Vdates – End of May (and full of rantings)

Hi and in a blink of eye, 2013 is half gone.

I really hated the fact how time flies without me realizing. During my youngER days, each day is a dread and i do not know how to get past those days.

When i was in Primary school, i hated school because i was a dork and i was being bullied regularly.
The 6 years were terrible and each day was a struggle to me.

When i was in Secondary school, i have to worry if my Discipline master will catch my tinted hair, my not very long school skirts and basically all the other disciplinary problems lah. Thus the years crawled slowly and i cant wait to get into the society and work. (totally regretted having that thinking)

During Poly and Private Schooling days, i cant remember what happened but it didnt seem fast either.

Then it was those few years of feeling lost, not knowing what work to do, what job to get, what to do with life before i turned abit more serious at around 25 yo.

Those days of being lost and ‘useless’ really passed by very very slowly.

Recently, i have more plannings, more commitments and goals, time seems to fly its way at the fastest speed and it is not enough even if i am given 48hrs a day.

Sorry for growing up at a slower pace and at a later age. I am not sure how mature are my readers,  i am not sure who are you guys.
But do you also feel the same as me? Do you also feel that being committed and responsible for more things in life seems to make your days so short?

I only get to feel this way now because i really have alot of worries and things on mind, i really do not know how i manage to get pass each day in the past.

Anyway, back to vdates, my past week was TERRIBLE and i thank God it is over.

I dont even feel like starting but i guess i will have to.

Had another huge fight with my Family and this time round, it is MY FAULT. My sis said something unpleasant abt a relative and instead of being patient with her, i flared up and started to bang on things (tables,chairs, doors). Unbelievably mean of me.
I remember being very patient initially but i was just too outta control that night and i said nasty things and ran out of the hse in a fit of anger.

She was at fault for giving names to a relative  and i m very glad she realised it already but i was worse because i swear and cursed and i screamed at my Mum and her. I said alot of nasty things and i poured all my bitterness out.

Sometimes, i wish my sis can do that, so that her bitterness towards me and Mum can be confronted and dealt with. But nope, she doesnt and in the end, i was the 1 who did that. Damn.

I thank God i have gf with me, when i said the most nasty words tt hurt my Mum, gf was there talking to her. I really thank God that Mum also builds up her Faith and tried praying during such times. In the past, she wud just blame God.

Now, she would tell me: do u think this is spiritual attack?

I was like WOW MUM!

Mum prepared this for my Lunch. Looks sickly but it taste very good – it is Chicken Breast.

Ok, i din intent to put all the blame on Satan that idiot, i have my part to play for giving in to temptation (of anger) but i thank God for His faithfulness. He reconciled us back together and this time round, it is quicker than usual.

I apologized to Mum and poor Mum has to suffer all my nonsense and talk nicely to me. I really love her alot, and i really am willing to do anything for her. She really show me what is selfless love. How can anyone love me so much besides Jesus?

I did not imagine i would apologize to my sister but i eventually did.

Honestly, as much as i hate to admit, i am a rather prideful person. I have no issues of admitting wrong and saying thanks – but thats only to people i am not very familiar with. To closer friends and family members, i tend to have that nasty pride problem that hold me back from saying Thanks and Sorry. I do not know why but i am THANKFUL that i am learning how to get that pride issue aside.

From this incident, something in me vindicated me badly. Something, a voice (if you wana call it a voice) in me KEEPS telling me i am wrong.
I have no choice but to approach my sis and apologize to her.
She surprised me though, she did not say much this time except for admitting her own mistakes  (no defensive statements from her).

I then realized that actually Pride is like a heavy weight, it is extremely hard to handle as it stretches your muscles while holding them. But they are not that hard to let go, and once you let go, your muscles feel relaxed.

As of 3pm today, sis and i were chatting away like kids:

[2:51:54 PM] Valencia Lesley: hi MT
[2:51:56 PM] Valencia Lesley: i love u

[2:52:16 PM] MT Cheng: …

[2:52:23 PM] Valencia Lesley: y?

