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Vdates 3rd week April 2013

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Its another week and i am seriously dreading the coming month. I have no mood to celebrate my Bday and i dont even like the idea of my Bday approaching that fast.

Totally hated it and am still dreading it. I know i shouldnt but i cant help it. My Bday seems to be shitty every year.

Anw, first and foremost, i feel so sorry for the loss of  one of the local actors. He passed away last Sat due to lymphoma cancer.
I am not a big fan of local entertainment/ mediacorp shows or ‘celebs’. Well i just watch wadever is on the tv since the tv is already on most of the time when i return home from work, daily.

But this actor can really act, and he does not possess that arrogant aura that most of the local celebs do. In other words, he is rather humble as he appears.

It is the loss of Singapore’s media scene.

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Rip Mr Huang. You will be missed. 

Anyway, there are too many sad news recently. I guess the world is turning sadder day by day. Nobody want to read or hear about the news nowadays because it is filled with too much sadness and negative stuffs. What makes it worse is the ignorant comments coming from the netizens.

There are bombings, serious rape cases, stupid adultery scandals, natural disasters, wars and whatnot.

It is really depressing to read about the news now.

I have not much to update too.

I am not really happy but i aint that depressed now… it is getting better for me, i guess.

While i am still not very motivated for the plan i had but i know i have to face it someday unless i quit.

I am giving myself a break till May. Will officially get really busy when May comes. Time really flies isnt it. Before we knw it, it is already almost half a year of 2013.

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Anw, just to touch on the sermon of Mary Magdalene (i mentioned in my previous blogpost)..

I rem i was still in a very depressed state and i just suddenly decided to read some biblical material/ books. I do not usually like to read, i rather listen to sermons most of the time.
Thus i dont usually pick up those stack of books on my desk.

That particular night…i picked up 1 booklet sent by RBC Ministries .
Previously, Christina (my CG mate) registered for me and got them to send me materials regularly.
I was really guilty of not reading them because i am lazy… 😦

So anw, that night before i read the booklet, i actually said a short prayer and i mentioned “Jesus, i do not know if you are around. I know you are real, but i do doubt your existence whenever i am so depressed…i am guilty of that but if U are around, will you please give me a sign?”

Then i went to my bed, still tearing, holding a booklet by RBC – it is about Mary Magdalene.

I was reading by myself and my Mum came in.

She on her daily podcast (i seriously think God is very good to my Mum. She was playing with her radio on her hp previously and she just randomly chance upon this FM channel that gives sermons daily in mandarin) and she began to listen.
I do not usually listen to her podcast as it is in Mandarin, i am more used to listen to English ones but i do listen with her sometimes.
She might not understand what she is listening but she enjoys listening and sometimes she would ask me. I am so happy for her.

So that night, she came in with her podcast and i read my material…I never talk to anyone in the family after the fight with my sis, thus i just do my own stuff while she does hers.

As i was reading this in my mind in English “Jesus chased 7 demons out of Mary Magdalene and the name of this lady was mentioned in the bible for more than 12 times…”
Mum’s podcast was speaking the EXACT WORDS IN MANDARIN!!! OMG.

I was so shocked, i mean..what are the chances!??!

I dont usually listen to her podcast and i dont usually read the books sent by RBC…
But on that particular depressing night, after i made that tiny prayer… I actually experienced this very rare and weird, yet peaceful encounter!

 I do not know how to describe but it is very amazing. Some might tell me it is just coincidence but i really do not think it is so coincidental…Somehow, something in me tells me that Jesus gave me this sign that HE is there.

I feel peaceful and i fell asleep with Peace in me, for the 1st time after the fight broke out between Sis and me in the family.

As i type this now, i can still feel the goosebumps… Just imagine! Reading and listening the same thing altogether, in 2 different languages and coming from 2 different sources, in the same room.

It is very creepy haha but it is really very miraculous.

Praise my Lord for the little surprise 🙂

Anw, just fyi, after reading, i actually realise that alot of people including myself, mistaken Mary Magdalene as the prostitute, or the woman that committed adultery in the bible. She is actually NOT and there is no concrete evidence that she worked as a prostitute. 

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But i have to say, the devil isnt some1 that gives up easily too. I was disturbed in the morning, when i was praying, there is this constant voice (not literally in my ear but more like it is speaking in my head. I cant tell if it is psychological on my part but i noe the uneasy feeling in me) that ask me why am i praying and speaking to me telling me  that it is of no use even if i pray.

