to me. In this world, too many people are teaching you what to do and what not to do.

I have people telling me “hey you should do this and you shouldnt do that”, i have people saying that “how come u like urself so much that u have to post pictures of urself all the time?”, “how cme u look better in pictures?” , “how come you are not as rich as compared to others in your church?” “how come you still lose your temper, you are a Christian and you shouldnt be angry”, “how come u r not dating? u stay at home everyday, how to get a bf like that? you should go out more!”….. SERIOUSLY.

Worse, a hairstylist who is apparently my church friend even say that i shouldnt cut my hair short because i am not skinny.
Yes, i am not skinny, i am not super slim. I am voluptuous but i am Not fat. But in ignorant Asians’ eyes, a UK8 or 10 is already Darn fat.

So, why do these people care so much? Do they really care or do they just wana talk bad about you?

Look, why cant i upload pics of myself? I like to!

Look, why cant my pics look better than my real? I dont look that bad in real please, my pics are not photo shopped and i am not admitting that i use photoshop because i do not know how.
They are filtered like everyone else’s, i did make use of apps to make them look better by adjusting lightings & colors and i admit that i use a new software now  (on my android)  to make the skin look smoother, the chin sharper.
So? Every gal does  that too, so why are u faulting me?
I like what i see and i do not change the entire picture to be another person. You can still recognize me from the pictures isnt it? NO?

Look, why cant i have short hair just because i am not model-thin? So curvy gals should always have long hair to cover the face? I dont get it.

Look, why cant i be angry? It doesnt mean i am a robot with no feelings just because i am a Christian!?

The world is madness. People are not looking at themselves but they are looking at others and criticizing others.

It is easy to say “Ignore others, just do everything with conscience and with integrity and feel happy” but how many can actually do that and not feel affected?

It is really not easy to live with critical people and the world will really be better if people stop teaching others what to do.
But it wont happen so we have to always adjust ourselves. Sadly.

Well, i thought of dying so many times before. (of course my problems are more than what i typed up there lah. Obviously i wont want to die just because people’s critisize me of not being skinny right?!)
But honestly, if Dying is the solution, the whole world should be Dead long ago.

We are all waiting and anticipating that ray of light each and every day isnt it?

So, thats the life i am living. Everyday. I am not any better than any of you here. Just in case people think that i am living very well and happy and  thus i can post all the positive and happy posts. I did not reveal my sadness previously, but that doesnt mean i am not sad ok. I am sad.

But i guess i am learning to be happier, everyday.

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I believe God will not shortchange me, maybe there is still hope in me. Haha.

Even if is 1% of hope. I hang on to it…I hope that you are hanging on to Hope too. For you will not know what tomorrow brings.

Ok, i dont know why it turns a little emotional now.. haha, so i better stop!

On a side note, i am loving my skin now. Havent been so perfect for quite sometime! Thanks to Hada LaBo!

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Ok, this is Confirmed non edited/ non filtered – bare skin under normal lightings.
Get that bottle of Hada Labo and try out now!

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Gf is complaining to me now over wechat, haha. I am blessed to have cute and awesome friends. Though not alot but i am thankful for real friends and a few of them is enough 🙂 And i miss the 4 babies of Gf!

I cant wait to go back to church, head out with gf, 7 and Gary soon, hurhur.

Today is Monday, arghh. 4 more days to weekend and i seriously cant wait. What makes the wait even more miserable and unbearable is my injured leg. Guess i overstretched it and i am kinda crippling now. I hope it gets better so that i can go jog soon 😦

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IMG_20130420_18Mum and me eating infamous Tao Huey at Granny’s.

As i said, i have nothing much to update now so i shall stop here. Till e next post! God Bless.

Some Pictures (ok, is ALOT) of my Hair now, i love the Purple streaks (and some of them turned pink now)

I might get rid of them soon? Still deciding if i should do another color, so i better showcase them now. haha.

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My Savior Saves

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Praise Lord!
Declared Brain Dead But Resurrected On The Third Day:Lawyer Suzanne Chin is convinced that what happened to her four years ago is nothing short of a miracle.

The mother of two was living and working in Hong Kong when she suffered a heart attack, was hospitalized in a coma and declared brain dead..