[2:52:30 PM] MT Cheng: lol

[2:52:30 PM] Valencia Lesley: i tink despite u being a XXXX sometimes
[2:52:31 PM] Valencia Lesley: i love u
[2:52:37 PM] Valencia Lesley: since young i bully u

[2:52:39 PM] MT Cheng: f off HAHA

[2:52:42 PM] Valencia Lesley: wen i teach u maths
[2:52:45 PM] Valencia Lesley: i not patient with u
[2:52:49 PM] Valencia Lesley: 1+1 = 2

[2:52:52 PM] MT Cheng: despite being XXXX. wth

[2:52:53 PM] Valencia Lesley: bt u were SO STUPID
[2:52:55 PM] Valencia Lesley: u say 3

[2:52:57 PM] MT Cheng: aiya still say

[2:53:00 PM] Valencia Lesley: then i ask again

[2:53:01 PM] MT Cheng: my maths not good.

[2:53:01 PM] Valencia Lesley: u say 4
[2:53:04 PM] Valencia Lesley: then u say 6

[2:53:09 PM] MT Cheng: SINCE WHEN I SAY that? HAHA

[2:53:09 PM] Valencia Lesley: i was lik WTF is wrong w u!??!
[2:53:12 PM] Valencia Lesley: 1+1 = 2 la?!??!?!
[2:53:18 PM] Valencia Lesley: wher the 4 6 3 come frm?
[2:53:33 PM] Valencia Lesley: HAHAAH bt i m ashamed tt i m so impatient with a small kid lik u
[2:53:35 PM] Valencia Lesley: so i am sorry
[2:53:36 PM] Valencia Lesley: i love u
[2:53:43 PM] Valencia Lesley: n u said tt
[2:53:50 PM] Valencia Lesley: bc i rem clearly i scolded u say u stupid
[2:53:55 PM] Valencia Lesley: althou really abit stupid
[2:54:02 PM] Valencia Lesley: bt u were jus a kid
[2:54:03 PM] Valencia Lesley: i m sorry
[2:54:13 PM] Valencia Lesley: n i noe u are capable of bigger things
[2:54:19 PM] Valencia Lesley: so u r nt stupid ok

[2:57:31 PM] MT Cheng: haiz.
[2:57:39 PM] MT Cheng: i know im born smart

[2:57:44 PM] Valencia Lesley: … not really.

[2:57:46 PM] MT Cheng: but my talents are hidden
[2:57:48 PM] MT Cheng: HAHHA
[2:57:48 PM] MT Cheng: u guys didnt know

[2:57:52 PM] Valencia Lesley: lol!

[2:57:54 PM] MT Cheng: till now

[2:57:54 PM] Valencia Lesley: omg.

[2:57:55 PM] MT Cheng: well

[2:57:55 PM] Valencia Lesley: hahahhahah

[2:57:57 PM] MT Cheng: not so late

[2:57:57 PM] Valencia Lesley: WADEVER

[2:57:58 PM] MT Cheng: LOL!

[2:58:02 PM] Valencia Lesley: i m gona post this
[2:58:04 PM] Valencia Lesley: shit u

[2:58:06 PM] MT Cheng: WTF

[2:58:10 PM] Valencia Lesley: 😉

[2:58:11 PM] MT Cheng: HAHA
[2:58:15 PM] MT Cheng: blackmail
[2:58:19 PM] MT Cheng: can sue u for that
[2:58:19 PM] MT Cheng: haha

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHAHA

I was very happy and i am still happy. We are now planning for our first Family trip for Mummy’s Birthie! 😀

I will most prolly be away for Aug for Mum’s birthie and the Project i have with gf. I pray for Open doors of Opportunities from God and i see how He guide me step by step, small steps and big steps. I believe He has a plan for me (and gf) so i believe we will do well. Praise the Lord!

Went to visit Gf at the MBS suite and she bought bubbles for me! So happy! 😀
Chris and her (and my Mum) say that i am like a kid.

Then, before  May ends, i had an argument with Seven. I really do not think it is right to say it here but i also do not know if it is my fault.
I asked a few people about it and besides acknowledging tt i have a screwed up temper issue, the real problem here is not only my temper issue but a friendship issue.