The feeling was very uneasy and i rem feeling very tired and angry…

I never stop praying though and i even play the worship Songs sang by Sun and i tried to keep myself calm while listening and praying at the same time.

The uneasy feeling only went away after a while…

For non believers, you might be skeptical because i would be too. Even the believers might find it hard to believe but all that i share here is true.
I just thought of sharing and hopefully this encourages you that God is always with you, no matter what you are going through.

It is hard for me because i realise that everytime i minister to people in need, or even when i am just assuring friends and readers in my blog that God is around us, something not so nice wud happen to me, and i know perfectly well that it is from the evil and NOT from God.

I know that my assurance will bite back at me each time but i believe my God is larger than the world’s problem, He will not leave me nor shortchange me.

As i am typing now, situation at home still did not change and it is as bad as it can be and thus i m not looking forward to my Bday. I always thought it will be nice to celebrate with my family, with fun and joy… but looking at it now, it most probably wont happen already.

But by Faith, i am still hoping for the best, even if it doesnt happen on my Bday this year, hopefully things will turn out better soon.

I still believe that God will turn every situation around that is meant to break me.
I still believe that HE will use every situation to bring out the best of me, for me.
I still believe whatever HE allows is for the Best final end result and the process is not important.

Besides, they say that before a great blessing come pass, there will be trials..isnt it?

Frankly, my Christian journey is full of ups and downs. There are also a huge number of skeptics in my life, be it close friends or just friends…
I have people questioning my Faith, i have myself questioning my own Faith, i have people questioning my character and my thinking…

Sometimes it is tiring for me. I am a Christian and that doesnt mean i am perfect, it just means that i am so well aware that i am imperfect and thats why i humble myself and i allow God to work in me. I might fail now and then but i shouldnt be judged as if i am Jesus Christ Himself… Instead, i hope you can see what makes me better and who actually help me along the way. I am trying my best to be good but sometimes i fail, and i fail really hard. Do you know that my best is nothing compared to God’s? Thus i am trying to let God take over, it is easier said than done actually.

I always say i should stay happy no matter who say or does what to me. In this world, too many people are teaching you what to do and what not to do.

I have people telling me “hey you should do this and you shouldnt do that”, i have people saying that “how come u like urself so much that u have to post pictures of urself all the time?”, “how cme u look better in pictures?” , “how come you are not as rich as compared to others in your church?” “how come you still lose your temper, you are a Christian and you shouldnt be angry”, “how come u r not dating? u stay at home everyday, how to get a bf like that? you should go out more!”….. SERIOUSLY.

Worse, a hairstylist who is apparently my church friend even say that i shouldnt cut my hair short because i am not skinny.
Yes, i am not skinny, i am not super slim. I am voluptuous but i am Not fat. But in ignorant Asians’ eyes, a UK8 or 10 is already Darn fat.

So, why do these people care so much? Do they really care or do they just wana talk bad about you?

Look, why cant i upload pics of myself? I like to!

Look, why cant my pics look better than my real? I dont look that bad in real please, my pics are not photo shopped and i am not admitting that i use photoshop because i do not know how.
They are filtered like everyone else’s, i did make use of apps to make them look better by adjusting lightings & colors and i admit that i use a new software now  (on my android)  to make the skin look smoother, the chin sharper.
So? Every gal does  that too, so why are u faulting me?
I like what i see and i do not change the entire picture to be another person. You can still recognize me from the pictures isnt it? NO?

Look, why cant i have short hair just because i am not model-thin? So curvy gals should always have long hair to cover the face? I dont get it.

Look, why cant i be angry? It doesnt mean i am a robot with no feelings just because i am a Christian!?

The world is madness. People are not looking at themselves but they are looking at others and criticizing others.

It is easy to say “Ignore others, just do everything with conscience and with integrity and feel happy” but how many can actually do that and not feel affected?

It is really not easy to live with critical people and the world will really be better if people stop teaching others what to do.
But it wont happen so we have to always adjust ourselves. Sadly.

Well, i thought of dying so many times before. (of course my problems are more than what i typed up there lah. Obviously i wont want to die just because people’s critisize me of not being skinny right?!)
But honestly, if Dying is the solution, the whole world should be Dead long ago.