Doctors said a valve in her heart had been severely damaged, she was neurologically lifeless & there was no point in keeping her alive – he, her husband should take her off life support..

Specialists told her husband she suffered from Brain Stem Death & that there was ABSOLUTELY NO CHANCE OF RECOVERY.

(Franck: Say that again? ABSOLUTELY NO CHANCE OF RECOVERY)

During her coma, she recounted:

“I saw myself lying on a bed unable to move or speak. A man appeared on my side & I felt something sinister about him. He told me that if I wanted to move or speak, all I would have to do was to follow him. I demanded that he leave me alone, but he would not. I PRAYED without ceasing..

After a while, he faded away..This vision repeated several times, but on what appeared to be the last occasion, the man started to get angry. He threatened to ‘take’ my daughter if I refused to ‘follow’ him. Again, I was resolute & unyielding, telling him he had no power over me as I was a child of God.

It was at that moment I woke up from my coma to see my husband John.

Skeptics told me it could be just a dream but what’s amazing is that this happened at a time when I had been pronounced brain dead medically.

Not one doctor who treated me in hospital or subsequently any specialists that I have seen since, either in HK or in SG, has been able to account for the speed of my recovery or that I was able to come back from that hopeless position at all.

If one looks at it rationally & logically, there is no explanation for what happened. I truly believe that this was a miracle from God & that I have been blessed a second chance.”

Ms Chin & her hubby said that while both are Christians, neither was committed or active in church at the time. (*not anymore right? Can u imagine? Even with ‘half-baked-faith’, she still had help from an intercessor….)

..her brother, Dr Alan Chin, a fervent Christian who flew to HK, & prayed with John.

Dr Chin said: My medical training told me there was no hope, but my faith in God said that there was hope in Jesus Christ.

John recalled mounting pressure from the medical staff treating his wife to ‘put Suzanne – & his family – out of misery by switching off machines that were keeping her alive. Even when she made an occasional twitch, they quashed his hopes by insisting that it was purely a reflex. Their talk always returned to ‘saying goodbye’ & ‘letting go’…

Suzanne: Without my family’s Faith…I would not be here today…

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That Faith belongs to God..

Well Jesus…You did it again..& again…& again..& again….& again ..& again…!!!!!

Any speculation that this is purely coincidental is a weak argument..

Praise Him, Love Him & Fervently Hold on to Him:)

Amen & Amen….

** I did not write the article above. I am sharing it because i am so touched by God’s love. Original source Here.

I have a friend, he believes that only Medical Science can heal a sick person. He will probably go “you know how amazing is the human body? You never know how it can recover itself, it is def not God”

There will of cos be debates. But i choose to believe it is a Miracle. At least, it is what the patient been tru and believes. It is a situation whereby medical science couldnt account or prove anything.

I am not in Denial, i just trust my Savior.

Vdates March

V-dates   IMG_20130324_1 Hi! It is rare that i blog on a Sat. But i am doing it today anyway.

Well, i should be running now but looking at the time, i hesitated. TBH, i dont usually care about timing when it comes to jogging as long as it is night and dark. No sunlight please. I am used to running at night, 12mn, 3am? No diff to me.
But i have been receiving warnings and advises from various people, warning me and super against me from running at such hrs.I appreciate the concern, really. But i love running in the dark, quiet and peaceful.

However, tonight, something inside me tell me to listen to the advises and not run. It is however, 2am now.
Call me timid but i am super cautious about my well being recently, you know, besides having tons of dreams that i havent achieve, i am also very concern about my loved ones.

I do not want anything to happen to me and cause any sadness to my loved ones.
Thus i am staying in tonight and hopefully do some stretching and crunches tomorrow.

First and foremost, Vdates simply means Valencia Updates in short- a record of my past weeks events and whatnot.
I am sweating like madness now, the weather is crazy now and i am sweating even when i am stationary at home, sitting on a crouch. Can you imagine the pain. ARGH. Ok, typing till this part, i can no longer endure the warmth as it is killing me and i hate to blog in such condition.

There is no A/C in the living room and i have to run to my  bedroom for A/C.
I do not really like doing much in my bedroom except for sleeping and watching online movies- something that doesnt require me to use my brain. Thus i shall continue tmr or Mon. I cant take the heat, so…sorry! no updates till then! Will be back^

Sunday evening 9pm….