Something is very wrong with the friendship.
Sometimes i feel that i am not being treated fairly in this friendship as her priority is no longer the friendship or something pure and fair. Her priority now is Gary, her beau, who happens to be a good friend of both of us too.
Hate to say this, i am not envy of her because after seeing what she is going through in this r/s, i really thank God i am single.
Not saying that she is suffering or whatever, that is not up to me to judge, but i am saying i wouldnt want to be in her position.
Hate to say this, i am not jealous at all but i do feel that the Seven i respect is now another person whom i might feel very …hard to find words.
I just feel that she changed and i can only say i am silly to expect from a human.
As much as she is very spiritual, kind, helpful and please-fill-up-the-list-with-all-the-good-virtue-pointers, she is still a human after all.
Why am i expecting her to be the same rational friend that held neutral stands that i once had?

I do not know what to do with the argument that we had, we basically did not talk after tt.
Knowing her well, she is not the least bothered because friendship, r/s, kinship and wadever ships to her are just secondary.
She told me she wouldnt even cry if someone close pass away. What do you think?
I know she is a rational person and some call her cold hearted. But i just thought it is not a problem for her to get over.

I did not tink of apologizing because i am still rather disturbed with what had happened. If doing something for me in the not so legal way is not possible, then why get me involved with the policy in the first place? Because even if i do not trouble Gary to help out, the whole thing is still Not legal.
So whether you get Gary to help me or not, you are still involving me in a NOT legal thing what. Why do you have to portray how righteous Gary is then? I mean, if he and you are so righteous, then why are you all doing the same not very legal thing for others?
I am not very sure about how insurance policies work thus you cant expect me to know everything. Is like, do you need to use  the word “Fraud” on me, hello?

Ok thats so much i am revealing, i am not gona get anyone into trouble by saying more, if you are smart, you would have guessed it.

As for me, i understand that when one apologize, it doesnt always mean that one is wrong, it is sometime for the r/s.
But for this case, i really do not know what to do, apologize for my attitude perhaps? But not for her selfish thoughts for Gary before me. I understand he is her beau but i feel crappy inside me.

Would also like to say this, yes i admit i kinda expect everyone to behave like me and i am really trying my best to change this very BAD habit of mine. Of course, i cant expect everyone to be fair and not 重色轻友 (the 4 chinese characters means one that cares more for his or her beau so much to the extent of neglecting friends)

I have my moments of being sucha bad person before too. I was busy being depressed with my last Ex, and i neglected Regine (which also made her very bitter towards me even after so long. She recently confessed that to me. Yes, how nice to have family arguments, frenship problems all tog right?)

But honestly Regine, i hope you see this and think about it, i have helped you many times before which i hate to claim credits for those times, you helped me multiple times before too. But you do realize that you ‘abandoned‘  me for some guys before too right? You do realize that as much as Adrian was a real jerk, i was blind that time and i wanted to marry him and thus i was depressed like mad when he abused  me and betrayed me during that time right? Y did you hate me so much for that 1 year of me abandoning you? I basically abandoned myself back then, dont you realize? SIGH.

I cant expect everyone to be as ‘tough’ & ‘cool’ as me, but u know how i cringe whenever Seven does the doll voice to coax Gary each time we are out. I mean, ok fine…couples like to do these lovey dovey things but i am not invisible, if you want to do all these, perhaps i shouldnt join the outing…right? It is really awkward for me.

I am a terrible person lah. I can only get along with certain people because these people accept me and i can accept them fully with no frustrations.
Terrible right?

I wouldnt be like others bc i wouldnt find excuses to defend myself saying i am cool because i am who i am. I am indeed terrible, that i admit.
I know i have been told that the real problem is me because i cant get along with people.
I agree, sadly.

I am trying to accept people and i am learning but i am still not able to do it. I think i need time and His Grace.

While typing this, my colleague who lost 7kg from the Nuskin TRA programme, came and remarked on my diet sarcastically AGAIN.

She lost alot of weight and it is obvious, from 75, 76kg to 68kg now? Well i do not know if she lies about her weight but from her shape, i can tell she lost weight. Good for her but she has been pushing me to buy that TRA thing for the longest time even after i told her i have commitment issues as i am with the Gym now and i am saving up for stuffs.

