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Are you also judging Sun Ho?


You probably see this piece of news or worse reports on Sun Ho using the Church funds for her unsuccessful singing career.

I do not know how to react to such nasty remarks made by the local mainstream media, i seriously dont know.

Frankly,i understand how much we are lagging behind when it comes to Gossipy/ Newsworthy Entertainment News.

But i never expect  the local journalists to be writing such remarks of personal attack, in order to be like another paparazzi of the INFAMOUS Apple Daily.

Right, you are saying that i am speaking up for my Pastor’s wife but i make sure i am stating reasonable reasons when i speak up for her.

1) How do you measure Success?

My Mum has been asking me to buy the newspaper these days (she is recovering well, and i believe God is still with her. 🙂 so thanks all! )
Mum is rather concern about the recent CHC case as well. However, i did not buy a single copy of papers.

To be honest, i feel very pissed off when reading the one sided and lop sided reports of the local papers.
It doesnt help when the content is always repeated.
Whats worse is that the repeated content is always so ridiculously warped and frankly, they are more like assumptions of ignorance than facts.

I lost faith in the papers.

After they have lost all ideas on what to write, they compare Sun Ho with Stephanie Sun, they personal attacked Sun Ho and judged her success.

I do not know how they measure success. Perhaps the easiest way to determine success is the number of trophies and prizes and  the album sales of a singer.

But Success, in my opinion is the ability of a person to influence others. 

 Whatever you said of her, you cant deny how many people she influenced right. 
I mean, spiritually, and frankly, i seen people turning to God and leading a better life after salvation through her Crossover projects.
How to deny that?

Of course, if you are not a believer, there will be tons to argue.

You would ask me why would she spread about Jesus if it is a secular singing career.

I can only say, that is why we call it the Crossover.

We do not believe that Hollywood and the entertainment industry can only contain Drugs, Fame, Sex and Money.

We believe Jesus can crossover to the ‘lost world’, we believers of  Jesus need not be boring. 

We believe that Christians need not be singing hymns all the time to be holy and proper.

Besides that, as a celebrity, she has done her part as a performer and i dont see how she is not successful.

She sings better than most of the singers nowadays anyway.

As a Celebrity of ability to influence, she did more than what a singer does.

You cant deny the good works she did, the various foundations she has under her name, the various schools and care centers and etc…

Then again, you might not know. Because the local media were busy reporting the comparison between Sun Ho and Steph Sun.

It is that important to compare, really?

Nevertheless, you may still see the numerous contributions of Sun Ho here:

For China Wine lovers and haters, sorry but that is really not the only song she has.

You really have to stop being ignorant if you KEEP HARPING ON THAT 1 MTV because i personally was touched by this song (below) that describe my Savior JESUS CHRIST thoroughly :

2) Why isnt Sun Ho talented?

I seriously do not understand the headline (in the papers) above. Is she really sucha terrible singer or performer to deserve that criticism?

She is talented. She is beautiful. In what way is she not? (again, subjective lah)

She sings beautifully, she doesnt croak like some singers. She can dance and she doesnt move like some puppets like some performers.

Having said that, this topic is debatable and is vry subjective.

Most importantly, she touches me and many people whenever she is worshiping.


I pray that you can read  updates and news with discernment and wisdom thus you may also differentiate NEWS and GOSSIPS.

Praying for you City Harvest Church!

The date is drawing near.

Is only a week left to the trial.

I hereby pray that All Glory to Jesus name.

Truth prevails.

We support the Crossover.

It is saving lives.

We saw and we testified the lives saved.

I am 1 of them.


Thank you God.

Thank you CHC.

Vdates 3rd week April 2013


Its another week and i am seriously dreading the coming month. I have no mood to celebrate my Bday and i dont even like the idea of my Bday approaching that fast.

Totally hated it and am still dreading it. I know i shouldnt but i cant help it. My Bday seems to be shitty every year.

Anw, first and foremost, i feel so sorry for the loss of  one of the local actors. He passed away last Sat due to lymphoma cancer.
I am not a big fan of local entertainment/ mediacorp shows or ‘celebs’. Well i just watch wadever is on the tv since the tv is already on most of the time when i return home from work, daily.

But this actor can really act, and he does not possess that arrogant aura that most of the local celebs do. In other words, he is rather humble as he appears.

It is the loss of Singapore’s media scene.


Rip Mr Huang. You will be missed. 

Anyway, there are too many sad news recently. I guess the world is turning sadder day by day. Nobody want to read or hear about the news nowadays because it is filled with too much sadness and negative stuffs. What makes it worse is the ignorant comments coming from the netizens.

There are bombings, serious rape cases, stupid adultery scandals, natural disasters, wars and whatnot.

It is really depressing to read about the news now.

I have not much to update too.