Hi, i am back but i doubt i can finish this post.
Just finished 3 hrs packing  my wardrobe.
It is not that i have plenty of clothes, ok maybe i have but most of them are impulse buys and some are old  and the fact that it is super messy doesnt help.
I am so lethargic now and the weather is CRAZY since yesterday. It is so warm and humid.

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Slept at 5+ am this morning, watched a Chinese show call ” Together” starring Kai Ko (that dude in the TW school show), Michelle Chen (that gal in the same TW school show), Angelababy (omg, she is super super pretty) and the Ip Man guy….oh Donnie Yen.

It was a terrible show. Besides eye candies, there is ntg much to watch. After regretting, i dl Resident Evil- Retribution. I knew i make the right choice but it was already 4+am and i watched a little before drifting to sleep.

I love the feeling of drifting to sleep, super tired kinda feeling rather than rolling on bed, ‘waiting for the right time’ to fall asleep :/

Btw, i have done repairing my lappy at $60. It is cheap, yes, but it is still money.
Others might not get it, like W, he thought it was really cheap and that i am still ‘whinning’ about $60.
But it is still money to me and i am saving money for 1 big plan of my life, thus i dont really appreciate when that kinda “y u so stingy attitude” surfaces.

It is also true that my fren used to reformat my comp for free in e past…but well, since i am there (sim lim) already…might as well just get it done.

Nevertheless, i thank W and his friend for the good deal & finally, after weeks, i am relieved that i am able to return W’s lappy to him.

I dont really want to have the indebted feeling, and i feel i am obliged to have, in this whole ‘borrowing and asking for reference for repairing saga/incident/situation’

Anyway, i am a grateful person, i will thank you with the bottom of my sincere heart. But i dont really like the feeling if the person who help me EXPECT me to keep saying thank u, keeping sucking up and etc. I really dont like it that way.

Shrugs. Anyway, I am really clueless with typing out all the happenings, i shall post pictures and let pictures and captions do the talkings. It is easier for me that way, and clearer for you people too!

Oh, the Star Awards advert on tv (constantly) is kinda irritating me (perhaps you too). LOL.

Sis is baking coffee cake and cookies now, cant smell any better…WEEEEEE

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IMG_20130319_9 IMG_20130319_2 IMG_20130319_3 Did Scaling and polishing to remove nasty stains. Am i happy? Absolutely.
Perhaps i am saving for Teeth Whitening too!
Thank God i stopped committing myself to Smoking, never gona  get those nasty smoke stains ever again.
I do not have before and after pictures because i simply cant be bothered and i 4gt to take the ‘Before’ pics but just imagining it alone can be rather disturbing already.
The Pics above are not filtered.
yeap, scaling and polishing can make the teeth looks so much better already, imagine Whitening.. IMG_20130321_194601   My prayer this month is with Chris and her Dad, i sincerely pray for Mr Wong to get well and i am praying here a bold prayer. I know i have a couple of believer friends reading this blog, may i request for your prayers for Mr Wong, who is currently very ill. He small intestine is bleeding internally and if he doesnt go for the ops, he might be in huge danger. If he does, it might be worse as he is already very old. Please keep him in prayers.

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Work in progress… IMG_20130321_201345   After visiting Chris and her Dad at TTSH, i went over to Gary’s clinic. Yes, Gary has opened his own clinic this March. I didnt help much, except for some simple chores, and i am still guilty of not going over ytd to help him with reception works. I knew i was in trouble when i couldnt sleep the night before 😦 Sorry Gary!

Yea, his clinic is relatively new and thus he needs more help. Though his clinic is new, he has rich experience in treating body aches, and guiding you to keeping fit. You may also read more of him at http://www.garytho.wordpress.com

IMG_20130322_003816   And we hang out a little, Seven,Gary me at Wendys for their awesome ice cream cones after a pint over at Harry’s

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Walked the dog, watched a horror movie – the old Exorcist (very old school) Drank Moscato. Ate Hotdogs. Ate Mc breaky.
Super slack and i anticipate myself to be over often. #haha

There are Belle (black Labrador), Toro (White Maltese), Miko (Mongrel). Noshii was not in that night. IMG_20130323_20 I was his bed for the night IMG_20130323_19I IMG_20130323_18

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  Also, i would like to ask…If you are looking to adopt a dog. You may consider Belle.