I would love to try TRA, why not right? I wana slim down too. I gained like 10 kg in a year of stuffing everything into my mouth last year.
But i would love to know i work for what i want, i cant deny i have fallen in love with exercising – Cycling, Swimming, Stretching and etc.
She pities me CONSTANTLY and say i am very 可怜 (pitiful), but i do not feel i am suffering.
She dissed my exercise regime, i was like…wads wrong with exercising???? Yes i would try TRA if i can afford to (it is $2k over for 3mths)
BUT i would still exercise EVEN if i am doing through that TRA crap.
I thought i made myself very clear already.
She dissed my healthy fruits and salad diet because she can eat fried chicken chops and other fried food because she has that TRA thing.
But why cant i eat healthy instead? Besides slimming down, i would like to be healthy too what?!
All those pills and supplements makes one slim down in a rapid rate, if i say i do not want that, i am lying.
But i also treasure my workout times, i love to work out and tone my muscles, i love to eat healthy now.

Nothing wrong right?

Used to think tt 15mins on the cycling machine is crazy but i did 45mins ytd.

I honestly dont really care what you will say or dissed abt cycling because i have alot of people telling to me that it doesnt wrk if you wana slim down and etc
No doubt, i hope it works but if it doesnt, i will still love cycling. Just because you do not have the heart to cycle or cant put your lazy bum on that machine, just because you cant put in effort to exercise and you dissed me of the exercises i do… thats very mean.
Dont be surprise because there are alot of people like that around. They love to bring others down because they cant do it. They are hoping you are as lazy as them.

Dearie Mummy prepared apples for me for lunch. 3 small apples! Yummy.

 

So you see, here i am complaining about another person. Terrible right?

I know I know and I know. I know i should learn to accept people and see their Good besides their Flaws. Because i wouldnt want others to see my flaws only.

Just this Morning, i bumped into Alex – my churchmate and his wife. I said hi and smiled, the wife looked away as usual whereas he greeted me happily and asked me how am i.
You see, Alex is a wonderful man, he is humble and helpful to everyone. I wouldnt say the same of his Wife because she is from HK and many told me she has a different culture background. (LAME EXCUSE FOR HER RUDENESS I KNOW, i rolled my eyes when the people told me that too)

Basically, She chooses her friends carefully. (even her husband says that)
I do not know if it is a bad thing because frankly, you cant blame her as you see, i choose friends too. (read above and you know what are the people i really wouldnt like to be friends with)

But i do think that as much as you choose friends, you have to have Manners lah. People say hi to you, smile at you, but you glared and look away?

I might not be AS RICH as those that you see in church (whom you have to suck up to), i might not be as pretty as your expectation, i might not be wearing Pradas and LV, I might not be the most spiritual gal in the church.

BUT I HAVE NEVER OFFENDED YOU IN ANYWAY!? I EVEN OFFERED YOU DRINKS, I TRIED TO GET FOOD FOR YOU WHEN WE WERE DINNING TOGETHER, I TRIED TO BE NICE.

I am not what you expect me to be and you can Don’t Friend Me , but you have NO MANNERS.

Hongkong teach you to be like that meh? Or Jesus taught you that? (ok Jesus will never teach her that i am sure)

So my main point here is, i wana whine about people who irritated me for the past week. Nothing preachy. Just pure rantings.

Anyway, back to what i was saying, i was a terrrible person because my attitude to people depends on theirs to me. This is not totally wrong but it kinda reflects my low EQ. I cant help it. I am trying hard to change.  I have no excuses for myself but i can tell you…it is NOT EASY.

God have Mercy on me.

It is Fri tomorrow and a new Month is coming. The upcoming months will be very challenging and i am glad i have my God, my family and gf with me. A BIG THANKS to gf for realizing my dream a bit faster for me, and she has been very supportive too. Love her.
I also wana thank Chris for ‘lending’ gf to me for this tough period. 🙂

I love Mummy and my Sis, i really pray that they can be healthy and safe 24/7. (Random but mean it)

Ok Anyway, the coming weeks i will be really busy so i thought i better blog today before i go MIA for sometime.