We are all waiting and anticipating that ray of light each and every day isnt it?

So, thats the life i am living. Everyday. I am not any better than any of you here. Just in case people think that i am living very well and happy and  thus i can post all the positive and happy posts. I did not reveal my sadness previously, but that doesnt mean i am not sad ok. I am sad.

But i guess i am learning to be happier, everyday.

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I believe God will not shortchange me, maybe there is still hope in me. Haha.

Even if is 1% of hope. I hang on to it…I hope that you are hanging on to Hope too. For you will not know what tomorrow brings.

Ok, i dont know why it turns a little emotional now.. haha, so i better stop!

On a side note, i am loving my skin now. Havent been so perfect for quite sometime! Thanks to Hada LaBo!

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Ok, this is Confirmed non edited/ non filtered – bare skin under normal lightings.
Get that bottle of Hada Labo and try out now!

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Gf is complaining to me now over wechat, haha. I am blessed to have cute and awesome friends. Though not alot but i am thankful for real friends and a few of them is enough 🙂 And i miss the 4 babies of Gf!

I cant wait to go back to church, head out with gf, 7 and Gary soon, hurhur.

Today is Monday, arghh. 4 more days to weekend and i seriously cant wait. What makes the wait even more miserable and unbearable is my injured leg. Guess i overstretched it and i am kinda crippling now. I hope it gets better so that i can go jog soon 😦

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IMG_20130420_18Mum and me eating infamous Tao Huey at Granny’s.

As i said, i have nothing much to update now so i shall stop here. Till e next post! God Bless.

Some Pictures (ok, is ALOT) of my Hair now, i love the Purple streaks (and some of them turned pink now)

I might get rid of them soon? Still deciding if i should do another color, so i better showcase them now. haha.

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ValliezLesley

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Vdates April Week 2 ’13

IMG_20130316_5  Hi there!

Cant believe another week flew JUST LIKE THAT. I hate how time flies, it is flying rapidly especially.
May is coming and May seems like someone’s birthday – mine! haha.

I know of people who doesnt give a hoot about Birthdays but i do ok, it is a big day to me because i am super         in love with myself. To me,  my birthday is a special day because thats when an awesome person is born and thats me. Thanks.

But as the age increases, the desire to blow candles on the cake decreases :/ but i am still looking forward to celebrating of cos.

Just that i do not know who to celebrate with. For a long time, my closed friends have been bz with their lives and we have stopped celebrating Bdays for each other.

Do i sound like a loner now? Omg, i hope not. LOL

(Realised that the dark picture brings across an Emo message but no!!! i just love the effects of the photo and it is not supposed to be emo!!!)

I mean, for Bdays- i would love to celebrate with the closest people and not just any random person…my closest people are all busy but i am sure some do rem lah!

Anyway, still weeks to go and i am not really looking forward to that day now so perhaps i will talk about this later. :/

Ok, i guess is time to do some simple updates for the past week and events. Not much happenings and as usual, i took pictures to make recording easy.

I realise i havent been doing ‘Serious Blogging‘ for some time (some self improvement lessons).
Not that i am expert at self improvement but there are some experiences that i might be able to share with you guys – if it helps-good, if not…shrugs. Haha!

Maybe soon!

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Went to see a doc last week because of the itchy throat. I decided to knock off at 12pm, not that i want but the throat is feeling crazily uncomfortable.

It was just amazing how the whole experience turned out to be. I was rushing to the clinic near my office, i actually reached the 1st clinic at 1248pm and i was told  that i am late. The info they gave online was that they are open till 1pm.

The nurse insisted that their last patient has to be in the clinic and register by 1245pm. Ok i was late by 3mins and i am denied the chance of seeing the doc. What a clinic. The nurses continue to gossip and laughed loudly after i took my leave.

Very nice.

So i went to the next clinic that was 3 levels above the previous one. I reached there at ard 1253pm? Super late and i thought tts it, i will have to run to another clinic. But this time roung, the nurse there was so nice and she registered my name and i went ahead with the consultation.

The doc was a friendly and nice old man. He found out that i stopped smoking, he warned me  and told me NOT to touch it again. Haha.