She is a 7 yr old Labrador. Her previous owner abandoned her heartlessly and look at the pic, she is apparently rather hurt and traumatized by that heartless woman.
If you are sure you can love this lovely doggie till she pass on, please pm me.
Belle is currently staying with Cel, and Cel has 3 dogs excluding Belle and she can barely handle all of them anymore.

Despite knowing that she will miss Belle dearly, she has no choice but to give Belle up for adoption as her friend (that heartless owner) will most probably put Belle to sleep should Belle goes back to her.

Belle is gentle, not violent, and unfortunately, she has skin disease (but she is ok under the right care). 575323_10151385346963721_1459245805_n   IMG_20130322_020549Sis (or Mum) bought these. Love ’em! IMG_20130324_055938 IMG_20130324_061650 Yea, i watched this half way and looking forward to finishing it.

IMG_20130323_231645   Dialect Worship album by City Harvest’s Dialect church. The album is sold out and they are reprinting. The gospel songs are awesome. Got it for Mum and really thankful to CHC’s Dialect church for the efforts. IMG_20130323_183551 Really thankful for this as it speaks  directly to what i am fearing/feeling that day. 🙂 Thank God, Thank Chuch.

IMG_20130324_212538[1] Sis baking coffee cake. Her first attempt, i just need to eat. Haha.
However, she kinda  failed this time. The cake tasted like pudding. But the cookies are superb! 😀

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IMG_20130323_182115   A Beautiful reminder. #Faith

So, i did quite alot of stuff over the week. Busy Busy and i am still delaying dinners and outing. Sorry!

Is good to be busy but i wish i have more than 24hrs. Who doesnt? Till the next Vdates~

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Loves` God Bless

p/s i was wrong, i managed to finish this post. gtg, Mon is looking at me frm a short distance. ARGH!

What does God wants for me?

After so much unhappiness (from the Bus saga), i decided to let go and move on since i made my point across, any other opinions of whoever doesnt matter now.

Anyway, there isnt a reason good enough to be unhappy on a Friday!

I read the articles below and find them really interesting and worth reading. Thought of sharing with you guys!

Question: “Are we supposed to be actively looking for a spouse, or waiting for God to bring a spouse to us?”

Answer: The answer to both questions is “yes.” There is an important balance between the two. We are not to frantically search for a spouse as if it depends solely on our own efforts. Neither are we to be passive, thinking that God will one day cause a spouse to arrive at our door. As Christians, once we have decided that it is time to start looking for a spouse, we should begin the process with prayer. Committing ourselves to God’s will for our lives is the first step. “Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4). Delighting in the Lord means we find pleasure in knowing Him and trusting that He will delight us in return. He will put His desires into our hearts, and in the context of seeking a spouse, that means desiring for ourselves the type of spouse He desires for us and who He knows will delight us further. Proverbs 3:6 tells us, “In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Acknowledging Him in the search for a spouse means submitting to His sovereign will and telling Him that whatever He decides is best is what you want.

After committing ourselves to God’s will, we need to be clear on the characteristics of a godly husband or wife and be seeking someone who qualifies on a spiritual level. It is important to have a clear understanding of these qualities first and then to seek someone who fits them. To “fall in love” with someone and then discover he/she is not spiritually qualified to be our mate is to invite heartache and put ourselves in a very difficult position.

Once we know what the Bible says we should be looking for, we can begin actively looking for a spouse, understanding that God will bring him/her into our lives as we are in the process of looking, according to His perfect will and timing. If we pray, God will lead us to the person He has for us. If we wait for His timing, we will be given the person who fits best with our background, personality, and desires. We have to trust in Him and His timing (Proverbs 3:5), even when His timing is not our timing. Sometimes God calls people not to marry at all (1 Corinthians 7), but in those situations, He makes it clear by removing the desire for marriage. God’s timing is perfect, and with faith and patience, we will receive His promises (Hebrews 6:12).

Question: “What is the Christian view of engagement?”