Someone asked if i will still be blogging more, i dont know man.It depends.If i am free and i feel like it, why not?

If i am lazy and all (hope you know that blogging is rather tedious. thank God i am just a normal blogger that blogs for i duno who.
Imagine the stress of the ‘famous bloggers’ of having to commit?? Meh)

Ok, i gtg. Good weekend everyone~ Till next post and God bless.

p/s: i hope you are not surprise by the exceptional huge amount of rantings in this post. I really feel i have to let out the steam. I really am trying my best to be good but i really do not know where else can i vent out. I am human but that is not an excuse for my errors i know. Pray for me?

🙂

BFF?

 Friends are just people that God send at different phases of your life.
People that you need and people who need u at different chapters of life.

Some stay while some leave, some forgive some bear grudges, some for life and some for season.
They have to go some how, for some reason only God knows why.

If one wants to hate, we cant control, if one wants to leave, by all means.

你會不會 – Fish Leong

房間是你的氣息你還沒醒
緊緊地頭挨著你你伸手握我手心
這是真的還是種夢境
被捧在手心還是不確定

愛來來去去走走停停
無論多小心
說過不放感情直到我遇見你
這不是運氣是種默契
卻讓我恐懼
你會不會美麗往往都易碎
對不對

遺憾變暖意暖意變淚滴
淚滴變成鑽石我珍惜被你珍惜
愛是水晶好透明又怕被跌碎的心
偷偷竊喜 屏住呼吸

愛來來去去走走停停
無論多小心
說過不放感情直到我遇見你
這不是運氣是種默契
卻讓我恐懼
你會不會熱情往往會減退
對不對

愛來來去去走走停停
無論多小心
說過不放感情不再患得患失
這不是運氣是種篤定
更怕會失去
你會不會決心最後會撤退
會不會

Vdates 3rd and 4th week of May

Hi^

Wanted to drag this post because it is really quite a dread.

But knowing myself, i will probably not blog if i drag any longer.

This is just an update for last week (was it? ok it is) and this week lah. save time. hahah.

Cant wait for this week to be over as i am running dry and i need my pay day!

Last week, my pals and i celebrated Regine’s bday on Fri night. It was a working day and everyone was tired.

But i guess we had fun.

I thank God that Ricky was there, managed to ask him about some stuff i desperately need to know.

So all of us had Jpot for dinner, and we went over to Sentosa for some unusual ‘Fun’.

Discarding the usual idea of drinking, singing or clubbing, we proceeded to chill by the beach.

Best wishes to my bday gal Regine.

On Sunday, i met gf for brunch and we went swimming after that. It was our 1st time swimming together.

The food looks good but it was actually just alright. I like the concept of the place though, is very suitable for people like us that likes to sit, chill, chat and noms.
Price of food is abit steep and the location is not very accessible unless you are driving.

Check out Garden Slug.

Gf came over sometime last week to have dinner and my Mum cooked so much food. The above pic was not taken then but Mum was cooking similar food that day except that there was Battered Prawns (i am hungry again, is 5pm)

Anw, Swimming was fun and tiring, i always love swimming. Hope i can go over often to swim!

During the weekend, i went over to Grannys and spent time with Granny, Aunt and Mum. Granny stays at Kallang Airport an needless to say, the food over  there (Old Airport Road) is beyond description. We bought so much to share among oursleves.

The following week (which is this week) was really tough as Mum sprained her knee and till date, we do not know what is exactly wrong with her knee and we are waiting for MRI scan. Sis and i were with poor Mum at the hospital and she looked scared and sad because of the fall.
The medical bills are choking up too but still manageable. Thank God.

Like what i mentioned earlier on, i thank God for what happened because who knows what worse things might have happened.

Nevertheless, Mum is recovering well and i pray that she will recover completely soon.

Would also like to thank Gary for holding a very fun and interesting Health Talk for my members – work.

The participants were totally amused and entertained, (you know how boring some health talk and workshops can be).

Man, he is really good at what he does.

After the workshop, we went for dinner at ChinaTown and Seven brought us to have Sichuan food. It was my 1st time eating Sichuan food and although it tastes weird, i am quite ok with it and i quite like it. Went to chill after that and i went home early because i was sleepy.

