Bye 2012, Hi 2013!
Hi,
I am still around, havent disappear abit. Just that, i dont feel like writing/speaking/interacting much recently.
I do not know exactly how to explain here, call me being isolated, but i feel free without much interactions with the world (at least, for this period of time).
No Social Media, No Whatsapp and Smses (not much, unless necessary. sorry if i didnt reply much to the msges) – the feeling is awesome.
I guess at some points of your life, you would wana stay away from all these stuffs, and just spend time by yourself and with people you deem worthy.
I just want to be alone. Now. Like, really alone, no parties, no hangouts, no dinner with frens (i still love the frens).
But just alone at home, watching my fav shows and drama series/movies, talking to Mum, accompanying her and aunt.
It feels the same as a getaway holiday, except that i am still in SG.
Some of my friends commented that i am leading a 35yr old’s boring life, things i do are very routine and doesnt seem like a 20ish yr old person wud do.
Actually, i kinda think so too (haha!), but i really do enjoy alone time, perhaps i just need a break from everything, the politics from work, the drama from some friends, the disappointments given by friends, physical stress, mental stress, wadever!
But, as much as i am giving signals of being depressed, please rest assure i am NOT suffering from Depression.
Yep, i aint depressed!
I just need time to be alone, i realised that is been very long since i spend time with ‘Myself’ and i really cherish tis ‘Me’ time.
And, and and! thanks people who care, who care to come to this corner to read about me, to know and find out how am i.
But i am really NOT APPRECIATIVE OF THIS following:
HELLO?! WHY WOULD ANYONE SEARCH FOR MY BLOG UNDER SOME DAMN INTERNET PORN MEDIA SHIT SITE!?!
I MEAN… PLEASE LAH!
People who know me, even if is just acquaintances, know that I HATE PORNOGRAPHY. I was so shocked to see this in my stats. I mean, i see what people type in search engines like Google or yahoo to search for blogs to read, to search for my blog or anything i blog about that is related to their interest for eg. (Christ/ Church/ a-friend’s-name).
BUT I AM COMPLETELY DISGUSTED TO SEE MY BLOG LINK TO THIS SHIT!
Ok, i do not know how it appears there, probably because i blogged about SEX previously. But it was healthy, nothing sexual or porno. It is just a blog post about how i view casual sex and how it shouldnt be condoned.
So, no matter what it is, if you are a porno freak, you are not welcomed here. I mean it, YOU ARE NOT WELCOMED here.
argh.
Ok, whatever it is, I hope my pointed is noted, nothing wrong about lustful or sexual people, i am not saying i am so ‘saintly’ that i find sex disgusting, nope, i just find porno ( porno lovers) very sick.
Ntg wrong with watching porno (to some people, not to me), but i just dont fancy being friends with porno lovers nor being associated with them. Call me judgemental but it is a problem to be dealt with, it is not healthy and it is proven scientifically, for a single OR a person in a r/s.
Well well, that is that.
There are million of things to be unhappy about, like seriously.
But i still want to be thankful. I hope i can rant it all out before this year end!
Like, the annoying colleagues who are playing politics everyday, that are questioning you on your jobscopes when they should be minding their own business. Sincerely, i hope they are happy after all these ill and evil mind games.
I still thank God i am employed that is.
Like, the certain group of friends whom you thought you treasure till you feel so upset that they keep disappointing you.
I still thank God that HE reminded me that i aint perfect too.
Like, the family member that is so distant from you…
I still thank God that HE keep her safe from harm and that’s all it matters.
Alright, 2012 has been a year of ups and down. And as i mentioned before, 2012 was really a much better (x100) year than 2011. My 2011 was disastrous!
I have been watching this TW drama (ok i am really slow as this show was sucha old show and everyone has watched it except me) call 犀利人妻.
My 2011 is almost like the female lead in that show, except that i aint married and i thank God i aint. Haha.
Not on r/s alone, but as a whole, i was like An Chen (the female lead in the show), inferior and feeling small about myself, getting used to that comfort zone and refused to improve, hiding all the potentials in myslf, full of self-pity, putting my hope on a wrong man (just that the male lead in the show doesnt abuse his wife la, he betray only. ok, thats bad enough-but i got both from my ex. LOL)
Whatever, i feel tired to even type about 2011.
I am just glad that my 2012 is filled with love and salvation, i believe i wrote about my better 2012 previously, so you go read my earlier post if you dont know what has changed in my life. haha.
But Praise Lord, now my dear aunty whom i have nt been speaking with for years, has started to join me and mum more often for gatherings and has opened her heart to Christ. 🙂
I feel God is very good, HE is leading the impossibles (yes, my aunty was rather skeptical and not so friendly nor nice in the past) to HIM. And slowly, one by one, my family members (in this case, my aunt) are closer to HIM and also me! Wee!
Salvation 2012!
Ok, maybe i will touch more on 2012 (or maybe not?) in my next post.
After this long long post, i just want to use this chance to greet everyone a ” HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013″! 2012 has been good, but the best has yet to come and 2013 will be your (and my!) BEST YEAR as yet!
I dont believe in New Year Resolution because usually, not many people that i know of can do what they have listed. #trustory
To me, if you want to change for the better, you can do it ANYTIME. There is no need for wadever NY resolution.
So to 2013:
– I pray for the safety and good health of the people i love, my mum, sis, aunt Carol, my cousie and her mum, granny and uncles.
– I pray for Salvation for my family members
– I pray for myself, to not only be employed (still) but prospering with knowledge and wisdom!
– the list might go on but seriously, I pray for God’s presence (for with His presence, the list can be shortened & everything else will be in place. hurhur)
I am counting down to knock off (another 5hrs) and celebrating with Mummy! You have a good and very blessed 2013 ya!
SEE YOU GUYS NEXT YEAR! 😀
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Lotsa Love,
Valliez
Lesley
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days o’ lang syne!
For auld lang syne, my dear
For auld lang syne,
We’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet
For auld lang syne!
We twa hae run about the braes,
And pu’d the gowans fine,
But we’ve wander’d mony a weary foot
Sin’ auld lang syne.
We twa hae paidl’t in the burn
Frae morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roar’d
Sin’ auld lang syne.
And there’s a hand, my trusty fiere,
And gie’s a hand o’ thine,
And we’ll tak a right guid willie-waught
For auld lang syne!
And surely ye’ll be your pint’ stoup,
And surely I’ll be mine!
And we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet
For auld lang syne!
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