I am not really happy but i aint that depressed now… it is getting better for me, i guess.

While i am still not very motivated for the plan i had but i know i have to face it someday unless i quit.

I am giving myself a break till May. Will officially get really busy when May comes. Time really flies isnt it. Before we knw it, it is already almost half a year of 2013.


Anw, just to touch on the sermon of Mary Magdalene (i mentioned in my previous blogpost)..

I rem i was still in a very depressed state and i just suddenly decided to read some biblical material/ books. I do not usually like to read, i rather listen to sermons most of the time.
Thus i dont usually pick up those stack of books on my desk.

That particular night…i picked up 1 booklet sent by RBC Ministries .
Previously, Christina (my CG mate) registered for me and got them to send me materials regularly.
I was really guilty of not reading them because i am lazy… 😦

So anw, that night before i read the booklet, i actually said a short prayer and i mentioned “Jesus, i do not know if you are around. I know you are real, but i do doubt your existence whenever i am so depressed…i am guilty of that but if U are around, will you please give me a sign?”

Then i went to my bed, still tearing, holding a booklet by RBC – it is about Mary Magdalene.

I was reading by myself and my Mum came in.

She on her daily podcast (i seriously think God is very good to my Mum. She was playing with her radio on her hp previously and she just randomly chance upon this FM channel that gives sermons daily in mandarin) and she began to listen.
I do not usually listen to her podcast as it is in Mandarin, i am more used to listen to English ones but i do listen with her sometimes.
She might not understand what she is listening but she enjoys listening and sometimes she would ask me. I am so happy for her.

So that night, she came in with her podcast and i read my material…I never talk to anyone in the family after the fight with my sis, thus i just do my own stuff while she does hers.

As i was reading this in my mind in English “Jesus chased 7 demons out of Mary Magdalene and the name of this lady was mentioned in the bible for more than 12 times…”
Mum’s podcast was speaking the EXACT WORDS IN MANDARIN!!! OMG.

I was so shocked, i mean..what are the chances!??!

I dont usually listen to her podcast and i dont usually read the books sent by RBC…
But on that particular depressing night, after i made that tiny prayer… I actually experienced this very rare and weird, yet peaceful encounter!

 I do not know how to describe but it is very amazing. Some might tell me it is just coincidence but i really do not think it is so coincidental…Somehow, something in me tells me that Jesus gave me this sign that HE is there.

I feel peaceful and i fell asleep with Peace in me, for the 1st time after the fight broke out between Sis and me in the family.

As i type this now, i can still feel the goosebumps… Just imagine! Reading and listening the same thing altogether, in 2 different languages and coming from 2 different sources, in the same room.

It is very creepy haha but it is really very miraculous.

Praise my Lord for the little surprise 🙂

Anw, just fyi, after reading, i actually realise that alot of people including myself, mistaken Mary Magdalene as the prostitute, or the woman that committed adultery in the bible. She is actually NOT and there is no concrete evidence that she worked as a prostitute. 


But i have to say, the devil isnt some1 that gives up easily too. I was disturbed in the morning, when i was praying, there is this constant voice (not literally in my ear but more like it is speaking in my head. I cant tell if it is psychological on my part but i noe the uneasy feeling in me) that ask me why am i praying and speaking to me telling me  that it is of no use even if i pray.

The feeling was very uneasy and i rem feeling very tired and angry…

I never stop praying though and i even play the worship Songs sang by Sun and i tried to keep myself calm while listening and praying at the same time.

The uneasy feeling only went away after a while…

For non believers, you might be skeptical because i would be too. Even the believers might find it hard to believe but all that i share here is true.
I just thought of sharing and hopefully this encourages you that God is always with you, no matter what you are going through.

It is hard for me because i realise that everytime i minister to people in need, or even when i am just assuring friends and readers in my blog that God is around us, something not so nice wud happen to me, and i know perfectly well that it is from the evil and NOT from God.

I know that my assurance will bite back at me each time but i believe my God is larger than the world’s problem, He will not leave me nor shortchange me.

As i am typing now, situation at home still did not change and it is as bad as it can be and thus i m not looking forward to my Bday. I always thought it will be nice to celebrate with my family, with fun and joy… but looking at it now, it most probably wont happen already.

But by Faith, i am still hoping for the best, even if it doesnt happen on my Bday this year, hopefully things will turn out better soon.

I still believe that God will turn every situation around that is meant to break me.
I still believe that HE will use every situation to bring out the best of me, for me.
I still believe whatever HE allows is for the Best final end result and the process is not important.

Besides, they say that before a great blessing come pass, there will be trials..isnt it?