I am very happy because tomorrow is PH (public holiday) and that means i can watch movies till morning. HAHAHA.

Nah, i will have to do stuffs tomorrow, Gym, packing my room, visiting aunt and accompanying Mum. Speaking of which, i think i better msg my aunt now, she had a day surgery and was wondering how is she.

I will be enjoying my long weekend and i will end here. Till next post, God bless~

Till the next chapter …

Today marks the last day of the trial for the time being, for City Harvest Church.

Despite the very awkward headlines i saw on the Chinese tabloids and how twisted the reports were written ( according to my Aunt who read the news on Xin Ming), these 2 weeks was really good for the 6.

I would rather say, God has been very good for the righteous these weeks.

Praise the Lord.

I am doing my last round of updates for now.

Read More Here and Here.

Here is another unique article that is worth reading. It is an interview with 1 of my favourite preachers- Pastor Phil Pringle!

READ ABOUT PASTOR PHIL’S INTERVIEW 🙂

I remember how i came to know about him.

I was away from church for approximately a year? After backsliding for a year, i went back to church with nothing.

I was sucha wreck, i lost my job, i lost my health, i was badly abused by an ex…

That particular service, Pastor Phil invited those that have not receive Christ to go forward, as well as those that has been away from Christ and would wish to go back to Christ. I remember dashing out despite being very embarrassed and lost (i have been away from church for sometime and was very unfamiliar).

Pastor Phil then stretched out his hand to shake mine, and asked for my name. He told me that Jesus is very happy to have me back again.

I teared immediately.

I remember that moment so well.

Is like…he can ask anyone for their names, there were approx 100 over people who went out to him. (altar call) But he asked for mine first and honestly, the way he looked into my eyes and told me Jesus is very happy to have me back, really touched me greatly.

 

Anyway

Till the day that Truth to be set free, we give thanks to Jesus and His love and mercy.

 Romans 8:28 
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose

Are you also judging Sun Ho?

You probably see this piece of news or worse reports on Sun Ho using the Church funds for her unsuccessful singing career.

I do not know how to react to such nasty remarks made by the local mainstream media, i seriously dont know.

Frankly,i understand how much we are lagging behind when it comes to Gossipy/ Newsworthy Entertainment News.

But i never expect  the local journalists to be writing such remarks of personal attack, in order to be like another paparazzi of the INFAMOUS Apple Daily.

Right, you are saying that i am speaking up for my Pastor’s wife but i make sure i am stating reasonable reasons when i speak up for her.

1) How do you measure Success?

My Mum has been asking me to buy the newspaper these days (she is recovering well, and i believe God is still with her. 🙂 so thanks all! )
Mum is rather concern about the recent CHC case as well. However, i did not buy a single copy of papers.

To be honest, i feel very pissed off when reading the one sided and lop sided reports of the local papers.
It doesnt help when the content is always repeated.
Whats worse is that the repeated content is always so ridiculously warped and frankly, they are more like assumptions of ignorance than facts.

I lost faith in the papers.

After they have lost all ideas on what to write, they compare Sun Ho with Stephanie Sun, they personal attacked Sun Ho and judged her success.

I do not know how they measure success. Perhaps the easiest way to determine success is the number of trophies and prizes and  the album sales of a singer.

But Success, in my opinion is the ability of a person to influence others. 

 Whatever you said of her, you cant deny how many people she influenced right. 
I mean, spiritually, and frankly, i seen people turning to God and leading a better life after salvation through her Crossover projects.
How to deny that?

Of course, if you are not a believer, there will be tons to argue.

You would ask me why would she spread about Jesus if it is a secular singing career.

I can only say, that is why we call it the Crossover.

We do not believe that Hollywood and the entertainment industry can only contain Drugs, Fame, Sex and Money.

We believe Jesus can crossover to the ‘lost world’, we believers of  Jesus need not be boring. 

We believe that Christians need not be singing hymns all the time to be holy and proper.

Besides that, as a celebrity, she has done her part as a performer and i dont see how she is not successful.

She sings better than most of the singers nowadays anyway.