Then, i sat down near the recept area and waited for my turn to collect my med. I was taken aback by a group of people who (suddenly) joined me and they took out their bibles and started their bible studies. YES! Right there! Haha. I was kinda ‘invited’ to join them.
I am not sure how they know i am a Christian, perhaps they saw my Cross pendant but i did not think it was obvious as it was inside my dress that day. Haha.

I joined them anyhow.

I am very touched and surprised by the message i received that day. I believe when a non believer meet with such situation, he/she will freak out and get disgusted (thats hw i wud feel when i was a non believer years back).

But for me, i know very well that God is always around me, no matter what and where. He is always talking to me. Thus the message that day really was very edifying for me.

It was 1 Chronicles 12.

Yes, the whole chapter.  You may read it Here.

However, just fyi, a short brief on the chapter:

It simply means that, if you are doing God’s work and doing it right (like David in the book). God’s favour will always be with you. Even people who do not like you, even neutral parties or even the enemies’s people, they might come to you and help you.
It doesnt has to be what you do or did that makes people wana take sides with you, it simply means God has favour over you and will send people to you.
You will also come out strong and defeat your enemy because you are doing God’s work, and being obedient to God.

This applies very much in life and of course, the current situation of my Church. I am touched by this chapter as i seldom touches the bible (opps) and i doubt i would like to read 1 Chronicles even if i happens to read the bible. I like the New Testament more actually. Haha.

Thus i am very grateful that a visit to the clinic actually allow me to feel and hear God. I thank Him for  the peace and confirmation he put into my heart. Of course, i will also apply this chapter in my own plannings for my own stuff. 🙂

Thank you God, for letting me know You are always around me =)

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The Friday night.

I spent my Friday night doing this! Haha. I call it “Project Fruits”
I was supposed to have a meeting with my sis tt night but we postponed because of Project Fruits.

I spent almost 3 hrs cutting up all the fruits and putting them into sticks. Mum was helping alot on this and she was cutting and cutting, especially the pineapples. I am so thankful. I think i shall sms her now and tell her i love her. Haha cant help it!

It was so much fruits and it was the first time i bought so much fruits all at once. $30 worth of fruits! Ronald was kind enough to help me carry them back.
If not,  i would never be able to carry those fruits home, it weighs more than 15kg i think.

Project Fruits is actually for Gary’s clinic opening. He needed fruits and i offer to bring since i insisted of bringing something over.

I mean, who would attend an opening party empty handed? I can’t do that.

So i googled for Fruits Basket online and Duh…the fruits baskets that the various florist sell  look super MEH and  they are so expensive.
The fruits look super unappealing and i was disappointed.

Then i thought of doing something special and  thus i Youtube for DIY fruits baskets. Tada! I found clips on DIY fruits baskets! I thought it was simple but it actually was quite tedious and i am so blessed to have Mummy to help me. Mummy always nv fails me 🙂

It was alright except for the cutting and all.

Did the arrangement in the morning and i am pleased with my DIY Fruits Basket. Honestly, it can look better if i use more time, it can be improved actually.

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This is the Top View

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This is how it looks actually.

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I instagrammed it while i was in the cab down to Gary’s clinic.
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I am glad the guests and Gary love it. I know  Gary is a perfectionist and he always expects the best. I know he shouldnt blame me even if the fruit basket turns out like shit but i do not want to give a pot of ‘shit’ to people on people’s opening la!
And if i am the one opening a shop, i wouldnt expect to receive a pot of ugly looking thing also la!

I am not expecting to receive praises and thanks, really i am not. I once mentioned in my fb, insta and blog that i appreciate people who are thankful and grateful and not taking others’ favour for granted but i really do not mean i need praises and recognition all the time, Especially this time.

But i was surprised that Gary thanked me a couple of times. I guess Seven n Gary r being extra careful and sensitive to my feelings nowadays. I am the one that is very thankful to them for being so sensitive to how i feel. Thank you Happy 3. I really do not need those praises and non stop thanks but i am  very happy you guys love me. 🙂

Anyway, i thought i did not do much and i feel very embarrassed to being thanked for a couple of times. Tsk!

Congrats Gary! Congrats on your new opening and enjoy the challenging new journey that awaits you!

Friends, if you want to know more about Dr Gary and his services, you may read HERE.

Also, even if you do not need Chiropractic treatments, if you are like me who wants to find out more on how to lose those bumps and bulges, you may also read up Dr Gary’s blog. He is a very positive friend and his encouraging blog might just help you some way or another!