Frankly, my Christian journey is full of ups and downs. There are also a huge number of skeptics in my life, be it close friends or just friends…
I have people questioning my Faith, i have myself questioning my own Faith, i have people questioning my character and my thinking…

Sometimes it is tiring for me. I am a Christian and that doesnt mean i am perfect, it just means that i am so well aware that i am imperfect and thats why i humble myself and i allow God to work in me. I might fail now and then but i shouldnt be judged as if i am Jesus Christ Himself… Instead, i hope you can see what makes me better and who actually help me along the way. I am trying my best to be good but sometimes i fail, and i fail really hard. Do you know that my best is nothing compared to God’s? Thus i am trying to let God take over, it is easier said than done actually.

I always say i should stay happy no matter who say or does what to me. In this world, too many people are teaching you what to do and what not to do.

I have people telling me “hey you should do this and you shouldnt do that”, i have people saying that “how come u like urself so much that u have to post pictures of urself all the time?”, “how cme u look better in pictures?” , “how come you are not as rich as compared to others in your church?” “how come you still lose your temper, you are a Christian and you shouldnt be angry”, “how come u r not dating? u stay at home everyday, how to get a bf like that? you should go out more!”….. SERIOUSLY.

Worse, a hairstylist who is apparently my church friend even say that i shouldnt cut my hair short because i am not skinny.
Yes, i am not skinny, i am not super slim. I am voluptuous but i am Not fat. But in ignorant Asians’ eyes, a UK8 or 10 is already Darn fat.

So, why do these people care so much? Do they really care or do they just wana talk bad about you?

Look, why cant i upload pics of myself? I like to!

Look, why cant my pics look better than my real? I dont look that bad in real please, my pics are not photo shopped and i am not admitting that i use photoshop because i do not know how.
They are filtered like everyone else’s, i did make use of apps to make them look better by adjusting lightings & colors and i admit that i use a new software now  (on my android)  to make the skin look smoother, the chin sharper.
So? Every gal does  that too, so why are u faulting me?
I like what i see and i do not change the entire picture to be another person. You can still recognize me from the pictures isnt it? NO?

Look, why cant i have short hair just because i am not model-thin? So curvy gals should always have long hair to cover the face? I dont get it.

Look, why cant i be angry? It doesnt mean i am a robot with no feelings just because i am a Christian!?

The world is madness. People are not looking at themselves but they are looking at others and criticizing others.

It is easy to say “Ignore others, just do everything with conscience and with integrity and feel happy” but how many can actually do that and not feel affected?

It is really not easy to live with critical people and the world will really be better if people stop teaching others what to do.
But it wont happen so we have to always adjust ourselves. Sadly.

Well, i thought of dying so many times before. (of course my problems are more than what i typed up there lah. Obviously i wont want to die just because people’s critisize me of not being skinny right?!)
But honestly, if Dying is the solution, the whole world should be Dead long ago.

We are all waiting and anticipating that ray of light each and every day isnt it?

So, thats the life i am living. Everyday. I am not any better than any of you here. Just in case people think that i am living very well and happy and  thus i can post all the positive and happy posts. I did not reveal my sadness previously, but that doesnt mean i am not sad ok. I am sad.

But i guess i am learning to be happier, everyday.


I believe God will not shortchange me, maybe there is still hope in me. Haha.

Even if is 1% of hope. I hang on to it…I hope that you are hanging on to Hope too. For you will not know what tomorrow brings.

Ok, i dont know why it turns a little emotional now.. haha, so i better stop!

On a side note, i am loving my skin now. Havent been so perfect for quite sometime! Thanks to Hada LaBo!



Ok, this is Confirmed non edited/ non filtered – bare skin under normal lightings.
Get that bottle of Hada Labo and try out now!

IMG_20130421_1This is obviously filtered.

Gf is complaining to me now over wechat, haha. I am blessed to have cute and awesome friends. Though not alot but i am thankful for real friends and a few of them is enough 🙂 And i miss the 4 babies of Gf!

I cant wait to go back to church, head out with gf, 7 and Gary soon, hurhur.

Today is Monday, arghh. 4 more days to weekend and i seriously cant wait. What makes the wait even more miserable and unbearable is my injured leg. Guess i overstretched it and i am kinda crippling now. I hope it gets better so that i can go jog soon 😦

IMG_20130420_1 IMG_20130418_1I am loving my new exercise gear in neon colors! 😀

IMG_20130420_18Mum and me eating infamous Tao Huey at Granny’s.

As i said, i have nothing much to update now so i shall stop here. Till e next post! God Bless.

Some Pictures (ok, is ALOT) of my Hair now, i love the Purple streaks (and some of them turned pink now)

I might get rid of them soon? Still deciding if i should do another color, so i better showcase them now. haha.




500 days of New Life

500 Days.

& lesser.

 approx 500 days for me to be completely bleached. 

a complete cleansed heart.

no memories at all

only realise it till i see it

i am very relieved and very very thankful 

extremely happy for myself


From e bottom of my heart, Thank you God. Jesus. CHC. Pastor Kong, Sun Ho, Eng Han & Janet, Mum & Sis, BBG211, Seven, Mel, Gary.