Answer: In the Bible, there were three steps the Jewish people had to take when getting married. The families first had to agree to the union, and then a public announcement was made. At this point, the couple was betrothed, or engaged. Finally, they were officially married and began to live together. Betrothal, then, was somewhat similar to what we call engagement now, except that our society does not honor the seriousness of engagement as they did then. When a Jewish couple was betrothed during Bible times, they were already bound together by a contract that could only be broken through death or divorce.

Any Christian who is considering marriage needs to realize the depth of this kind of commitment and not jump into it lightly. God intends marriage to be a lifelong commitment, not a temporary arrangement. The Bible says this about marriage: “‘This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.’ Since they are no longer two but one, let no one separate them, for God has joined them together” (Mark 10:7-9, NLT).

Christians need to make sure they have a clear understanding of the person they may marry before becoming engaged. The Bible says that Christians cannot team up with and live in harmony with unbelievers (2 Corinthians 6:14-15). A Christian teaming up with an unbeliever almost guarantees that the Christian will be pulled away from Christ because, as the Bible says, “bad company corrupts good character” (1 Corinthians 15:33). The only way to have a God-honoring, stable foundation for a marriage is to be firmly grounded in one’s faith and make sure that the potential partner is equally dedicated to God.

Christians should live their lives with God in the driver’s seat, so to speak. He wants to be a part of every aspect of our lives, including whom we marry. Having a clear understanding of God’s Word and developing a personal relationship with Him through prayer and yielding to the direction of the Holy Spirit is the first and most important step in determining His will for us. The world’s advice on dating and engagement should only be considered in light of God’s truths in Scripture. If we seek His will in all we do, He will direct our paths (Proverbs 3:5-6).

Question: “What does the Bible say about dating / courting?”

Answer: Although the words “courtship” and “dating” are not found in the Bible, we are given some principles that Christians are to go by during the time before marriage. The first is that we must separate from the world’s view on dating because God’s way contradicts the world’s (2 Peter 2:20). While the world’s view may be to date around as much as we want, the important thing is to discover the character of a person before making any commitment to him or her. We should find out if the person has been born again in the Spirit of Christ (John 3:3-8) and if he or she shares the same desire toward Christ-likeness (Philippians 2:5). The ultimate goal of dating or courting is finding a life partner. The Bible tells us that, as Christians, we should not marry an unbeliever (2 Corinthians 6:14-15) because this would weaken our relationship with Christ and compromise our morals and standards.

When one is in a committed relationship, whether dating or courting, it is important to remember to love the Lord above all else (Matthew 10:37). To say or believe that another person is “everything” or the most important thing in one’s life is idolatry, which is sin (Galatians 5:20; Colossians 3:5). Also, we are not to defile our bodies by having premarital sex (1 Corinthians 6:9, 13; 2 Timothy 2:22). Sexual immorality is a sin not only against God but against our own bodies (1 Corinthians 6:18). It is important to love and honor others as we love ourselves (Romans 12:9-10), and this is certainly true for a courtship or dating relationship. Whether dating or courting, following these biblical principles is the best way to have a secure foundation for a marriage. It is one of the most important decisions we will ever make, because when two people marry, they cleave to one another and become one flesh in a relationship which God intended to be permanent and unbreakable (Genesis 2:24; Matthew 19:5).

Question: “What should I look for in a Christian boyfriend?”

Answer: Anybody can say they love Jesus, or that they’re a Christian. But how do you know, when you’re falling in love with someone, whether they are the real deal? The Bible doesn’t mention the kind of dating relationships we see today; in fact, the only romantic relationships portrayed are either marriage relationships or adulterous relationships. What this means is that a Christian boyfriend should be, first and foremost, a man you plan to marry or at least someone who would make a good Christian husband. A Christian woman should be looking for someone who is serious about God and serious about his relationship with her. A Christian boyfriend isn’t dating just for fun; he has marriage in mind.

The Bible is full of verses that describe what a Christian man should be like, verses that are helpful and trustworthy for a woman who is evaluating a potential husband. The following are some guidelines based on those verses. A Christian boyfriend should be:

Humble and teachable: The Bible tells us that a righteous man, or a wise man, will take instruction gladly, even when it hurts him (Psalm 141:5; Proverbs 9:9, 12:15). A righteous man evidences a willingness to be corrected by Scripture and a tendency to love and listen to those who can teach him from the Scripture.