As a Celebrity of ability to influence, she did more than what a singer does.

You cant deny the good works she did, the various foundations she has under her name, the various schools and care centers and etc…

Then again, you might not know. Because the local media were busy reporting the comparison between Sun Ho and Steph Sun.

It is that important to compare, really?

Nevertheless, you may still see the numerous contributions of Sun Ho here:

For China Wine lovers and haters, sorry but that is really not the only song she has.

You really have to stop being ignorant if you KEEP HARPING ON THAT 1 MTV because i personally was touched by this song (below) that describe my Savior JESUS CHRIST thoroughly :

2) Why isnt Sun Ho talented?

I seriously do not understand the headline (in the papers) above. Is she really sucha terrible singer or performer to deserve that criticism?

She is talented. She is beautiful. In what way is she not? (again, subjective lah)

She sings beautifully, she doesnt croak like some singers. She can dance and she doesnt move like some puppets like some performers.

Having said that, this topic is debatable and is vry subjective.

Most importantly, she touches me and many people whenever she is worshiping.

Anyway,

I pray that you can read  updates and news with discernment and wisdom thus you may also differentiate NEWS and GOSSIPS.

I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You

I used to wonder what  this song really means. How can i love someone before meeting him/her?

This is a song from the 90s. Almost everyone loves  this song and nobody actually dislike it, i think.

But i  didnt understand how does one love another  before meeting him/her?

Now i do.

The preparation works you do, the way you prepare yourself for your partner even if he/she hasnt appear.
Praying for your partner even before he/she appearing in your life…

The way you learn to cook before he/she appears, the way you learn to be patient with people so that you cultivate a better nature and  be a person with better temper when he/she appears.

The way you learn to love unconditionally so you will be selfless when he/she appears.

Thats how you love someone before you met him/her.

But you know who shows the greatest example that He loves you even before He met you?

Thats right. JESUS CHRIST is the One that loves me even before i am born on earth. He died 2000 yrs ago for me.

This kind of Love is just so great & magnificent .

Thats what He did for me and my family.

Thus i definitely Trust Him this time round and He is still loving us…He is the same 2000 yrs ago, today and tomorrow.

There is nothing he wouldnt do for us because He doesnt know how to shortchange us.

All i have to do, is to keep my Faith. Constant Faith.

🙂

I trust U

It is with heavy heart that i write this. The 2 weeks since last week was really hectic.

My leader going for the trial and before the 2 weeks of trial ends, my Mum fell and got admitted to Hospital.

I am worried but i know Jesus is with her.

Despite being worried and really weary from all the happenings and stress, i have peace in my heart because i know Jesus is here with us.

Please keep my Mum in prayers.

I am praying for Mummy and also my Church and my leaders.

Dear Lord, U are still on the throne.

We trust you.

Worse things might have happened but because You are with us, we are still safe and breathing.

 

City Harvest Church Trial: Auditor’s Knowledge And Approval Central To Case – updated as of 18 May ’13

 Lai confirmed that Sim’s concerns stemmed not from his doubts about the genuineness of the Xtron bond investments, but from possible conflict of interests, given the relationship between Xtron and CHC; it appeared that Baker Tilly did not have an issue with whether the bonds were bona fide.

The use of the building fund for investments, including into Xtron and Firna bonds, was disclosed to the auditor, the board and to executive members, and no concern in relation to this had been raised.

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Credit of source: http://www.citynews.sg

God is with you, Eng Han.

The trial of City Harvest case will continue on Monday.

The court is closed today due to internal event.

Meanwhile, the discerning Christians from all over the world is praying earnestly for our dear leaders.

Had a fruitful meeting with my leader Eng Han last night.

I really salute him.

Having going through tremendous stress in the day, he can still preach to us in the night. (nothing much about the case, focus  is on biblical knowledge and biblical preaching, if you ask)

Such an amazing professional.

He told me to have constant faith, looks like he knows my weakness before i even say anything.

Yes, i have fears in me (towards my own personal/career matters) and he gave me a rhema word yesterday.

Except that, this time, he specifically speak to me, calling my name.

I feel very very touched.

Thank you Eng Han, God is with you, i am sure.