Thank you, Valencia.

Thats right, i thank you for being so strong despite the really bad shits you went through and standing stronger than ever.

I love you.

God Does Not Discriminate

This news struck me and i feel very affected after reading it. Read the News HERE

There is really no need for such extreme displeasure. It is clearly 2 different issues, religion aside, the venue is for commercial use.  This performer is performing in this commercial building. Thats it.

My Eg. might not be a very good one but hey, if you are someone that do not condone Gay Behaviors, you happen to open a Chicken Rice stall, and a gay comes and buy chicken rice from you, do you turn him away and say “sorry, i dont like u cos u r gay and i cant sell you because i am Christian, Bible say we dont condone Gays”

In my opinion, if Jesus hears that, HE might cry. haha.
I am sure He didnt teach us to judge.

I am a very judgmental person and i am STILL trying my best to not judge but i am not perfect so i do judge sometimes.

But this case is just ridiculous, i am surprised that it is even on the news now. People who make noise about using New Creation’s commercial building for Adam Lambert (gay) performances, you people feel the heat, you people are not happy. I am sorry but you are really abit whiny. (right, i am judging you now, how do you like it?)

Appreciating a Gay’s performance does not means condoning Gay-r/s & behaviors.

Dont understand why people just cant be rational to separate 2 different issues apart.
God didnt teach anyone to judge like that. I dont get it why must some unncessary displeasure arise from certain group of people and magnify non existing problem.

Like the Crossover project of CITY HARVEST CHURCH, people ought to understand, there are something abt commercial arts that we cant change, like attractive blingy and sexy/suggestive clothings.  So please do not judge Sun Ho for her ChinaWine song nor her sexy outfit.


Even the recently baptized Elva Hsiao (Taiwanese commercialized Pop singer) wears sexy corsets and that doesnt mean she do not love God.
Their Job is 1 thing, their beliefs is another. They are required to look attractive and not dull. Yet, they are God’s children and they glorify God.

But the fact is, they are all servants of God and they do spread gospel for God. 

We dont judge by looking at the surface, we look at the end results and how many souls were saved and hw much help was rendered.
There are even testimonies from all the people that benefited from the help they gotten from Sun Ho’s past concerts.

You do not judge her by saying that she is not famous enough to be a singer. She didnt want to be a singer just to be famous anyway. Like i said previously, she is doing something greater than just producing awesome record sales. She helped souls and these souls gave their testimonies, which sadly was hidden from public and mainstream media due to the bias system of Singapore Media.

For this case, same thing. People judge too much nowadays, and it is so sad to see gay performers living in secret and with discreet.


I used to judge Gays. But i learnt. I was wrong.

I used to think  that i can use the Bible to judge them anytime because IT IS WRITTEN. I used to think that i am normal and they are freaks.
Yes, i am that Mean (with a capital M).

Then i realised, there are many Gays that share a more loyal and sincere r/s than some of the couples (that are straight & r deemed normal in teh society)
I mean, comon, who are we to judge then?

Bible stated that we should have normal r/s (includes sexual r/s) and it simply means Men & Women.

I am not saying i am going against my Beliefs and Faith.

But we are human, right or wrong (for being a gay), we leave it to God to judge,  we dont do the judging.

We are not God. We didnt write the Bible.

We accept people even if they indeed do something wrong because every1 of us are sinners. Who are we to discriminate? You might not be a Gay, but you have anger issue, does that mean that people should discriminate you?

Anger issue is also a problem. Dont tell me being angey al the time is a smaller problem than being Gay.
A wrong, if is a wrong, is a wrong, regardless big or small wrong.
Same as a problem, being a problem, it is a problem regardless of ‘size’. There is no small or big problem. They are all problems.

God said we shld accept each other, dont remember God asking us to point fingers at homosexuals.

Moreover,  this is so ridiculous, even though New Creations Own the building that Adam Lambert is gona perform, they didnt say anything about wanting people to be gays. They merely provide the venue for commercial purposes because the place is, in the first place, a commercial venue made for commercial use.
Adam Lambert commercial or not? Commercial right? That solves all anger issues, i  guess.

*Above r my opinions and ntg associated with my church or anyone in particular. I was kinda saddened to see how human beings judge and discriminating each other. I do not condone Gay r/s but i do not discriminate them.
We are all not perfect and they are human beings too. We are the same, in some way or another.
I am still trying my best to not judge certain people, sincerely.

Mark4:35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.”


Jesus Fashion

Lets not deprive the Secular world of Christ. The Crossover.
The Crossover that doesnt only revolves around “Chinawine”.
Look at the Fruits Crossover bear!

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