Honest: Do his actions agree with his words? The Bible says that a righteous man is characterized by honesty in his personal and business dealings (Ephesians 4:28). In addition, when he makes a promise, a Christian man keeps his promise, even when it hurts (Psalm 15:2-5). In short, his character should be one of integrity.

Selfless: The Bible speaks specifically to husbands when it tells them to love their wives as they love their own bodies, just like Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her (Ephesians 5:25-28). A Christian boyfriend should begin to exhibit this kind of care and love for his girlfriend long before marriage. Love is easy in the romantic beginning stages, but a Christian boyfriend should be the kind of man whose behavior and intentions will be loving in all kinds of circumstances (1 John 3:18).

Able and willing to provide: The Bible says that a man who doesn’t provide for his family is worse than an unbeliever (1 Timothy 5:8). Provision doesn’t necessarily mean “bringing in a lot of money.” The issue is whether he takes responsibility for the welfare of his wife and children. It is important for women to grasp the seriousness of this verse. A man that doesn’t want to provide is very hard for a woman to respect, and if a wife struggles to respect her husband, marital troubles will go beyond the material. A woman’s respect for her husband and a man’s love for his wife are interdependent and life-giving to a marriage (Ephesians 5:25-32).

Willing to proactively protect: Both physically and emotionally, women tend to be weaker and more easily hurt than men. They need to be understood and protected and cared for in a proactive way. A good Christian boyfriend is a man who will look out for and care for his girlfriend and carry this passion for protecting her on into marriage (1 Peter 3:7).

Also, here are some negative things to watch out for: materialism (1 John 2:15-16; 1 Timothy 6:10), lying (Proverbs 12:22,19:22), sexual unfaithfulness (Ecclesiastes 7:26; Proverbs 7) and poor treatment of family members, especially his mother (Proverbs 15:20, 19:26, 20:20, 23:22). Usually a man’s treatment of his mother is a good indication of how he will treat his wife. Also, watch out for irrationally, controlling or jealous tendencies, as these often lead to violence (Proverbs 6:34; 27:4).

Finally, a Christian boyfriend is one with whom a woman is evenly matched. First, in the spiritual sense – a couple’s relationship with God should be the primary factor in any relationship, and they should be matched in that regard. Believers are commanded to marry other believers (2 Corinthians 6:14), so there is no reason to be dating an unbeliever. But a couple should also be evenly matched in the more practical aspects, having compatible temperaments, similar energy levels, and shared life-goals and interests. These things add tremendously to happiness in a relationship.

In addition to all this, if a man has a good sense of humor and a steady, cheerful disposition, this is wonderfully encouraging for his wife. Nobody can be “up” all the time, but a man who is characterized by the peace and joy of the Spirit is a real catch. Life is hard, and marriage is hard too. There will be times of sadness and there will be conflict. Because of this, a cheerful, encouraging spouse is a real blessing (Proverbs 16:24; 17:22; 15:30).

Credits to http://www.gotquestions.org/ for the above articles.

I personally find the articles helpful, hope you njoy reading them too! 🙂

His Timing

I read this over facebook and i  gave credits to https://www.facebook.com/jeanette.castellino

I love what is written here:

We don’t always understand God’s methods. His ways don’t always make sense to us, but we have to realize that God sees the big picture. Consider this possibility: You may be ready for what God has for you, but somebody else who is going to be involved is not ready yet. God has to do a work in another person or another situation before your prayer can be answered according to God’s will for your life. All the pieces have to come together for it to be God’s perfect time.

But never fear; God is getting everything lined up in your life. You may not feel it; you may not see it. Your situation may look just like it did for the past ten years, but then one day, in a split second of time, God will bring it all together. When it is God’s timing, all the forces of darkness can’t stop Him. When it’s your due season, God will bring it to pass.

You must learn to trust God’s timing. You can be sure that right now, God is arranging all the pieces to come together to work out His plan for your life. He has been working in your favor long before you encountered the problem. Don’t grow impatient and try to force doors open. Don’t try to make things happen in your own strength. The answer will come, and it will be right on time.

*Patience! Ding!

 

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