Dr Gary will also be speaking at The China Club Singapore on the 22nd May 2013. Wednesday. This workshop is open to all China Club Members and UOB Lady Solitaire Cardholders Exclusively. Please find details below:

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Mandatory Speech by Gary. Hurhur

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There. Thats me obviously. With boring Dark Brown hair (sometimes very light brown because of sunlight)

I was thinking of adding some colors to my hair but i hated Ombre as it is so common nowadays and almost 4 gals out of 10 gals have ombre hair.

Moreover, my hair is abit too short for ombre. Thus i wanted something thats not so flashy yet chic ( i personally think that the flashy ombre that alot of bloggers did recently look kinda cliche, i understand that it is stylish but anything too much is Not. To me.)

Went to Ooosh  and got my hair done by Perry. He is a personal friend and he is the Director of Ooosh. Perry has very rich experiences in Hair and Beauty. Whoever walks out of Ooosh always brings a wide grin with him or her, thats my own observation while i was there.

Alot of times, i am there whenever im in town, just to catch up with Perry and his wife. I did not do my hair there (back then) and it is not like they are my preferred hairstylist from day 1. We started out as friends and then i realised that their works are awesome and their services really gain recognition and praises from the customers.

Just to add, i am not very impressed with Salons that sponsor the whole loads of bloggers and whatnot because if you are good, you wouldnt need to do that (thats my own opinion).
Moreover, i hate looking ‘similar’ or having the ‘same’ hair with another person, thus i prefer to go to a recognized and ‘proper’ hair salon.
I do not mean that the other salons are crap, i just prefer Ooosh in this case as i am doing something which the whole of Sg has already been doing. I trust that i will not walk out of the salon looking like another person because  there will be some ‘unique’ twists which Perry will add in.

My hair is now not super awesome but i like it, it is not too Flashy and it looks a little ombre but it is kinda hidden. Not exceptionally special and i am sure there are people with similar style but at least not a handful i guess?

Anyway, i also brought Mum along this time. I make it a point that whenever i am ‘enjoying’ , be it good food or good relaxing activities, i will include Mummy because she deserves good stuffs more than anyone!

Thus Mummy joined me and she got herself a new hairstyle that day too.
Mum has always been very careful with how she spends thus she always cut her hair at those $10 salons downstairs my house.
I had enough of letting her ruin her hair (lol, not that i despise the $10 hair salons but i believe in paying for good services) and thus i dragged her along with me to Ooosh.

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Mum looking Happy 🙂 I love her to bits

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Me and Amanda. She is super cute and chatty.
My long hours there aint that bored because of her.

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Brought Mum to have dinner at Ion (forgot the name of the rest!)
and spent my Sat with her, walking around Ion after the Hair sessions.

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Mandatory Before & After Pic

I personally think it is still acceptable and quite ok ah. Not very Lianish like some ignorant people would say.
Anyway, i feel it depends on a person’s behavior instead of appearance to determine a person’s character.
For those that do not know what is ‘Lianish‘ (as i have a couple of foreign readers) it basically means lady hooligans/gangsters with outrageous appearances or just think “Lindsay Lohan” =x

Of course, i adore my hair now and i would post a lot more pictures!

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Ok, thats all for now! Haha!

Ooosh! at Delfi Orchard boasts a groundbreaking hair & beauty concept based on a social entrepreneurship model.
It is helmed by award-winning hairstylist Perry TJ.

Delfi Orchard, 402 Orchard Road #01-05/06

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http://www.ooosh.com.sg

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Went out with my Aunt on Sun and went shopping with her. Happy to spend time with her 🙂

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Ytd i lost my patience with Mum, feeling so guilt stricken. 😦 But i am very blessed, my Mum understands my foul temper and always gives in to me (worse feeling builds up inside me).

I have to keep reminding myself to stop being so rude to Mummy and control that foul temper of mine.

Anyway, the week was a busy one and this Wed marks my last QiGong class, i am looking forward to Zumba and more intense workout sessions! Havent been losing much ever since that 2.5kg. =(

Anw, i did this funny crap:

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P/S Looking forward to the Holiday i am having with my Family (although still a long long way :/ )

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Gona be a busy week ahead, Till the next post^

ValliezLesley 

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